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Chapter 21:Welcome to the truth

Jude:" I'm coming!" I shouted running down the stairs. I opened the door and Speed was standing in the door frame.

Speed:" Hey babe you look great!" he leaned down to kiss me.

Oh my god was I nervous.

Jude:" Hhhhhiiiii!" Jude, damn act normal.

Speed:" Something up?"

Jude:" No, nothing!"

Speed:" Okay then let's go!" he leaded me out of the house into his car. The drive to the diner was silent.

When we arrived we got in, ate, talked and headed home again. Nothing was really happening.

Jude:" Good night." I said and kissed him quickly on the cheek.

He pulled me closer wanting to make out.

Jude:" Speed I have to go my mom gets mad!" I got out of the car and waved at him one last time before getting into the house.

When I came in I saw Kat sitting on the couch.

Jude:" Kat what are you doing here?"

Kat:" I wanted to meet you here at seven and Sadie said you'll be back soon and now I'm waiting 3 hours."

Jude:" I'm sorry I totally forgot that but it is good that you're here now!"

Kat:" Why what happened?"

Jude:" I…I.. cheated on Speed."

Kat:" What? With whom?"

Jude:" With Tommy."

Kat:" Tommy? I thought you were over him. You have to tell Speed."

Jude:" Kat I can't tell him we would break up. I don't want us to break up."

Kat:" Are you sure?"

Jude:" Yeah please promise me that you don't tell him!"

Kat:" I can keep the secret but I don't think this is such a good idea. Anyway, I have to go. Good night see you tomorrow."

Jude:" Bye!"

I got to bed and tried my hardest not to think about Tommy and the kiss. I have Speed I don't need Tommy. This was the sentence I repeated and repeated til I was asleep.

The next morning the bell rang. No it wasn't the bell it was the door bell. Anyway I had to get up because I have had school. Ugh school is such an awful word. They should erase it from the dictionary. I showered and dressed me and then walked down the stairs.

Jude:" Good Morning Tommy? What are you doing here?"

Tommy:" I wanted to pick you up for school."

Jude:" Planned on going to school again? Hopefully your brain will grow!"

Tommy:" What did I do now wrong?"

I made sure no one was in the room and then started to talk.

Jude:" Hmm… let's refresh your mind. You kissed me! Again. But I have a boyfriend. And now it is your fault that I'm feeling guilty."

Tommy:" You kissed me back! But it doesn't matter you have to go to school. Let's go."

Jude:" Stop Quincy. I'm not driving with you. I see you at the studio. Bye!" I opened the door, got out and slammed the door behind me. In school was nothing important just what I tried to act normal around Speed which wasn't that easy. So nearly two more weeks went by and it was the Thursday before going to L.A. Unfortunately I felt guiltier! It was terrible to see Speed and then to act normal. I was sitting on in the lounge of G Major trying to write a new song but my head was full of betrayal. Speed came over to me.

Speed:" What's wrong babe?"

Jude:" Nothing, just a writer's block." I felt so heavy. Like a stone was lying on my heart.

Speed:" Can I help you with the lyrics."

Jude:" No, I think I stop and do some other stuff." I stood up going into studio C the studio where I could go in and where no one would disturb me.

I just sat on the floor and strummed my guitar. Later, I guess it was something like 9.00pm Speed came in.

Speed:" Come on we have to go they want to look the studio."

Jude:" Okay."

We walked out, Georgia told me again that the plane to LA was leaving tomorrow 10.00am and then Speed and I went home. I stopped right in front of the door.

Speed:" good night then." Speed said and leaned down to kiss me. I was reminded again of the kiss with Tommy and now I realized something.

Jude:" Speed, I have to tell you something."

Speed:" Okay dude spill!"

Jude:" Well…okay …ehm yeah …so ….ehm …Tommy …ehm …I …and ..me and Tommy and…"

Speed:" What was with you and Tommy?"

Jude: I don't know it just happened I was in his office and then we just lost control and he kissed me and it was so confusing."

Speed:" One sec you kissed him?" he balled his hands to fists.

Jude:" No, I didn't he kissed me!"

Speed:" Did you kiss him back?"

Jude:" Ehm.."

Speed:" Yes or no?"

Jude:" Yes I did but I didn't want to."

Speed:" This jerk, this bastard, this asshole, you cheated on me. You cheated on me with your producer, dude. You know what it is over!"

Jude:" Speed, wait no! Please don't." he didn't hear and just walked away. I slid down the door in tears and leaning against it, I cried my heart out. It couldn't be happening. No Speed and I didn't just break up. This is impossible. No, no, no!

I watched the walls around me crumble
But its not like I won't build them up again
So here's your last chance for redemption
So take it while it lasts 'cause it will end
And my tears are turning into time I've wasted trying to find a reason for goodbye

Chorus:
I cant live without you
Can't breathe without you I dream about you honestly
Tell me that its over
Because the world is spinning and I'm still living
It wont be right if were not in it together
Tell me that it's over

And I'll be the first to go
Don't want to be the last to know

I won't be the one to chase you
But at the same time you're the heart that I call home
I'm always stuck with these emotions
And the more I try to feel the less I'm whole
My tears are turning into time
I've wasted trying to find a reason for goodbye



And I'll be the first to go
Yeah, I'll be the first to go
Don't want to be the last to know

Over over over

My tears are turning into time
I've wasted trying to find a reason for goodbye



Tell me that it's over
Over
Honestly tell me
Honestly tell me
Don't tell me that its over
Don't tell me that its over..

After sitting there for a while I wanted to go to sleep, just to forget everything and wake up and everything is perfect. I walked upstairs, lay down on my bed tears started streaming down my face again. I was lying in the cold room crying myself to sleep.

The next morning I woke up with red puffy eyes. It was 9.00am at 10 I had to be at the airport. Oh my god just one hour. I was in total stress so that I forgot about what had happened last night. I rushed out of the house taking Sadie with me. " Sadie drive I'm late."

I said. At 9.55am I was at the airport. Tommy was already waiting. I said my goodbye to everyone who was standing there and then we checked in.

It was the beginning of 4 days L.A. alone with Tom Quincy!

Author's note: So I hope you like it. Especially the Jommy fans. Please review and tell me what you think!

Love ya guys Annika