Hey Everyone,

Listen to this

I had such an odd day and week

First a guy crashed into my dad on Friday, the damage is like a lot!

Then today a mental person locked himself up in his house

And I can't believe I missed the special unit in Action!

The helmets

Bullet proof vests

Umm, oh yes machine guns

Oh and I lost this chapter

I found it half done, and quickly finished it

So now what a day and what a Friday

Enjoy!

It was early in the morning when I woke up beside Aiden again. The little baby was still asleep and I was so happy and proud at how mature this child was and pulled though everything without a fuss. I could feel my life coming back, and whenever I looked into this child eyes and just plainly look at him precious memories would come back, especially of a boy. He had sapphire blue hair, and at first I thought I was thinking of Aiden's dad, but when I could see his eyes, I reconsidered. I could feel that this boy was a huge part of my life…and I loved him greatly.

The problem was his name and identity. I had no clue who he was, or what he technically looked like. Hopefully I'd know the truth sooner or later.

I was walking to get some breakfast, the past few days, with Aiden, I learned what hunger was? And that I needed food in my system.

I finished my breakfast and headed back with Aiden's little breakfast, since in knew he was up. The little boy healed quickly. I entered the room and saw a nurse checking his stats and smiled as Aiden flashed a cute smile at her. I couldn't help but smile.

"You know Ms. Cagalli, he has your smile," she said leaving the room.

I felt a strange emotion in my heart, as she said Ms. Cagalli. It sounded so wrong, and I felt a sudden distaste. I saw a memory clearly come back

I ran outside to the cool night sky. I heard a shuffle and saw a man come out. I glared at his face and moved away, but he grabbed onto my arm to prevent me from getting any father.

"Now wait just one moment Ms. Cagalli, I haven't finished my talking with you," he said

"That's Mrs. Zala to you got it, and I don't have time for this," I said tugging my arm for release.

"Feisty aren't we, alright Mrs. Zala, but enjoy these days for now, because there won't be any soon, since you'll be somewhere else." He said leaving, but not before brushing his finger on my breast.

I slapped him and said, "Keep you dirty fingers away."

He held his cheek, smiling, "I'll get you for that."

I gasped in plain horror coming out of the memory I just learned

Who the hell was he? And how dare he touch me? What surprised me the most was that he called me Mrs. Zala, but why? Why couldn't I remember being Cagalli Zala? Even in that memory I called myself Cagalli Zala, but why couldn't I accept it? Why couldn't I still see myself as seeing her?

There was something I still didn't know in this picture and I was going to find out. I closed my eyes and tired to remember my past as her, but nothing came. However I kept on forgetting one thing, that made it even hard to remember Cagalli Zala was me, and until I couldn't accept that, and figure out through my memories who the face and name of my husband was, I would never figure out if that fact was true. I also needed to remember her face.

I felt a tug on my sleeve; as I looked down to see Aiden smiling at me.

"I'm starting to believe that I actually am your mother Aiden," I said as he laughed

"Yes, now it's time for breakfast. Little boys need food to become big boys," I said as Aiden laughed again.

I placed him in my lap carefully since he was still very delicate and he ate some soft pancakes. He looked at the bowl of fruit I got and reached out for the small pieces of strawberries. He picked up the piece and stuffed it into his mouth and ate it happily as I remembered another flashback

I saw Athrun came with ice cream and a blonde girl asked him if it was okay for Aiden to eat some. Athrun gave some of his strawberry since it didn't have any things inside and was smooth and creamy. Aiden loved the strawberry flavour.

"Now I know why I ate a lot of strawberries during my pregnancy, you absolutely love strawberries Athrun," she said

"Yep, I guess Aiden got my taste of strawberries," Athrun said licking his ice cream, as she ate my own. Aiden frowned at her and pointed at the cone Athrun was eating.

She smiled and said, "Athrun, you stole Aiden's cone. That wasn't nice."

Athrun looked at Aiden and laughed holding the cone and giving Aiden licks. I was lucky Aiden didn't eat chocolate ice cream. She got up and asked, "Athrun want to get you another?"

