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The next morning, the sun shined through the window and blazed my eyes. I became pretty angry that I was woken up so early. I was no longer a soldier, so I was clearly aloud to wear whatever clothing I wanted to wear. I opened my eyes to meet the rays of the sun shining into the room. I turned my face, and saw the angelic face of Aiden snuggled tightly against me. He hid his face, so all I could see was his spiky sapphire hair. I could help but look in awe at him. He was so precious. I would have hated to ruin his sleep in any way, but Aiden did it himself, by sneezing my flying off by warmth. His eyes were opened in shock and he registered what he did and laughed. I smiled at him, grabbed a tissue and wiped his nose and mouth.

It was still early, but Aiden was now wide awake and wanted to explore. He had a habit of doing that.

I placed him on the floor and he started crawling, he zoomed away and the door opened letting him escape. I fell off the bed and quickly washed my face and rushed out after him. The child was fast. I had to run, just to stay near him, as he turned a corner and started crawling some more.

"You know, this place isn't made for babies, Aiden," I said walking beside him, "And your still suppose to be resting."

Aiden sat and pouted at me and I said, "Fine, since it's early sure, but after breakfast no more."

He smiled and resumed his exploration. Somehow Aiden reached the control room, to my surprise, them I thought, since when did Aiden not surprise me?

He crawled in, and everyone welcomed him happily. I saw him crawl to the vice captain Raidon who was sitting bored, until he saw Aiden. He picked Aiden up and his face changed within a flash just by setting his eyes upon the child. Everyone else had the same reaction.

"Aiden is so loveable," Akina said placing him in his arms.

"We're going to miss you," Raidon said messing up his hair as Aiden laughed and hugged Raidon.

Even if they are controlled, they still have feelings. I can't let them go on like this, I said in my mind.

"You know sometimes I wonder, who I am really," Akina said sitting down.

I felt my heart break; realizing what pain everyone was going through. I knew this wouldn't go on like this.

"Good Morning Everyone," Ann said coming in

Everyone saluted and greeted her as well, and I said, "Any news of Jack?"

"No," Ann said shaking her head. Everyone disheartened at the pained mother.

"The man closet to the leader is Vera, and he knows how to release everyone as well. Bring their memories back. He's been keeping Jack alive and a lot of other prisoners. He hasn't contacted me in a week, and I'm beginning to worry. We need those people from yesterday, because their group is strong enough to beat him," Ann continued

"I don't know even half about FLASH," I said frustrated, "How can you all depend on me?"

"Because, you've been through tougher situation than this," Ann said, "We believe in you and our prayers during your pregnancy with Aiden showed us, how even in the most desperate situations, you beliefs and love never dies."

I was touched by what she said, "My pregnancy what happened?"

"You back only a 5 percent chance of living if you gave birth to Aiden," Ann said

I touched the wall in shock as it all came back

When I first learned that I was pregnant.

When I first told Athrun learned this truth, after he came back from the PLANTs, and our happiness.

May tell me about my disorder, when I went to get a blood test.

I saw Lacus telling Athrun learning the truth of my problem.

Then came the problems, I had afterwards.

I could feel the taste the blood I barfed and Athrun's pain and when I went into labour at the beach.

I remembered all the tears I shed. The memories of those times kept on coming in my head.

Then the memory of me first seeing Aiden, I realized that the girl was indeed me. I picked out Aiden's name. He was my baby by blood.

I went down the wall and sat the bottom, in just plain shock. I saw Aiden crawl quickly up to me and sat in my lap, trying to get me to talk, and I swallowed a breath.

I picked him in my arms and I held him my arms crying saying that he was my baby over and over again, in just sheer joy. Aiden I could tell loved that he got his mother back. He obtained his real mother, not the one in denial.

Now if I only could remember Athrun, but I knew deep in my heart that there was something special about him, and I knew there was a special memory about him for me to remember. I didn't want to break his heart, by going up to him, and he remembers everything, but I don't and he knows. How could I hurt his broken any further? He already lost me before, and became lost, and I can't remember us, Athrun and me together, in love. That feeling was gone from my heart.

