"I hate this. I hate this," I said mumbling everywhere I went before the actually leaving my room. Taking a nice cold shower, I couldn't help but feel scared. I felt really sick as if something was coming closer to me. It was a familiar presence. Maybe it was people I knew. Would I meet my past?

I slapped my head. What were the chances of that happening? Most likely slim to none. I sat down on the floor looking at my bracelet. There were fourteen small charms adorned on my hand. A heart, fraternal twins, a hairpin, a wink, a camera, a fist, steam, pigtails, a mother, a megaphone (loud), quiet, a petal, and a pair of dance shoes. What did each of them mean? Why was I connected to each item? I had a niece whose parent started with the initials K and L.

"Cagalli!" I heard my name being called from outside the washroom.

"Yeah," I replied

"We have one hour before the attack, why don't you get something to eat, you have since last morning," I heard Madison say, "How will live or fight on with no energy?"

I came out and said, "I'll go and eat."

"You don't have your memories; it doesn't mean that you become part of the walking dead. You make new ones and live," she said

I turned and looked in her eyes, "All of the people on board this ship can't recollect anything of their past either, before those devils destroyed us, so don't think you're the only one. We've suffered and still are suffering, but now we are going to fight for all of this to end. This emptiness inside us will be gone, as soon as Coordinators and Natural learn there true nature," she said

I gaped at the girl and I saw tears come out of her eyes; all I could do was watch. I realized something, you really never are alone. I came down and hugged her and let out a few tears. My life was never going to be the same. She stopped crying a few minutes later and smiled. I smiled back and said, "Is this your first fight?"

She nodded and said, "For us, it's always a first time for everything."

"Let's go then and fight," I said

"You might not know this, but I'm scared," she said

"We all are, trust me. It easily takes a missile or a slash to take a life, but to forget that life takes a lifetime," I said

We walked to the cafeteria and I reluctantly ate something. I couldn't help but notice something strange about these people. They all seemed dead and controlled. I quickly ate my meal and Ethan came over saying, "Half an hour left."

I nodded and said, "How did you, never mind…you don't remember I guess."

He looked confused and said, "If you're asking how I got here? Your right, I don't know. Everyone is in the same position. It as if our life started on this ship."

This ship was becoming a mystery to me. Everywhere I went, I discovered confusion. I knew someone else was playing the cards, but whom and what was his motive?

"All hand prepare for task 3 of the Provoke mission," the intercom spoke

I discarded my tray and, reminding myself of my mission. Simple destroy the command centre and this part would all be over. Hopefully nothing drastic would happen and I wouldn't make a mistake. I placed my battle suit on my helmet covering my face. My face and my identity would be hidden from people, but name would always be spoken. Maybe someone would recognize my name and tell me who I was; however there was a chance that person could be lying. So the only way I could really learn who I was is through myself and a boy my age who has brown hair and purple eyes, or a person who knew what was written inside my wedding ring, or could name each person on my charm bracelet. Now how I was going to find these people would be a miracle.

I walked to the hanger and quickly modified my Gundam for aerial purposes and calculating the air density and average height monitor, I determined my energy supply and my equipment. I felt my hand receive a chock as I could remember being in a cockpit. It was red and was a clear resemblance to …a gundam…strike…something.

The Strike, I groaned. What is the Strike anyways?

There was another mobile suit. It transformed and was fully red. That Gundam and most likely the polite I knew where important, but who were they? I could see the Strike I think fighting this red gundam…A…that letter popped out in my mind screaming Aegis. That's it Aegis and Strike. I knew these Gundams, but why did I know. What was there significance in my mind? Why were they part of my memories? I snapped back to reality and quickly brushing the two mobile suits off, I continued to modify the adjustments of my Memory Gundam from water to air. I finished in a matter of minutes. The knowledge of how I did it was still lost in my head.

"You ready?" Laura said her face coming up on a screen

"Yeah," I replied and I noticed my helmet between my legs

"Nervous?" Ethan asked next

"Who wouldn't be?" I said as I slipped my helmet on my head and strapping my belt on securing my jittery stomach a bit. He wished me luck, before leaving my I leaned back on my seat. I was really nervous and was regretting to fight. For some reason my heart was pounding rapidly and I has feeling new emotions of recognition, I wondered who was on the way?

The Capitan came onto the screen last. She said, "How are you feeling?"

"Great," I said

"I apologize sending you here so fast, I know I should have helped you regain your memories, but I'm helpless. You no more then a civilian really, I can't see you as a solider," she said

"No, not at all, your reasons to fight are all true and I fight with the right not the wrong reasons. What the world has done to you is wrong and they need to realize what they have done. That's it and they need to learn to stop their ways," I said

"Yes, Cagalli only you can help us do that and nothing more," the Captain said and left

"Me," I said to the blank screen. What did she mean by that?