"No, I'm fine," he said as Aiden finished his ice cream and he ate the cone.

She nodded and she threw her garbage out and joined her two favorite people, looking at the colours of the sky changing as the sun was on its way to setting.

"I can see why you like strawberries Aiden, but I still can't see who the girl is, who Cagalli Zala is?" I said as Aiden popped another strawberry in his mouth.

I sipped a glass of mango juice and I saw Aiden curious at the drink I was drinking

"You want some?" I asked the little baby who nodded as I found and spoon and scooped up my juice and Aiden opened his mouth widely to accept the juice. I placed it in his mouth and he closed it, and I took the empty spoon out. I looked at Aiden's face who was registering the taste. He smiled, and I knew that he like the flavour.

I continued to give him spoonfuls of juice, until the glass was finished and I said, "Well Aiden, I have to go soon. Now I want you to be a good boy and eat the food the nurses give you and drink your medicine and rest and take naps, okay?"

The baby nodded and laughed. I couldn't help but join him.

I kissed him on the forehead and said, "I'll be back soon, I promise."

The baby sighed and closed his eyes to sleep. I kissed his cheek, etching his face in my mind and left.

I walked to my gundam and made sure visit Ann before leaving, and I told her to make sure, if there was any little problem, even if Aiden wasn't eating his food, and then call her back, because she knew Aiden wasn't going to be like that without a reason. The smile on Ann's face was remarkable.

"You honestly need to accept the facts Cagalli," she said

"I'm getting there," I said, "I still need to remember everything, before I meet Athrun. He might be the key to unlocking my mind."

"You have no idea how much Athrun means to you don't you?" she asked

I shook my head, "How'd I get him, is another question that pops in my mind. I know in a way that I am that person, but I still need to be sure. I would feel horrible if I came back not complete, but empty. I prefer to have all my memories and remember everything, before going back home. Also, I don't plan on revealing myself until, that bastard of a leader is dead."

"So I'll see you soon," she said

"I should come back in a maximum of two days. My baby helped me a lot by basically showing me where I was going," I said

"Yes, he's got a lot of you in him," she said

"I hope so, I'll go now, bye," I said entering my cockpit and leaving.

I shot out of the ship and disillusioned into the scene and went straight up using my jet pack. As I passed the atmosphere, I looked at the Earth and its natural beauty.

"Wow!" I said as I quickly passed by the moon and skimmed through the debris belt. She found her escort vessel and dismounted off her mobile suit and kept it disillusioned, while floating to the transport carrier, until she came to the PLANTs. It was amazing how real everything was, since it was false, in a way.

I was also surprised to find out that my chaperon was Ethan.

"Are you a spy?" I asked him in the elevator

"Not really, I'm just bored, plus I know your going to get lost," he said smiling

"Well at least I have company," I said

"You mean servant," he mumbled, and I noticed that he carrying all of my stuff.

"Whoops," I said.

"It's okay," he said as we entered the street of a city.

"I want to get this over with," I said.

"One question, where are we exactly going?" he said

"Here," I said giving him the written address. He nodded and brought out a car from who knows where and we drove silently. I could remember this place.

I kept on bobbing my head in sleep, and I heard Ethan say, "No ones telling you to not go to sleep. We'll be there in about a couple of hours."

I nodded and fell asleep with a flashback

Athrun drove for an hour and I kept on bobbing my head cueing I wanted sleep.

"You can sleep if you want. I'll wake you up when get there," He said.

I relaxed into the warm seat and finally sleep overtook me.

A few hours went by and I felt someone shake me. I jerked and opened my eyes seeing Ethan's blue ones and I calmed down.

"Calm down it's just me," he said flashing another part of that same memory

I woke up being lifted into strong arms. I woke up in a fright.

"Calm down. It's just me." He said

I stepped out of the car and walked as the memory continued

I relaxed as we walked to a soaring and beautiful mansion. It looked brand new and gave a vibe of life outside. I opened my mouth in admiration. The flowers were opening up to the dawn light and the rising sun shined the dew and the surface. It looked like on of those mystical and surreal places you never thought existed.

