Author's note:Thank you so much for reviewing awesome april,Duddley111,aubibi,tommys21,CJMJM,Bikerbrat,Funkyicecube.You are awesome!Oh and the next voting is decided.Jude is going to be 17.Most of you voted for that.Okay if you have ideas tell me.Hope you like it.

Disclaimer:I do not own Instant Star and the song Beautiful Disaster(,but I would be glad if I could own Tim.Does anyone have his address?)

Chapter5:Beautiful Disaster

Crap,what have I just said.

Tommy:''How long are you dating him?''

Jude:''What's that to you?Nothing so just leave me alone,okay?''I snapped at him.

I'm rescued.

Later we were stopping to eat some food.Mc Donald's!How I love this word.Everyone climbed out of the bus.Oh my god we were in nowhere.A Mc Donald's in nowhere!Weird!

Inside there were no guest just a waitress who was looking like she died ages ago.We sat down at a big table.

Tommy:'' Hey Jude, you wanna sit next to your boyfriend?''he asked grinning.

I could've killed him.

Speed, Wally,Kyle:''Boyfriend?''they were asking in disbelieve at the same time.

Great just great Jude you made it .Why always me?

Jude:''Oh! Yeah! Speed, babe you wouldn't mind if your girlfriend is sitting next to you ,would you?''I sat down onto his lap, wrapped my arms around him and kissed him on the cheek.

Speed:''Jude I wouldn't mind ,but I think ------ wouldn't like it,if another girl is coming onto me!''

I've felt my cheeks blushing.How embarrassing,stupid Jude!I quickly got off of him and made my way out of the restaurant as fast as possible.My appetite was gone.What would Tommy think of me.Probably that I'm a loser who had never really had a real boyfriend!I totally screwed up!But what should I do now?The first day on tour and I've messed everything up.Great Jude!But not think about oh my god I thought about that Tommy couldn't like me. Thereby I shouldn't give a damn about!Oh Jude everything is soo complicated.Kat I need you!

I couldn't go back inside but either in the bus.So I walked around and saw some rocks on which I sat down.I was sitting there and just thinking.

''Hey,girl.''A voice said.Tommy just what I needed.

Jude:''And did you like it that I 've made a fool out of me?''

Tommy:''Jude I don't want you something bad.''He sat down next to me and wrapped an arm around my shoulder.My heart began to race.I felt cold and warm at the same time.

Our eyes connected.Our faces were inches apart.I felt his breath against my lips.Our faces came nearer and nearer and nearer.''Jude Tommy we're leaving!''someone shouted.We broke apart.

Tommy:''We better get inside before they are leaving without us!''He stood up and made his way back.

Oh my good I nearly kissed Tommy.Little Tommy Q a boybander.

Kyle:''JUDE WE'RE LEAVING COME ON IN!''

Jude:''Yeah calm down!''

I've had an idea for a song and this time Tommy inspired me too.Immediately I got into the bus ,grabbed my notebook and sat into the living room to write the lyrics.

He drowns in his dreams
An exquisite extreme, I know
He's as damned as he seems
And move heaven than a heart could hold
If I tried to save it
My heart wall could cave in
It just ain't right, it just ain't right

Oh and I don't know
I Don't know what he's after
But he's so beautiful
Such a beautiful disaster
And if I could hold on
Through the tears and the laughter
World it be beautiful

He's magic and myth
As strong as what I beliebe
A tragedy with
More damage that a soul should see
And do I try to change him?
So hard not to blame him
Hold on tight, hold on tight
Oh 'cause I don't know...

Oh and I don't know
Don't know what he's after
But he's so beautiful
Such a beautiful disaster
And if I could hold on
Through the tears and the laughter
World it be beautiful
Or just a beautiful disaster?

I'm looking for love and the logical
But he's only happy hysterical
I'm writing for some kind of miracle
Waiting so long,
So long

He's soft to the touch
But frayed at the end he breaks
He's never enough
And still he's more than I can take

Oh and I don't know
Don't know what he's after
But he's so beautiful
Such a beautiful disaster
And if I could hold on
Through the tears and the laughter
World it be beautiful
Or just a beautiful disaster?

'Cause I don't know
What he's after
But he's so beautiful
Such a beautiful disaster
And if I could hold on
Through the tears and the laughter
Would it be beautiful
Or just a beautiful disaster?

He's beautiful
Such a beautiful disaster

Author's note:Okay this was the chapter.Read and review.I haven't had the time to check the spelling.Oh what I wanted to say was that you can again decide:Should Tommy be 22 or 23?

I think I know the answer but please vote.

Love you guys

Annika