Author's Note: This is a random story I wrote while listening to Buffy the Musical. This is about Naruto's feelings after Sasuke left. Thank you b2 for the music! Enjoy!
Life's a show
And we all play our parts
And when the music starts
We open up our hearts
I'm walking. I've just returned from my latest mission; just another everyday routine. The same fucking routine. I'm beginning to wonder why I do it. Will this really make the villagers recognize me? Will they love me, adore me? Or will they still see me as the demon?
It's all right
If some things come out wrong
We'll sing a happy song
And you can sing along
But it doesn't matter to my friends that there's a demon. So, I play the happy. I smile. I laugh. They just accept it. Never has anyone questioned it.
Where's there's life
There's hope, every day's a gift
Wishes can come true
Whistle while you work
My friends all encourage me to go after my Hokage dream. They act like nothing's happened, nothing's weird, nothing's wrong.
So hard all day
To be like other girls
To fit in this glittering world
Don't give me songs
But it's hard being me. I try to fit in. I've been trying extra hard. But it doesn't seem to be working; at least in my mind. The world is corrupted now to me. Why would I care? Why should I care about their perfect little naïve world?
Don't give me songs
Give me something to sing about
I need something to sing about
I really want them to show me what's so great about this world. It sucks. I hate it. It's all so fake. I want something real again.
Life's a song
You don't get to rehearse
And every single verse
Can make it that much worse
I want my old life back. I can't switch back time though, can I? I want him back. I want everything to be like it should.
Still, my friends don't know why I ignore
The million things or more
I should be dancing for
All the joy, life sends
Family and friends
All the twists and bends
No one understands what I've lost. No one can see my pain. None of them can grasp what I see. The dull world is now what I see.
Knowing that it ends
Well, that depends
On if they let you go
Or if they know enough to know
That when you've bowed
You leave the crowd
I made a vow. I failed. I see now that things end. Nothing ever lasts. None of them have lost what I have. They don't see me suffering. They don't see that I want to leave. I want to leave and never come back. I want freedom from my memories.
There was no pain
No fear, no doubt
Till they pulled me out
Of Heaven
So that's my refrain
I live in Hell
'Cause I've been expelled
From Heaven
I think I was
In Heaven
He was everything. He was my drive. He was my best friend. He was my rival. He was my love. That feeling of solidity, that feeling of togetherness was like Heaven. Now he's left and I'm in Hell.
So, give me something to sing about
Please give me something
So can anyone tell me why I should be happy? Can anyone explain why I should be enjoying life? What should I be excited about? Can you tell me?
Life's not a song
Life isn't bliss
Life is just this
It's living
You'll get along
The pain that you feel
You only can heal
By living
You have to go one living
So one of us is living
I'm alive. I'll continue to live for his sake, so that our memories can live on. I do not live. But I am alive. This way, everyone can remember. Everyone can hold in their hearts your memory. That is my gift to you.
The hardest thing in this world is to live in it
You left me. And I hate you for it. But I still go on loving you. I barely survive. I only just survive. And no one ever notices…