Since that day, my resolve slips a little, every day. I search for her in the corner of my eyes, look for her wherever I go; I want to be close to her, but only close enough to see. I know she sees me, but out of whatever pity, whatever courtesy, she doesn't let on that she does.
I'm glad that she doesn't turn to look at me, when I know she knows I'm there. If she did, I don't know how much longer I can just stand by her. I'm not a masochist. I know how these stories play out. I wasn't surprised at myself when I found out I liked her. I've never really liked anyone, and it didn't matter to me that I hadn't ever liked anyone. This is new, this is... is not what's meant to happen. It doesn't matter if this turns out to be the love I won't forget for the rest of my life, it doesn't matter that it feels like I'm backed into a corner with a timed explosive in it. I can't forget that she's not the plan.
It starts raining outside as I get on the bus. I feel a little better when the bus starts driving away from school. I just need some time to breathe. Some time away from the misery that has become my life. Just for a little while, I'm going to escape, on this bus. I open the window just enough so that the rain falls on my face, and not on the people around me.
Just for a little while... let me be in love.
Hello Readers!
I'm so so sorry that my update is more than overdue T_T I've been in a rut lately, and...well...y'all know how that goes.
Anyway! I will try and be more diligent, I'm sorry for the lack of updates! Just to show how sorry I am, I've been working on the next few chapters so that I can post another update this week!
Yours apologetically,
HYUN