Mirror Mirror- Ayame's Tale
Chapter 3: Show Me What I Want to See
By
Archerelf
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Disclaimer: Sure I Own him. And i own Bill Gates, the person who invented swiss cheese, and the Siberian huskies about to kill me.
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Ayame finally slowed when she reached her favorite spot in the world, a huge boulder overlooking the river. She had first seen the demons from here and the water's trickling would be soothing to her. She clambered up upon the rock and looked out on the land, all quiet. The wind danced in her hair. Ayame groaned and sat down on the huge rock, with her knees to her chest. Restless with thinking, Ayame laid down on her stomach and her fingers skimmed the water below. Curiously warm.
' I guess its true about the warm being warmer than the air.'
She looked down at the water and saw her reflection. Anger and guilt building, she hit the water, blending the H2O with the moonlight. When it settled again she stared begrudgingly at herself. She opened her mouth to sing and her fingertips brushed the water again.
Why don't I like the girl I see
The one who's standing right in front of me?
Why don't I think before I speak
I should have listened to that voice inside me
I must be stupid, must be crazy, must be out of my mind
To say the kind of things I said last night
Ayame always hated her reflection. Whether in front of a mirror or a river she didn't see a person. She saw a monster. Her feelings always overwhelmed her. She felt like screaming.But if she opened her mouth she might say something or do something to harm someone. Like Kagome. Like Kouga. Oh Kami, Kouga…she had to shoot her mouth off and upset Kouga. And now she was running away from him, always making things worse for herself. She remembered what he had told her once. " if you don't face your problems, they'll come back and face you."
Mirror mirror hanging on the wall
You don't have to tell me who's the biggest fool of all
Mirror mirror I wish you could lie to me
And bring my baby back, bring my baby back to me
Ayame certainly felt like a fool. She interrupted her own song.
"I'm such an idiot! Why couldn't I have fended those demons off by myself? Why am I so weak…?"
'No.' she realized. ' I'm not weak...I'm just jealous..'
"No way I'm jealous of Kagome! She's…she's! She has everything I want…"
Before she could continue, the sting of unshed tears yet again pricked her eyes. She was always jealous. Always had been of Kagome. And because of it, she had been sent away by the person who could make her jealously disappear. And he didn't notice. He never noticed. The one person more blinded to love than Inuyasha was Kouga. And Inuyasha was a real idiot. Everyone knew that.
Mirror mirror lie to me
Show me what I wanna see
Mirror mirror lie to me
Show me what I wanna see
Why did I let you walk away
When all I had to do was say I'm sorry
I let my pride get in the way
And in the heat of the moment I was to blame
I must be stupid, must be crazy, must be out of my mind
Now in the cold light of the day I realize...
Ayame bristled. It was her stupid pride. It was always her fault.
Ayame laid flat backed on the rock with the tears streaming down her face. She had a horrible churning sensation in her stomach. She loved Kouga. She had known that for a while. Her brilliant green eyes were clouded with red. The moon shone beautifully above her head.
Why?
Why couldn't it be the way she wanted it to be?
She'd have Kouga, pups, a good life…she'd be the alpha female of the tribes, their tribes would be united, and she'd have Kouga. Not this welling paiin in her heart, knowing that she could never have him.
It hurt.
It really did. Nothing could match what she was feeling. When someone as nice as her is loved by others and is in love with someone else, then why was it impossible to be loved by the one you fell in love with?
'Because.', she reasoned, ' It wasn't how life works for me...I'm just doomed never to be able to be with him…'
Mirror mirror hanging on the wall
You don't have to tell me who's the biggest fool of all
Mirror mirror I wish you could lie to me
And bring my baby back, bring my baby back to me
If only wishes could be dreams
And know my dreams could come true
There would be two us standing here in front of you
If you could show me that someone that I used to be
Bring back my baby, my baby to me
In the reflection of the moonlight, Ayame had a vision of her and Kouga. He was standing over her, arms proudly wrapped around her, while she cradled a little cub. He was awake and smiling. With his mothers eyes and fathers face, he was the epitome of perfection in her eyes.
She groaned, sat up and sat on her legs again. The vision was gone and all that was left was a pair of haunted emerald eyes.
" I can't believe I called him a blood-traitor…oh, Kouga, I'm sorry. I'm so, so, sorry." Ayame sobbed out.
Nothing mattered anymore to her. She was broken beyond repair. Oh no, not her body, her heart. She gave it away and it died, delicately. Just the opposite actually. A total crash, burn, and eclipse of what she was used too in Kouga. He was rough around the edges but she needed him. She knew his life, dislikes; she was almost a literal younger sister to him.
"GAH! Get me out of this life…"
She was hot now, and for the little chill in the night air, she was sweltering. Quickly she stripped off her breastplate and fur to reveal a long red sleeveless undershirt. She jumped in the water and let the bubbles sink over her head.
'oh Kouga..' she thought as she floated on the water.
She repeated wha she had just sang:
Mirror mirror hanging on the wall
You don't have to tell me who's the biggest fool of all
Mirror mirror I wish you could lie to me
And bring my baby back, bring my baby back to me
If only wishes could be dreams
And know my dreams could come true
There would be two us standing here in front of you
If you could show me that someone that I used to be
Bring back my baby, my baby to me
Ayame wondered how Kagome was doing right now.
"Ugh..that's another mess entirely I have to clean up…."
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Kagome lay on the bed with Inuyasha's arms wrapped around her. As his light breathe tickled the back of her neck she thought to the days events. She wondered how Ayame was doing.
"I hope she's ok…" Kagome whispered and drifted off to sleep.
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Ayame stood up in the water. It came up to just about her shoulders. She waded to the bank and sat there. She heard a disturbance in the shrubbery behind her. Ayame turned around and paled.
"Kouga?"
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Kouga had been walking with the flower since sunset and thinking. He had been thinking of what she had said. What Kagome didn't have to say. And how badly one wolf demon must be hurting right now. He stopped in a clearing and growled. He smelled something…another wolf?
His suspicions were confirmed when heard a voice softly cry out:
Mirror mirror hanging on the wall
You don't have to tell me who's the biggest fool of all
Mirror mirror I wish you could lie to me
And bring my baby back, bring my baby back to me
If only wishes could be dreams
And know my dreams could come true
There would be two us standing here in front of you
If you could show me that someone that I used to be
Bring back my baby, my baby to me
Kouga heard water splash and saw her breastplate on the rock. It was definitely Ayame. Although not that wide, it was wide enough that he could see into the water from his hiding place. And there she was, floating in the water, eyes red from crying and singing her heart out about why she felt depressed. Her body was mostly covered, a long red shirt that had obviously previously been tucked in, fell to mid calf length. But it left her shoulders bare and the rest of her white legs open to ogling. He couldn't help it. Ayame had a sort of attractive sharpness to her, limbs white as moonlight and her hair like fire dancig upon the water. He sighed and stepped forward. What he didn't realize was that he had broken a stick.
Kouga slightly cursed as Ayame caught his scent.
"Kouga?"
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