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Chapter10: Addicted to you

The next morning I woke up early. My head was aching from the crying of last night. I made my way to the mirror. I looked terrible. My face was swollen and my eyes were red.

The day got by fast. Tommy and I weren't talking and were avoiding each other, I was sitting in my room the whole day and the performance went well as usual. That was the only thing that made me happy. This went on the next week. We were now 3 weeks on tour and I counted every day of the tour. It was only 3 more weeks til I had to see Tom Quincy never ever in my life again. Now I was again sitting in my room when the door suddenly opened.

Tommy came in. Normally he would have left as soon as possible like he did the last week but he didn't leave. He sat down on the chair next to me.

My reaction was now to stand up and to leave. I was about to open the door when Tommy grabbed me by the wrist and turned me around.
Tommy: ''Jude we really have to talk. We can't just escape the things which happened''

I let out a laugh." Like you are the one to say that. Who is the one who is running away from his problems ,making kisses undone and breaking other's hearts. Guess who? I give you three chances.''

Tommy: ''Jude!''

Jude: ''No not Jude! Don't pretend as if everything was my fault because it wasn't mine Tommy it was all yours.''

Tommy: ''Jude, girl you have to get over with it!''

Jude:'' You said this a few times Tommy. But how can I get over with this when the only thing I can think about is when I get the next chance to kiss you, when I feel the touch of your lips on mine, when I feel your warm arms around me!' I bursted out in tears but I didn't want to cry. I tried to control it but it didn't work. He began to come closer and hugged me. Then all the pain drifted away. I only felt his strong arms around me which were protecting me from the world. It was just him and me and no one was around. I pulled away.

Jude: ''Tommy you do it again. I just can't think straight when you are around me! You are making me think you like me and that you want to be a us and then you let me fall. I hit the ground and realize my heart got broken again. I don't want to. I'm sick of this. First Shay then Jamie and then you, two times. I'm not going to fall for you again. It only hurts. Tommy, it hurts so much! Don't you understand this?'' The tears were now streaming down my face again. He took my chin in his hand and looked me in the eyes. I saw his piercing blue eyes and began to melt away." Jude don't!'' The voice inside of me was calling but I couldn't get my eyes off of him. He wiped the tears from my cheeks. I felt his soft touch .It did feel so good. I needed this. I needed him! My heart beat faster! One arm of his slid down my shoulder. I tensed at his touch:"Jude...I….damn it" He pulled me closer and kissed me with all he had. I guess! But it felt like this. Then he stopped and got out of the room. Now I was completely confused. Suddenly I had an idea for a song:

It's like you're a drug
It's like you're a demon I can't face down
It's like I'm stuck
It's like I'm running from you all the time
And I know I let
You have all the power
It's like the only company I seek
Is misery all around

It's like you're a leach
Sucking the life from me
It's like I can't breathe
Without you inside of me
And I know I let you
Have all the power
And I realize I'm never gonna

Quit you over time

It's like I can't breathe
It's like I can't see anything
Nothing but you
I'm addicted to you
It's like I can't think
Without you interrupting me
In my thoughts
In my dreams
You've taken over me

It's like I'm not me
It's like I'm not me

It's like I'm lost
It's like I'm giving up slowly
It's like you're a ghost
That's haunting me
Leave me alone
And I know these voices in
My head are mine alone
And I know I'll never change my ways
If I don't give you up now

I'm hooked on you
I need a fix, I can't take it
Just one more hit
I promise I can deal with it
I'll handle it, quit it
Just one more time, then that's it
Just a little bit more to get me through this

Then I realized I would never get rid of Tommy Quincy!

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