I knew that no matter how much I wanted to go in front of them and be remembered, it wouldn't ever be the same, if I saw their faces hurt, deeply as I say that I couldn't remember then fully. It just hurt, knowing what Athrun would be thinking if I came up to him and just left once again.

"Hey are you okay Cagalli?" Ann said

"Don't call me that name," I said crying, "When I can't remember Athrun as a part of my life, what the point of ever saying that name to me, when our last name is lost from my mind. I'm not Cagalli Zala, because I can't remember."

"Hey, don't say that," Ann said, "Memories are the most precious things to a person. Whether good or bad, they remind us that we have a life, and lived a life. That we had a mother, father, loved ones. For you, all you memories trigger from Athrun. That name alone brings so many feelings in your heart, and I know that. When Athrun came yesterday, you didn't want him to leave. The memories with him are probably the most beautiful, and are most precious to you. I know all this for a reason, and I can't help you because only you know your memories about Athrun. His feelings for you and yours for him, everyone on this ship know one thing about Cagalli Zala, and that was how much love she had for Athrun."

I looked up into her eyes and said, "How much did she, I mean I love him?"

Everyone the smiled at that question and Ann said, "You know the answer to that question, but you loved him so much that all had only one question in our minds seeing you two. How can someone love so much?"

I knew I was blushing. The red tint on my cheek grew as I could recall, that same girl blushing, in so many moments.

"You also had a knack of blushing around him," Ann said laughing

"I could see that, but not as me," I said frowning, "In any moment I see Athrun and a girl, but I can never see her face. And with me, I can't see that boy's face."

I saw them all sadden and a message popped up from the screen.

"Is Ann there, I only have a few moments," A tattered boy said

"Vera, where have you been?" she said, "And what the hell happened to you."

"He threw burning coal at me," Vera said, "Jack is getting worse."

My eyes widened and I saw Jack, in the same condition Aiden was in a week before. I held my baby tight and immediately became angry at that beast.

"How could he?" I growled and I looked up at Ann, who was expressionless.

"I don't want him to suffer anymore," Ann said

"No," I said, knowing what she was trying to say, "I won't let you give up on him Ann. He's my brother remember and like me, he'll make it through. I need to quick up."

"He's planning a full bombed attack on Orb, in a week," Vera said later on shocking us, "And ordered us to bring the heart and brain of the survivors."

I wanted to throw up and the disgustful act the leader of FLASH wanted.

Everyone had a distasteful face on.

"Is that Cagalli?" Vera said looking inside the room

I nodded.

"It's nice to see you finally conscious, I have a lot of stuff to tell you," Vera said, "But I don't have much time, so listen carefully."

I walked up to him on the screen with Aiden in my arms, whom had his eyes glued to the man.

"That month you went supposedly missing, I managed to get you from practically being eaten by a family of sharks, and then I brought you to his lab, "Vera said in distaste, "I was ordered to bring you to him, after you killed of his son Daniel Manes, after that I managed to stop him from spitting you in half, after he saw your face, and ordered you to become on of us, with the chip. I tricked him by saying you were dead, but he didn't seem convinced and had only you memories gone, before dumping you back into the sea, where you were found by Ann's ship thankfully."

I nodded, kind of shocked at him, and remembered another time, when I was attacked by sharks. Athrun ended up getting hurt.

"You found the discs?" he asked

I slapped my head and said, "I totally forgot about them," taking one of them out of my pockets.

"Good, read that over, though you don't need to, since you know everything, but look over it. You'll have an idea on what he wants and tell that team to reach L3 fast, before he strikes," Vera said as the screen was cut off.

I held the disc in my hands as the doctor came in saying that she had the report and wanted Aiden and I to go her room.

