Wake Me Up Inside
By Shadow Lady (Formally known as CH33T4H GRL)
Co written and edited by Senshi of Valis
Usagi was in awe of the place the small group would call home for what they would know would be three years while only three days would go by on earth. It was hard to believe that they were on Pluto in Setsuna's castle which was cloaked from being seen by any prying eyes. Each of the group had been given there own room which was at least twice as big as her room at home. Besides the bedchambers was the huge garden with a large marble slab with broken marble pillars surrounding it. Setsuna had said that it was once a grand hall but was destroyed during the fall of the silver millennium. Setsuna had said that this was were their physical training would take place.
Their mental training was to take place in the largest library that Usagi had ever seen. She knew it made the largest libraries on earth look like a joke, well according to Setsuna it did. As well as all of the books there were several computer terminals that Setsuna explained had a complete database on everything that had happened in the Silver Millennium as well as having taps in all of the computer systems on earth including all of the major governmental systems and satellites.
The kitchen and medical rooms were no less extraordinary and Kasumi seemed so excited about them and couldn't wait to check them out in more detail. Setsuna had gotten Kasumi to agree to train the others, even the eldest senshi in both cooking and medical arts. Usagi was surprised that Setsuna had wanted to attend some of the training but was glad for it. Usagi was a little nervous around the three girls though she felt that she was starting to form a good friendship with Ranma.
There were several rooms dedicated to recreational use and a gym for their use as well as a large swimming pool, a shower and two large hotsprings. Usagi was a little confused to why Setsuna insisted on showing Ranma the male's side of the hotspring but let it drop at the fearful look on Ranma's face and the concerned expression on Setsuna's.
All of them had the evening to relax and get settled in but Usagi was doubting why she would be important enough to mess with in the first place. According to Setsuna Ranma was as powerful as most of the senshi and could easily take each one on separately and most likely even in pairs for some of them and still win. Nabiki was smart, on par with the senshi of Mercury matching all of Ami's scores and even surpassing some of them. Even Kasumi had something to offer with her vast self taught medical knowledge and cooking skills. What did Usagi have to offer?
Sighing Usagi sat down on the edge of her bed and pulled the knife she had in her pocket out and looked at it after opening it up. She watched the gleam off the blade mesmerized by it as she wondered if it would be better if she did finish it off now before she drives the people there away from her with her stupidity. Pulling her bandages off of her arms she studied the various scars and slashes wondering how it was going to feel to finally give in and die. With her gone it would probably give the others another year to train and grow stronger since she doubted she would ever be of any use. Slowly she brought the blade to her wrist and pressed down on it, gasping as it bit into her tender flesh before dragging it across her arm. She watched as the dark red flowed through the cut, it wasn't good enough she knew but the next one would be.
"Usagi!" Nabiki gasped from the door way startling Usagi making her drop the blade. Nabiki rushed forward and scooped up the knife and flung it across the room.
"Kasumi!" Nabiki screamed loudly, grabbing Usagi's arm and grabbing the sheet on the bed and held the corner of it on the wound in an attempt to stop the bleeding.
"Let me go." Usagi cried trying to pull away.
"What's wrong?" Kasumi asked hurrying into the room before gasping.
"What happened?" Ranma asked hurrying into the room.
"Nabiki, go get the first aid kit from my room." Kasumi ordered taking Usagi's arm to see how bad the damage was. Usagi looked at Kasumi's face in shock at how worried the girl looked. Looking behind the older girl Usagi couldn't help but to start crying as she seen tears forming in the red haired girl's eyes. Looking away Usagi tried to look anywhere but those tearful worried blue orbs.
"Please, just stop this." Usagi sniffed.
"Why did you do this?" Kasumi asked, "It doesn't look as bad as I first thought but it looks like you've been doing this a lot. One time you might die if you don't stop."
"I want to die." Usagi whispered, "I'm worthless and useless."
"That's not true!" Ranma growled, "Damn it, you are not! Whoever fed that you will be getting their asses kicked as soon as we get back!"
"Found it." Nabiki said as she rushed back into the room clutching the large white box.
"Please Usagi." Ranma sniffed sitting down next to Usagi as Kasumi worked on cleaning the cut. Carefully she hugged Usagi holding onto the blonde as they both cried. "Please, you aren't useless or worthless so please stop saying that."
"I am." Usagi said, crying harder.
"No one is worthless, Usagi." Kasumi said softly as she started to bandage up Usagi's arm again.
"Tell me one thing I'm good for? What the hell am I here for?" Usagi demanded.
"You can be my strength." Ranma whispered.
"How, I'm too weak and klutzy to?" Usagi sniffed.
"By being there for me, for us." Ranma said.
"I don't think you should be by yourself." Nabiki sighed.
"You will be sleeping in my room." Kasumi said, "And no arguing, get your things and come on. I want to talk to you a little while I cook dinner."
WAKE ME UP INSIDE
"Are you okay, Ranma?" Nabiki asked, worried for the strange acting red haired boy turned girl sitting on the bed. Nabiki sat down next to Ranma, a little nervous as she wasn't very good with this kind of thing.
"I guess, Nabiki." Ranma said, rubbing her eyes. "Just have something in my eyes."
"Don't give me that shit, Saotome." Nabiki snapped then sighed as she realized how harsh she was sounding. "Ranma, listen to me, its okay to cry and show feelings."
"Damn it Nabiki, I'm a guy!" Ranma snapped.
"So what, you need to let go of that crap your father pounded into you. He was only using you to feed his stomach and greed." Nabiki said, realizing how depressed Ranma was starting to sound. How close was Ranma getting to doing something foolish like Usagi? Only difference was if Ranma did Nabiki doubted that Ranma would live through it with the strength and power Ranma packed. Of course Usagi was supposed to be powerful but she seemed like a relatively normal girl for the most part. Ranma on the other hand casually tossed energy attacks that could completely wipe out a good portion of Nerima if uncontrolled. Nabiki didn't want to thing what would happen if Ranma fired off a fully powered Shi Shi Hokodan. Hoping to pull Ranma from those dark thought Nabiki grabbed Ranma's hand and pulled the red head along with her. "Come on, lets go see if Kasumi needs any help getting dinner ready."