I turned on all my systems and launched turning on my Phase Shift armour. I had my beam rifles ready to attack. We had a total of five Gundams, and 30 mobile suits and several mobile armours. Memory, Raze, Credence and Lacerate. Ryan: Raze, Laura: Credence, Ethan: Extremity; and Madison: Lacerate. I took off after the four and wait for the ship to fire, signalling us to start. We knew the Earth Base would fall after the Control room was gone and after Ryan activated the Cyclops System. We'd use there own weapon against them.

However unknown to me, was that two ship were going to intervene and I'd face me past in metal.

The ship shoots out missile cuing us the start. I move forward attacking the Earth base detected the missiles and immediately sent out all of it forces, but we were faster and destroyed the front line in a matter of minutes and I headed out in front using my beam cannon to take out mobile suits in the sky. And using a hyper impulse cannon I took out a few ships and decided to leave the rest of the gun power waste to the others. I knew I had little time to complete me time because we didn't have enough power to destroy the Base with all the firepower they had. Once the Cyclops system was used it was over for this place and these monsters would show their true faces and learn as well as accept Halves.

I moved in twirling and taking out a couple of machine guns placed near the base. We had broken through the water border and now were on the land and I was surrounded by missiles and beams which were defected by my anti-beam coating. I closed my eyes and shoot the mobile suits down with my beam saber. I saw Ryan behind me urging me to move faster as I saw him shoot in the cockpits.

"What are you doing, don't kill them just like that," I said angrily dodging a missile.

"They're going to die anyways Cagalli, live with it," he replied coldly

If he wasn't important to Madison I would have easily let him feel what he had done. At least I gave people a chance to escape.

"What are you waiting for, move it," he said firing down more missiles and then he shot a shelter. I felt my eyes tear. I didn't want this.

Laura came after and stopped Ryan from destroying more shelters and told him, "We're here to complete our mission, not kill on the way."

"What the point," I said, "He's right; they are going to die anyways. I can't do this. I'm going back."

"You can't go anywhere, remember you're a solider and you are equipped with the power to destroy now move and do your part or die," Ryan said slowly placing his gun below my cockpit.

My hands were balled into a fist and I said, "Fine."

"Remember Cagalli, this is for their own good," she said forced

I couldn't fight against what she said. I remember a boy saying the same thing as I pointed a gun at him and he had a knife in his hand.

"I'm a ZAFT soldier till the end," he spoke

"Cagalli move, we don't have time. At this rate they'll die," Ethan said after

I went towards the heart of the base as the three lagged behind. I reached the control room and saw the people inside freeze at my Gundam's site. I placed targeted my hyper impulse cannon at the glass. My hands were shaking and I said, "I can't do this."

"If you don't then say good bye," he replied

As I was about to shoot the innocent people I said, "I…What did they have to…"

A force came by me by surprise and shot the cannon from my hands away into distance and exploded. My eyes widened and I couldn't move that presence was shocking. My heart rose and beat to its limit and, I noticed that a Red Gundam held on to the arm of my Memory.

I didn't know why but I felt tears fill up my eyes and they fell one by one.

"Don't you dare," the voice from the suit said

I froze at the sound of the three words and I didn't fight the person holding onto me. I couldn't remember who the person was inside the red gundam, I felt as if I knew him. Who was he? And why don't I know his name?

Another voice from another said, "Is this the doings of FLASH?"

I turned and saw the gundam bear a resemblance to the Strike, but was the pilot the same?

My team was confused by there presence as well and I was still frozen and whispered "I almost killed."

"Cagalli get a hold or yourself," Ethan said to my frozen form

"Attention, all of the pursing Gundams. We believe your intentions of this fight if fully incorrect. You people have no valid reason to take out this base or kill civilians. The bombing done by your team has already been forgiven and we the nation of Orb suggest you people to subdue your acts or faces the consequence of elimination. The killing sprees won't bring any good, but war," said the voice from the Red Gundam as he left go of my arm and pushed me away.

"We believe what we are doing is fully right," Ryan said

"What are you going to gain by this," Another familiar voice said

"The truth of people," Laura said again in a forced voice

"What is the point," I whispered falling to the ground and said and flashes of blood and those two Gundams in front of my eyes kept on coming. So the Strike Freedom and Infinite Justice were the names of the Gundams.

"Who are you people?" A person from the Destiny Gundam said

"We are FLASH and we are going to succeed in this mission," Ethan said taking out another gun and shooting it at Orb, until I shot the gun out of his hands saying, "Don't."