I nodded and walked to the doctor's office. She was sitting there silently and told me the Aiden was perfectly healthy, but he still should be really careful with his ribs for a while. I nodded in understanding and she gave me a copy of the report for Athrun and waved good bye to Aiden as I left.

The day passed my quickly and it was already the middle of the afternoon. I gave Aiden, some lunch and ate myself and decided that we should be off.

Everyone sadly said good bye to him and I change into my suit and strapped Aiden in a miniature version, before setting off. Aiden was playing with his helmet taking it off, and putting it on again.

"Yes, Aiden now sit back, will you," I said preparing to launch

Aiden deferentially sat back and held on of my legs. I launched and was immediately met by the clear ocean. Aiden loved being in a mobile suit as we flew around at first, and messed around, then I remembered that I had close to half an hour before I had to give Aiden back. I frowned at that sentence. He was my baby and I was just going to give him to Athrun until…wait why was I going to give Aiden back anyways. I remembered that I couldn't go back to them just yet, so I had to stay mysterious to them. At least for now, I'd come back and hopefully I'd be complete. Ever since yesterday I was dying to see Athrun. See his face, hear his voice, and see his love. I reached that same beach and landed on the shallow water. It was still deserted, like last time.

Aiden recongized this place as well and I couldn't but notice how cute Aiden looked in the battle suit. He was like a little teddy bear.

I came out and stepped onto the sand. I kept my helmet on and Aiden take off, sit on the sand and place the helmet of his lap. I laughed so hard at his action. He laughed along with me and picked him up spin him around. I heard cars parking and I turned to see that group. I saw him come out and I felt the same feeling when I saw him. My heart soared and I knew he felt the same way.

It was pretty chilly in Orb right now, and I realized that it was soon going to be winter. I saw them all in their coats. They all rushed and I opened my helmet so they could only hear my voice.

I saw Athrun come up to me, but I was kind of frozen at his site. I couldn't really understand this feeling in my heart. I felt strange.

"It's time for you to go home Aiden," I whispered in his ears, kneeling down to his level

I saw Aiden's face immediately in despair. He grabbed my leg not letting go and covered his face. I held him in my arms and then he grabbed my neck.

"Now Aiden, I don't have the time. I'll be back, don't worry," I said comforting him.

I looked up and saw confusion in his eyes. I wanted to stare into them, but I noticed that Aiden started to cry. I mentally moaned thinking that this was going to be harder than I thought.

"Aiden, you can stand pain, drink yucky medicine, without crying, now how come you can't go home without crying," I said. I saw Athrun's eyes widen at my voice and I continued, "What are you looking at, help me you idiot."

Athrun was trying his best not to laugh, but Kira and everyone else did.

I huffed and said, "Aiden sweetie, listen will you. You're a good boy right, now right now I have to get Jack back; he's in pretty bad shape. I promise you I'll come back once I get my memories back. And remember I never break my promises."

Aiden calmed down and whispered, "Mama."

"Please Aiden, don't say that," I said trying not to cry. I didn't want to leave him.

Athrun walked to me and held his arms out to Aiden, and Aiden looked up and saw his father and reluctantly went to him.

"You seem very familiar," Athrun said, "Are you…?"

"I've been getting that a lot," I said taking a seat on the ground, cutting him off.

"Why don't you take your helmet off?" Shiho asked

"I can't right now," I said, "but forget about that right now. I have news to tell you."

They all nodded.

"We have one week," I stated plainly, "Before Orb is gone."

"Okay did I hear right, or did you just say Orb would disappear in a week," Luna said

"No, you can hear right," I said smiling, "There's more."

"More," Lacus said

"Take out the heart and brain of the survivors left, is his last order for Orb," I said

"That's disgusting," Mir said

"They messed around with her brain," I said

"Whose?" Kira said

I took a breath and said, "Cagalli's"

I saw Athrun fist clench and he said, "That bastard."

"I have a question," I said

"Yes," Lacus said

"Who's this Daniel Manes?" I said

I saw them all pale.

