Author: WhiteWolfCub
Genre: Drama/Angst
Category: Harry Potter
Warnings: Slash between Sirius/Remus, Mpreg(?), and Voldemort being weird.
Summary: Seventh year has begun and Remus comes back completely different. He is cold, distant, depressed, and uncaring. Something happened to him and the Marauders are determined to find out.

Notes: I am replenished! Okay, last time I was doing the chapter half heartedly and it wasn't that good from what I read. I have had good night sleeps these nights and I am ready to do an ultra long chapter this time! We have a little twist so you all have to just sit back and enjoy. As for my other stories, I will continue those. So Which One is Mommy is on a slight break, because I am at a complete writer's block for that one. It will be continued though, so no need to panic and what not. I love you all! Thank you for saying good night to me ya'll, I actually got all of my energy back! Hoozah! Now, shall we do a continuation?

Gaspeth! On with the story!

---Chapter Three---

The morning was nothing spectacular. In fact, it was rather dull for Sirius. James had continued to talk about his year in Quidditch and Peter paid attention to the other boy like he would never see him again. Sirius gave small glances to Remus and nodded every time James paused for a breath. McGonagall swept by their table, handing them their schedules.

"Good luck this year Lupin," she said gravely. "You have tough classes. Most of them are with Slytherins." She gave the brown haired boy an apologetic look but continued on her way. Remus watched her leave for a moment before standing and following her path. Sirius watched curiously as Remus stood in front of Dumbledore for a moment, making symbols with his hands that made no sense to him. The old man nodded and led Remus out of the hall.

"Padfoot don't you agree?" James asked suddenly, causing Sirius to snap back to him. "Padfoot?"

"S-sorry James, I have to -um, erm go to the bathroom, yeah bathroom," Sirius made up quickly and grabbed his bag, exiting the Great Hall.

Fast enough, he slipped behind a pillar and watched as Remus and Dumbledore spoke to each other. Well, it was more Dumbledore explaining things to him and Remus nodding but Sirius listened none the less anyway.

"Well Remus this is troublesome, especially with a spell like that," Dumbledore said. "Your father is a pureblood and has high connections with the Ministry so there isn't much we can do to help your situation."

Silence followed his statement.

"I am going to tell the teachers of your particular case and you can get extra help," Dumbledore said, but his tone turned uncertain with the next thing he said. "You wolf counterpart isn't helping, being that it is unable to cope with being silent. You will be in a lot of pain for about a year. I don't know if you want to take an old man's advice but…Mr. Black seems to care a lot about you, why don't you try going to him. Friendship can do much more than any spell after all." Sirius poked his head around and noticed that Remus was crying, trying to hide it with his hands as Dumbledore stood at a respectable distance.

"He's worried Remus, you have changed too much for anyone not to notice," he said softly, gently placing a hand on Remus' shoulder. "Come now Remus, it is time for classes to begin." The old wizard took his leave and Remus stayed put for a few more minutes. Looking back, Sirius noticed many people exiting and he took that as his chance to get to Remus.

"Hey Rem, are we ready to go? This class we have together," Sirius said, hesitantly placing a hand on his boyfriend's shoulder. Remus looked up at him softly before wrapping his arms around Sirius, burrowing his head into the taller boy's shoulder. Sirius sighed, hugging Remus back and kissing his forehead gently.

"I'm sorry Sirius."

Sirius jumped, looking around rapidly to see who it was that had just spoken to him. Looking at Remus something seemed to click and he smiled at him, nodding an okay.

"Remus we're going to skip classes today alright?" Sirius said. Remus opened his mouth in a silent protest but Sirius only shook his head, not willing to listen. Bringing Remus a little closer he quickly swept the unwilling boy into a tight hold, carrying him all the way back to common room where he just dropped him on the couch.

Looking at the boy under him he took a serious expression.

"You talked to me Remus, how did you talk to me?" Sirius asked. Remus seemed to concentrate a bit but smirked a bit.

"You mean like this?" He asked. Sirius nodded.

"It sounded like you were talking to me in my head, but, it was different, like you were actually speaking it," Sirius said. Remus nodded, seeming a little proud of himself.

"It was difficult, I was connecting me with Moony, and so I could use his voice box. But because he isn't out when I am, his voice can't be heard, so I made a mental connection with anyone who talks to me," Remus explained to him, feeling a little proud of himself. Sirius smiled, grabbing onto Remus and holding him close, never wanting his love go.

"Teach me how Remus," Sirius whispered directly into his ear. Remus shivered slightly, wrapping his slim arms around his lover, holding tight.

"The only way it would work would be to hook to Padfoot, but Padfoot is you, so I'm not sure it would work," Remus said.

"Damn it," Sirius growled. "But I have a different personality than Padfoot, what if I could find a way to hook those two together." Remus was silent, trying to think if that could work or not but he shook his head, sighing silently.

"I…don't think so, it doesn't work that way. You have to have two separate minds," Remus said.