"Wow," Ethan said

"It's beautiful," I said

"How are we going to get in, it's locked," he said walking to the front and opening the door.

I realized something engraved into the wall and just as I suspected a key popped out.

He placed me down and went to look for something. Getting the key from who knows where we entered to a masterpiece.

Everything was as I remembered it, I thought walking around the place

"Mother loved this house very much. Neither I nor my father could sell it or give it away." He said.

"It looks amazing. Is this a dream?" I asked.

"No it's my, no soon to be our home," He said

"Really, you not kidding are you," I said touching the place

There were sheets on the furniture. I took them of to meet antique stuff that still had shine in it. I had never seen such a wondrous place in my existence. I knew I would keep visiting this place ever time I had the chance. If I did have a choice to live somewhere I would be this place, and Athrun knew that very well might I add. I went upstairs and Athrun followed I opened a door. Inside was a child's room full of toys and pictures. I could tell this was Athrun's room when he was younger. There was furnished table that was clear of any mess. A shelf of trophies and awards and a little working space, which in the middle had a box, I walked towards it Athrun eyes never leaving my intrigued self.

I opened the box, and out came some weird gadgets they must have been Athrun's earlier projects. There was a flying dragon that I insisted on keeping. He had a worried look on his face, even so he agreed. I later figured out why. The dragon had a knack of spitting out ash and technically barfed a lot if it out covering me in soot. Yes the face Athrun had was in pure amusement as I chased him all over the house later on spilling a jug of water on his clothes. Getting cleaned up rejecting the dragon, we continued or rather I looked around the house some more. I was clearly annoyed at him. I entered the family room and there was a portrait of the happy family. I stood there staring at it. Beside was a family tree. There were generations of the Zala family and was a spot beside Athrun name for his wife, I read the supposed empty space.

The love of me life who is also known as the Goddess of Victory

Cagalli Yula Attha.

I reached the tree as the name was changed to Cagalli Zala.

"Hey, you okay," he asked

"Fine, just memories were refreshed," I said, "This place is really close to my heart."

"So, figure out any unanswered questions?" he asked

"I will soon. There's something in this room," I said standing up, "I have to remember more of my memories to figure out, what exactly I am looking for."

"Okay, I'll go get us some dinner, good luck," he said leaving.

I sat down curious. I felt like there was a secret in each and every part of this room, but what and where.

I saw a girl woke to the misty breeze of departure. She was up early and Athrun was still snoozing. She kissed him on the cheek and went to look at this again before they left, but this wasn't going to be her last visit. She would keep on coming to this home and visit. She knew that is what Athrun would want too. She visited the family room and took a look at the family tree. Sometime during the week Athrun must have added the Child of Future Mr. and Mrs. Zala. She smiled and walked to the garden taking in a look, the shuttle was for noon, and the drive was long.

She sat and heard the shower run on. Athrun must have woken. She was already ready to leave. Her brother and sister-in-law weren't due for another two weeks and she missed them greatly. Her thoughts went back to the plaque. She couldn't imagine having a child with another person but Athrun. In as many years as she knew him for, he became her secret of happiness in her life. She clung onto to him, because she never wanted him to leave her, or her side. She felt selfish at that moment. Athrun wasn't a property that you should on; he was the person who loved her life more than anything. She brought an album with her, an album of memories. It was digital so she could update it anywhere. She placed it in the family room in the pocket behind her name on the family tree.

"That's it," I said and got up to find that album, totally forgetting about the fact that I knew who I was. I found the name Cagalli Zala and looked behind and there it was. The album she saw in her memories, probably the key to unlock her memories.

As she looked at the disk as strange and memory came back,

"The papers are up right. Well I'll sign them and send them to Athrun's room okay," I said turning and walking up the stairs instead of taking the elevator and I passed through each floor. I wanted to treasure everything, and the people watching me noticed. I walked to my office and closed the door so nobody noticed. I sat on my chair sinning around. It was funny how childlike I could be when I was married, a mother and once ruled and country.

I saw the papers in front. I flipped the pages and noticed how I had to sign a lot of pages meaning that I had to read. I sat on my chair comfortably and read each page and word carefully to make sure that there weren't any mistakes.