"Why do ask?" Kira said

"I feel like he's destroyed my life," I said turning around, "He said he'd get me."

"He's dead," Athrun stated in an emotionless tone.

"Oh," I said

"Cagalli killed him," Dearka said, "He's been titled by me as the son of the devil."

"I see, after knowing who the father is," I said laughing, "What did he do to her?"

"He's the reason why Cagalli isn't with us now," Athrun said

I was shocked at what he said. I sat down and picture it all.

"The ski lodge, the murder, him saving me from a bullet, him being my body guard, he's torture, slaps, seven days, the port, the divorce, the tricks, and the…crash. It all makes sense. That's how Vera got me and took away my mind," I said clutching my head.

"Are you okay?" Athrun said, "How do you know all this?"

"But why can't I remember you Athrun," I said leaning on my gundam.

Me?" Athrun said

"Athrun I want you to look into your office drawer with all you files, there's something there," I said remembering the disc I placed in his drawer.

"What?" he asked"

"The answers to all your questions," I said, "All of you know where I'll be right, contact me there and please, and get rid of your thoughts about me for the time being. I know you all worry about Cagalli, but she's…safe, but she's lost," confused at what to accept.

"Why am I still lost; when I still have all my answers," I said sitting down.

"Cagalli," Athrun said

"I'm not her," I said shaking my head, "I'm not Cagalli."

I look up and saw his face sadden, "No don't give me that look. It's your entire fault."

"What does Athrun have to do with all this?" Lacus said

"If only I knew why she loved him so much?" I said still holding my head and sitting down, "If only I knew her face?"

"Cagalli, stop it," Athrun said

"I'm not her damn it," I said

He walked up to me and said, "I know her voice well, and I don't need to see her face. Your helmet might hide your face, but it can't hide who you really are. Even after six months you're still too much you know."

He took off my helmet and I met his eyes clearly.

"I know how your still think, that just because you can't remember, it won't change anything from my side. It's doesn't hurt me that you can't remember me, it hurts because your hiding and lost. Stop saying her or she. You know that you're Cagalli, my Cagalli so stop denying it will you?" he said.

"Mama," Aiden said in agreement.

I closed my eyes as tears slipped out.

"I'm sorry," I said

"Come back to me," he said, "I'll be waiting for you in the end, and this time I'm not letting you go."

"Athrun," I said in shock.

"I still wonder Cagalli, how can you love me so much?" he said turning around, "I got my answer today."

"I still remember as well Cagalli, when we first told each other we loved each other. That triggers all your memories remember," Athrun said from letter

I did, still do and forever will love you Athrun. I still remember the first we told each other. I could never forget that day. That triggers all my memories and I kept that moment close to my heart.

He left afterwards. I could tell he was hurt, whether he liked it or not. He was hurt that I didn't know how much I loved him. I could feel his tears in my heart.

I clenched and slithered down; I covered my face and noticed my charm bracelet. I tore it off and threw in on his head. I kicked my gundam and realized that hurt and I took off my suit and threw it away as well. I felt my pocket and remembered the two discs.

I took them out and tossed them away. This it all happened because of him. I hurt Athrun because of that bastard. I was walked angrily away.

Snow started to fall… and I could feel something familiar in my heart. This snow was my memory.

I better get tons of reivews for this chapter.

You know Athurn wasn't suppose to know yet, but because of a very seet commetn about my story, i decided to relvie Athrun.

Athrun knows who she is

Cagalli shall maybe remeber teh truth in teh next chapter

I don't know

Maybe i shoudl let her suffer some more

Anyways go Athrun,

See he's not stupid, he loves Cagalli adn looks at what he just said

Now if only Cagalli sees

I'll see what i do for the next chapter

Either i'll make her remember

Or oh i'll do somethign very evil

I don't know

I have two sides fighting against one another

And the bad is winning

Hmm oh well i'll see, i have 24 housr, before i update

So till then

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Samera