"Well, then, I'll just have to see. I won't stop until I know for sure," Sirius huffed, sitting up so he was straddling Remus' hips. Crossing his arms he sat in thought.

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James and Peter walked down the busy corridors in silence, listening to bustling of students trying to get to their next classes on time. What was strange was that Sirius and Remus had not shown up to their first class and James was starting to get a little worried about all of it. Peter walked silently behind the taller boy, not daring to speak until his idol did.

"Hey Pete, what do you think happened to Remus that got him so quiet?" James asked abruptly. Peter shrugged, not knowing the answer to that question, though silently thanking that the awkward silence had ended. James looked at Peter for the briefest moments of time before breaking into a run towards the Gryffindor Tower.

"Come on Pete!" He called back. "I want to see what those two are up to –OOF!" He stumbled back as he crash landed into Crabbe and Goyle. Both of them didn't even budge and it made Lucius Malfoy look over in annoyance. With a full turn around, he sneered down at James as the other boy picked himself up, rubbing his nose.

"Well look who it is boys, Potter and Pettigrew," he said mockingly, waiting for Crabbe and Goyle to finish their laughter before continuing. "So boys, what are we going to do to these two for causing us all that trouble last year?"

James stood up confidently, smirking in an 'I-already-won' sort of way. "Malfoy you know good and well that whatever it is you challenge me at, I win. If it is a duel you want, bring it on." Lucius' smirk faded quickly, an angry face being made in its place.

"Keep talking Potter, but you won't be once I'm through with you," he said bitingly. "This year I won't fall for your silly tricks, you're finished." With a yell he tackled the unsuspecting boy, dragging him to the ground where Crabbe and Goyle immediately jumped on him.

"What the hell was that Malfoy?" James yelled, hissing as a punch landed on his gut. Peter stood back with wide eyes, biting his nails like a nervous rat, watching on like a cat eating a fellow rat. With a cry he ran off, hoping to find Remus and Sirius.

Crabbe reached down, his beefy fingers wrapping around James' collar and he easily lifted the boy off the ground. Already James nose was broken, some of the shards from his glasses lodged in his eyes and several bruises.

"What do you want to do with him Malfoy?" Crabbed asked, stupidly.

"I want you to beat him till he cries for mercy, don't even stop to take a break," Lucius laughed. James squeezed his eyes shut, knowing well that he was pushing the shards in further but the onslaught that came raining down upon him made him forget that pain. Lucius wanted him to cry out but he never would, no matter what!

He was a Marauder after all, brave till the long and drawn out end. A large crack was echoed as many of the bystanders winced and screamed. James immediately felt his jaw break, and it hang open like a fish out of water.

"I want you to kill him, make him suffer, wish he had never been born!" Lucius yelled, looking quite deranged. A sudden push sent him flying and he realized that it was Sirius.

"Get the fuck off of him or I will make you!" He screamed, unbelievably pissed off and scared for his best friend. Lucius laughed from underneath him, reaching up and taking hold of Sirius' long hair, making a tight grip and bringing Sirius slowly down so that their noses were touching.

"I told them not to stop until he was dead Black, and believe me, they won't," he said maliciously. Sirius was now shaking in anger, ready to throw his own before Lucius reached up and took his lips, kissing him harshly.

"I would love to fuck you Black, right in front of Lupin too," he said. Sirius struggled as he was kissed again, rolling himself off of the other boy making enough room between them for him to catch his breath. Remus ran forward, grabbing Sirius with worry in his gaze.

"Sirius, are you alright? He didn't hurt you did he?" Remus asked, frightened out of his mind.

"I'm fine Remus, but go help James, I can handle this asshole," Sirius gasped, still beyond sickened that LUCIUS MALFOY had KISSED HIM! Remus nodded hesitantly, taking out his wand and getting ready to cast a spell when he stopped.

"You have no voice for a reason boy! I want you telling no one that you need help! I never want you to help anyone either!" His father screamed.

Remus shrunk away, lowering his wand and began to shiver, suddenly feeling ghost like fingers tracing him –almost in a memory. Turning around he noticed that Sirius was pinned under Lucius, his shirt being slowly torn off and James, under Crabbe and Goyle and already unconscious but still getting beaten. Peter was hiding behind the frightened onlookers, looking just as scared.

"I'll give back your voice Remus if you promise to never help or be helped in return. We despise the word."

I want my voice back, I want it back! Remus thought desperately. That is why I must detach myself from everyone, even my friends.

Trembling, he put his wand back into his pocket, shaking with every fiber of his being.

"I'll know when you disobey me Remus," he whispered delicately. "Punishment is always a key essential in parenting." Nothing but a dry chuckle to follow the words.

A sudden whoosh of air caught him by surprise and he was flung back as a fist connected to his cheek. Landing near some of the on lookers, feeling with delicate fingers his cheek. Frowning in actual annoyance he stood up, feeling bubbling anger strike him with a force that he had never felt before.