"And your identities would be marked as killer. We won't allow you people to take away anymore of the peace gained from the past bloodshed. The world has had enough of it," The voice from the mobile suit that resembled the Strike spoke again. The other Red Gundam reminded me of the Aegis as well. Could those two tell me who I was?

"Guys this doesn't look good, we have to leave," Madison said, "Orders from the Captain."

My head started hurting and I felt picture of people barrelling into my mind, but memory was incomplete and I couldn't remember who anyone was. There names, who they were? I had empty memories.

"Hey are you alright?" Laura said surrounding me

"Do you have a reply? Are you going to withdraw" the voice from the Red Gundam said.

"What is your name," I said unknown to me my radio was on, "Madison, I think I'm going to be sick. Those people, Orb, why are they so familiar? The Strike, Aegis…their pilots know who I am? I want to talk to them."

"You can't leave," Ryan said, "Your part of this now and can't leave. You die before that and that is the condition set for all of us. Once you become a part of this, you remain a part of this, whether you like it or not."

My conversation and voice was heard by everyone in the Archangel and Eternal. They were confused as well by what I talking about. Athrun, Kira, Dearka, Yzak, Luna, Rey, Shinn, Stellar, and Shiho in there Gundams all heard it as well.

"I didn't know that," I yelled, "You can't just do that and threaten me to die," kicking Ryan's Gundam.

"You should have asked then, before agreeing," he said

"So this was all a trap, to lure me in," I said to Laura and Madison and Ethan, who were all looking down.

I laughed and said, "So you used my amnesia against me. You all know who I am? Tell me please. What's my real name?"

"It wasn't like that," Madison said, "We have to leave now. We'll give you an explanation inside the ship. We need you for the mission of FLASH"

"I don't want a stupid explanation. You'll just say another lie; I'm leaving and kill me if you can. All I am used for is your purposes," I said using my mirage collide and immediately disappearing. I didn't want to leave those voices, but I had no choice as I zoomed through the level, just above the trees and rapidly went out of view. So I was fighting and doing wrong. I needed a talk with the Captain and this time was going to be different

Meanwhile…

"That person," Athrun said in lightening speed holding onto one of the remaining four, "Who is she?"

Everyone else grabbed onto the other three mobile suits, who were struggling against their hold. Ryan managed to escape, while the other didn't bother trying they knew that it was over.

"She is nothing of your concern," Ethan said

Athrun dismissed the topic and said, "Who's your leader?"

"We don't know," Madison answered, "And why would we tell you anyways?"

"What are you going to get be killing everyone," Kira said

"Listen to this clearly because we can only say this once. Keep the information you know purely confidential. That girl is the only one who knows the truth on how to stop us. She doesn't remember a thing from her past and we found her five months ago. I can't tell you who she is, because I'm not sure myself. Just do us one thing. Stop us, because in a matter of a month, we'll create another war and we can't stop ourselves. We are controlled by someone and we don't know who. For us our lives started on our ship. No memories of our past whatsoever. Why am I telling you this is because you are friends of Cagalli Yula Zala and she might have told you about us? Find the key and help us." Madison said as she self-destructed, as the other took that moment to escape.

Kira and everyone moved out of the way far enough as the other three disappeared from sight.

"We are halves. Every one of us has scars of the treatment Naturals and Coordinators have given us," was the last sentence spoken.

"She's gone," Dearka said

"She gave us a lot of information. The only person who can help us now is that girl," Athrun said, "She has to remember her past to help us, and I'll make sure she does."

"Athrun, that girl's voice it seemed familiar," Kira said

"I think she knows us," Yzak said next, "The Strike and Aegis were your two Gundams."

"She was found five months ago. If it were six, that could have meant that Cagalli was alive," Luna said

"She couldn't be Cagalli," Dearka said, "Why would she be with the bad guys?"

"I don't think they're bad," Athrun said, "There controlled by someone greater. They want to basically provoke the Natural and Coordinator so they'll blame each other and start another stupid war."

"Where could there base be," Shiho said

"It seems that whoever there leader is want revenge from us because of what and how people treated Halves before," Kira said

"I agree, anyways the Earth Alliance Base is still in good shape, we should explain to them the circumstances of things," Athrun said

"I remember how they feel," Stellar said, "I know that there minds were swiped of all there memories and replaced with nothing, until you become mad with emptiness. We came save them I know that. The process is simple but we need to find their base first."

They all nodded and decided to first talk to the Earth Alliance Leader, then go back to Orb and look around to the key. Maybe all their answers were within that one key, but what was it.

I on the other hand docked my mobile suit and headed straight for the Captain. She greeted my happily and I said one thing, "I have had enough!"