After a while I finished and closed the file. A word caught my attention. I looked at it closely. A unique name for a group, there was something wrong. I quickly signed the papers and turned onto my computer. I went to a site that seemed similar to the word. It was password blocked. I cursed and thought carefully. There was one thing Manes kept on mentioning. Taking a lucky guess I typed down a phrase. To my surprise it was accepted and I quickly looked over the document shocked at what I figured out. What if this was a joke. Maybe Manes was pulling up another trick. I was fighting two sides, so I transferred all the documents to a disk and placed it in one of my pockets. I took the file and walked the Athrun's office and opened the door to a neat room. I sat down on one the chairs and placed the file carefully onto his desk. I saw a family picture of us and I smiled at how happy we were, but that was then.

I placed the frame down on the table and got up to leave, but then I remembered the disk. Confused on whether put that on his desk as well, I sat back down to think. I held my head in frustration and angrily placed the disk in at the bottom of his file drawer. There done and over it.

I slipped the disk in my pocket of the album and wondered who Manes was? How happy we were? I thought. What did I mean about that, and I remembered that all my questions were almost answered. I was indeed a mother and did I once rule Orb? Then I remembered the computer.

I turned it on anxiously waiting for it to load completely and then I had to search where that file exactly was.

It dreaded what seemed like 5 hours to only be two minutes and at last the computer loaded. I clicked on the My Computer button and clicked search. I swore as I forgot that I didn't even know the file name. I tired FLASH, Halves, all sorts of different stuff, but found nothing.

This wasn't going to be a piece of cake, since I couldn't even remember through the memory.

I sat down for a moment. Thinking about myself and what type of a person I was. I could say I was a very affectionate person, with a fiery spirit and I always believed that there is a tomorrow. I was in love with my child Aiden, and I knew I was attracted to this Athrun person, who could very well be my husband, my beloved. I knew I loved my husband very much, and I could picture Athrun being that unfamiliar blue haired man in my dreams.

'Wow, I was in love with a Greek god,' I thought to myself, then reminded, that I didn't know for sure.

I slapped myself for getting sidetracked by technically the King of Orb. I thought about the file name. I wrote randomly and still couldn't seem to find the file, and it would definitely take time to look through every single file on this computer. I couldn't even remember the date this file was given, thus making it even harder.

My mind was screaming to me at how important this dumb file was. And I continued to try. I sat down after an hour eating the dinner Ethan brought as he was currently beside me trying o crack a simple file name.

"Who knew trying to figure out a stupid file name, could have been so complicated," I said (Yes people, I lost this chapter, and gave it a random name, and it took me quite a while to find it. It was in my C drive.)

I sat back on my chair thinking…about random stuff, the wars, FLASH, Aiden, this ship, my gundam, I wondered what my future held and the world's future.

My head clicked I jumped up and type a file name. Waiting anxiously for a result I found it!

"I found it!" I screamed hugging Ethan tight, and I saw the guy blush.

"Good for you," he said patting me on the back.

I sat down again and right clicked the file, the first thing I did was copy it onto another CD, incase anything happened. Taking the disc out I stuffed it into my pocket along with my other disc and sat back down, as I saw Ethan filled in excitement as well. I double clicked the file and read the title. "FLASH as the Future" and just as I was about to read my key for Athrun the phone rang and I stopped breathing.

"Hello," I said slightly annoyed at the disturbance of my moment of truth.

"Cagalli, come back fast before this ship goes down with Aiden in it," She said.

"What," I said dropping the phone instantly, turning off the computer using the cord, grabbed Ethan and made a dash the car, as the last words I heard from Ann was

"You have seven hours," She said cutting off the phone

Let the race of life and death begin.

this is supposed to be a cliff ending

Now let's see what happens next

Athrun is going to be in deep trouble in the next chapter

Will teh ship go down, ( i should really come up wiht a name for that thing)

Oh yes, will Cagalli make it

And damn it

She didn't see the stupid album

Gosh samera you could have saved the suspense for everyone

Oh am i so creul

Don't worry all shall be seen in the next chapter

OF memories

till next time

Samera