Growling in anger, he stood up, striding over to Crabbe and grabbing his shoulder. With a spin the other boy was now facing him and it was apparent that he was scared by the look on the smaller ones face.

"YOU BASTARD!" His mental screech echoed through everyone's minds, causing them massive headaches. Sirius covered his ears while still trying to push Malfoy off. Looking over he noticed that Remus had started wailing on Crabbe, the younger boy giving most powerful attacks.

"Don't take your eyes off of me Black," a lustful whisper sounded from above him. With a yelp his shirt was torn open, Lucius feeling everywhere that showed to him.

"Get off me Malfoy!" Sirius yelled, panic dripping into his words. He didn't want to be touched like this by a Slytherin, much less a Malfoy! Lucius swooped down, immediately his mouth going to one Sirius' nipples, teasing it with his mouth till he felt it harden under his touch. Going to the other one he repeated the other process until he heard something peculiar inside his head. It was like a mental growl but somehow detached to a more physical manner.

"I suggest you release him, before I literally force you," it sounded like a deadly bomb ready to go off and Lucius knew that the owner was not happy. Looking up he was shocked to see that it was Remus, standing above him and looking so deadly that it was unbelievable. With careful movements he slid off of the boy beneath him and stood back, allowing Remus to drag Sirius away from him.

"R-Remus, I thought you were helping James?" Sirius asked, a little embarrassed that he had been beaten by a Malfoy. Remus ignored him, stepping forward with a mental growl.

"Get out of here Malfoy," it was a deadly whisper, one that could freeze a ghost. Lucius looked at the scene with a ticking mind, noting that Crabbe and Goyle were having trouble picking themselves up. With a sneer he beckoned for his goons to follow and he left, leaving the bystanders to release the air they were holding. Remus silently turned to Peter and glared harshly, clearly telling the boy that he was not wanted now. Turning to Sirius he tilted his head towards James, who was lying on his side and bleeding heavily.

"Oh gods James," Sirius whispered, running forward and picking him up, walking towards the Hospital Wing. Remus followed silently, an emotionless mask on his face.

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Sirius wiped that tears from his face, sniffling as Remus sat by him, stiff as a board. With a sob he rested his head on Remus' shoulder, not caring that he was crying anymore. Remus still sat strait, looking up as Madam Pomfrey entered.

"Well, Mr. Potter had the glasses removed from his eyes, but he will be temporarily blind. He is comatose from the onslaught of damage he had received. It is still uncertain when he will awaken but we hope it will be soon. For now all we can do is wait," she looked sympathetic and sat down next to Sirius, putting a hand on his shoulder. "Don't worry Mr. Black everything will be fine, it was just unfortunate is all."

Looking up he nodded shortly before both Remus and he exited to the go to the common room of Gryffindor Tower.

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"You hesitated in helping him Remus," Sirius growled suddenly. "You only fought those idiots when they hit you." Remus didn't respond, but just kept on walking. Sirius stopped in his tracks, anger written on his face as Remus stopped too but did not turn to look at him.

"That bruise on your cheek," Sirius said quietly. "I hope it hurts you. Remus you are such a coward." Still there was no reaction.

"Are you that conceited? Are you that stupid? Leaving your friend there to get the crap beat out of him and only going to help when it finally involves you!" Sirius was at boiling point. What made him even more angry was that Remus still stood there, quiet as ever and looking strait ahead. He thought he would see the shaking of Remus' shoulders if the boy was crying but that was clearly not the case.

"When we find out James is in a coma you don't shed one tear, do you," Sirius stated. Remus continued looking straight ahead, his eyes uncaring.

"You, Remus Lupin, are an idiot; you continue to say you are nothing like Moony, but you are, a selfish, uncaring monster that would rather fill his stomach with whatever he can find, not caring who he steps on or destroys," Sirius growled. He didn't know why he was so mad, he completely forgot a long time ago, but he wanted a reaction out of Remus.

"No, Moony is better, you aren't Moon, and you are exactly like your father!" He yelled. A sudden impact sent him spiraling. Looking up, he was staring into glassy amber eyes, filled with such hurt and betrayal it was almost a sea.

"As easily said as looking into a mirror Sirius Black!" Remus growled. "There you bastard, I'm crying, that's what you wanted wasn't it!" Shaking, Remus stood back, covering his eyes desperately with his hands, his shoulders shaking insoundless sobs.

"Rem, I-I didn't mean that," Sirius whispered, crawling towards the younger boy. Remus lashed out blindly, trying to keep the other from approaching him.

"Rem, Remmie, I am so sorry, I am, really I am," he said quietly, holding Remus close.

"I want my voice back Sirius," Remus sobbed. Sirius sat silent, unsure how to answer that.

---TBC---

Long chapter, Yay! Not as long as my other ones but still! I'm not tired anymore! Yay!

-WhiteWolfCub

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