AN: I'm so inspired today!
AN # 2 : you're gonna hate Lisa in this one, I warn you!
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Jess's POV
"Rory!" I ask
Not again, god why first she sneaks into my thoughts and now she appears at my front door?
What did I do to deserve this? God you're a man youre suppose to understand me,help me!
Why is she here?What does she want now? Isn't breaking my heart in millions of pieces enough for her?
Isn't the humilliation enough!
What does she want from me!
I have to be strong I can't breakdown, not in front of her!
Oh crap Lisa is here
"Jess"Rory whispered
"what the bloody hell are you doing here!" I yell
"Jess we need to talk" oh yeah now that she wants to we need to talk! "boy you're becoming more englishby the time"
"Jess what's going on?"I hear Lisa coming
Fuck,fuck,fuck,fuck
"lets go!"I grab Rorys hand and lead her to my room, avoiding Lisa , we enter and I shut the door
"what do you want?"I say
"Jess"she whispers again 'if only I didn't like so much the way she says my name!'
She tries to grab my hands 'oh no,not that again,she's not giving me that I'm sorry look again!' I pull away and avoid her intense gaze
"what do you want Rory?"I whisper
"Jess...I love you"she whispers 'oh crap, please don't come with this not right now!'
She then leans in and 'oh no no please don't no kisses no no!' but I'm silent, I can't find the words, I can't speak and frankly at the moment I don't want to
She kisses me and without even try to help it I kiss her back
If it didn't feel so damn good!
This is wrong, I'm with Lisa, she's with Logan, but I just can't pull away, I hate it, I hate her control over me! Damn women!
That's it, I pull away, breathlessly
"Rory.."I whisper "Logan"I look down
"Logan's past"She leans in again,but I flinch away
"Lisa"I whisper again
"what?" she asks confused
"I'm with Lisa now"
"no,no,thats not true,that man, Ernie he told me you weren't together!"she cries
"well,we are"I say simply
"no Jess listen to me I'm sorry"
She starts but I cut her off, I've had enough
"no Rory! and by the way what are you doing here?shouldn't you be with Logan?huh?"
She shakes her head "Logan's gone,it's over, I'm done with him, it was all an illusion,the one I really love is you"
"and I love you" I whisper "but I just can't do this anymore Rory, I don't deserve this, Lisa doesn't deserve this"
She starts to cry 'I can't watch this'
"I think I love her too"
She shaked her head "no,you can't love two people at the same time, plus you don't love her, I know you better than anyone , I know you love me"
"maybe not, but I'll learn to love her, I have to, I have to forget about you, you hurt Rory Gilmore, you hurt too much"
"Jess please"she cries
"I can't do this anymore,I'm sorry"
I walk towards the door,but I hear her calling my name
"Jess, you left me too, twice" she walks to me "but I forgave you Jess"she says bitterly
'ouch'
"are we really gonna start with this Rory? I know what I did!" I say
"you broke my heart too Jess"she whispers
"you came here, you kissed me and then you said I'm sorry,but despite everything I'm in love with Logan, am I supposed to find that flattering?"I ask getting angry
"I didn't mean to"
"oh great, now it was all a mistake!"
"you're not understanding"she shakes her head
"oh so now I'm dumb!" I yell
"Jess don't.."
"you know what youre right, I am dumb, I am dumb for falling like a madman for you"I yell
"well, I'm even more dumb, because I'm in love with you!"she yells
"great,were a couple of dumbs then!"I say,and we start to laugh, call it nervous laugh,bitter laugh, but it doesn't matter anymore
"I have to go now, because I have this great girl in love with me!"I say in between laughs
"oh yeah, I wonder what she saw on you!"
"me neither!" I say and we laugh harder,suddenly we stop "I really do love you Jess"she whispers again
Oh no!
"I'm sorry Rory"I whisper
She starts to cry again, and leaves the room sobbing
'What have I done!'
should I follow?
should I just stay there?
I should follow!
I really should follow!
I have to follow
Im going to follow
I run to the door,she left it open
"Rory!"I call,but she doesn't turn back
I start to tun but Lisa stops me
"Jess what's going on?"she asks not letting me go
I watch Rory leave , without moving what am I gonna do?
"Listen Lisa I.."
"you're leaving me" she mumbles,tears forming in her eyes
I watch her cry, I can't watch her cry
I stop struggling
"no, I'm not"I whisper 'damn Mariano! you've lost it!'
She hugs me
"lets go"she says "I rented a movie, it's your favorite"
I nod "yeah, lets go"
And there you go Mariano you probably just blew the last opportunity to be happy!
Awesome!