Dear Diary, I found a peculiar looking box for my birthday yesterday. It appeared around the evening, but it said it was from the royal family. At first, I wanted to throw it out, but my parents encouraged me to at least open it. We all wore our winter clothing for armor since it was the best we could do, then I gently poked the lid with a stick I found in the yard. Weirdly, it slid off without much effort. Then the most amazing smell came from the crate. I peered in with my family. They were spade-shaped pink fruit. We could see through it somehow, and there was an inside layer to it. Since we didn't know what it was, we just put it in the backyard. It would probably sell well at the market anyways.
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Dear Diary, we managed to sell them at the market, and we were able to get enough clothing to last us the winter! Even better, another box appeared after my birthday. I think my royal gifter wants to help my family. We plan to sell the new box later, but for now, it's laying in the backyard like last time. It still smells good too, but my father made sure to tell us not to eat them again.
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Dear Diary, my family is really really prepared for the winter now, and it's all thanks to the person that keeps leaving that strange fruit at our doorstep. We have enough for the winter, and soon we will have enough for the next. People are also coming to us asking if we had more to buy. It's a really good way to get bread and ingredients for soup.
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Dear Diary, I'm getting kind of worried. One of the guards came today and my father told me to go thank the guards for bringing the boxes of fruit. When I went to him though, he said he had no idea what he was talking about. I told him what they looked like his eyes went wide. Really wide. He said he would look into it. I hope we aren't in any trouble.
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Oh god, Oh god diary, I think we did something wrong. The king himself came down to our village and told us that we were selling the devil's fruit and that we should beware of consuming it. I didn't know we were selling things from demons!
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Dear Diary, It has been a few days since the king told us about the fruit. We made sure to just burn each box we got of it, but people have been coming to us asking if we had anymore. Now, they are just doing it in secret. I will say it now diary, I will not be a demon dealer and give them the fruit against the king's word!
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Dear Diary, I've been seeing some of the women lately get...larger. Like they were still in puberty. Even the school kids were growing...larger bosoms. It feels so wrong writing this down in my diary. They have also been lurking around our house. I went to one of them and asked didn't we have class tomorrow. She said she'll go to bed just after she did one thing, then shooed me away. Weird.
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Dear Diary, So I woke up to go use the bathroom last night, but then I heard someone while I was going to dispose of the water. I go around the house and see the same girls before, eating the demon fruit from the box that gets delivered. Now that I'm writing this, our boxes have been feeling lighter than usual lately. I'm going to tell father once I wake up in the morning.
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Diary, I think we're leaving soon. Father said that he heard from one of the other men at the place he works that there were two women sneaking around and...engaging in intercourse with anyone they found after dark. I'm going to hide in the house now.
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Dear Diary, I just say today two of my age mates doing "it" behind a house. I ran away embarrassed, but I remember seeing a pile of demon fruit beside them. This is getting worse than weird now.
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Dear Diary, we are leaving tomorrow. Father has just told us to pack our stuff. I'm taking a few dresses, my stuffed animal, and you, my diary. I'm getting scared of the town now. Just yesterday I found writing on the wall saying "we need more fruit!" There are people banging on our door begging to give us it. There are more and more rumors going around that the demons have come for us and are making everyone sensual and evil. Father said that we will leave in the middle of the night so no one will notice us.
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Dear Diary, I'm writing in your from the back of a wagon. We managed to find a horse and a wagon to hold are stuff, and leave our house before anyone noticed us gone. My father is leading the wagon somewhere hopefully safe. My mother and brother are sleeping right now, so it's just me writing by candlelight. Hopefully, by the time I wake up, I'll be safe with my family.
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Diary, you w..wouldn't happen to know where everyone is, would you?
I...I woke up alone in the forest under the rubble of our wagon. My entire family is gone. All their stuff is in the rubble, and there were scary noises going around. I took my stuff and ran here where I am right now. Please tell me where they are diary. Please have a page of father writing or something...
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I ran into a bear-girl yesterday. She kept hugging me and hugging me and covering me in honey...it was horrible and I couldn't get out until she dropped me in the river...
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I found an abandoned fire today. It took hours and hours, but I managed to light it before the sun went down. My clothes are all wet and ruined now, but somehow you're kind of dry diary. Maybe if I just keep you with me I'll be safe from all the red eyes that are looking at me from the dark...I wish father was here to fend them off...
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It's been a few days since I've seen father. I came across a town and got more ink and some rations, but no one will take my into their home. I feel so lonely right now...oh, I see clouds forming over me. I need to tuck you under...
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I found a paper with news yesterday. My village had been turned into a demon's realm. I think my father is dead...please don't be dead...I want to be wrong father...
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Diary please help me. I'm stuck in a cave with a sleeping spider person blocking my way out. If I try to go, she's just going to torture me until I retreat back into the cave. I can't go any deeper either because the bat people will just drag me into their lair...I feel so hungry and alone...
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Diary, I'm thinking of giving up on myself. For all I know my family is dead or taken by demons, and no one wants to help me. I lost my last set of clothes yesterday when a plant spewed some gas me off guard and I feel in the river. by the time I got back, my clothing and my stuffed doll was the only thing I had left.
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My doll turned out to be taken by demons too. I woke up to it groping my bosom. It's now burning in a fire I was able to make. I think I'm getting better at fire-making.
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You know what Diary? Who needs people when I have you! No one ever helped me when I was being dragged off by a slime. No one came back for me when everyone fled the town I found. The world hates me but you know what! The world is just scared of us! I can make fire! I can catch food and pick berries! I don't need clothes, or a doll, or anyone! It's just you and me, and we are unstoppable!
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I take it back I need my mother I need my brother I need my father I need my friends I just need someone please someone please it is cold out here and snowing and I don't know where to go my fire won't start and I'm crying tears onto the pages..and...and...
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I woke up in someone's house and in a maid uniform. I don't know who did this, but I'm glad that I'm out of the snowstorm. We should wait diary for the person that saved us. What if it's father? I hope it's father...
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D...De...Demon...Diary help me...The demon's coming closer...please diary please help me.
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The Demon finally left me alone. She seems...nice. I think she's trying to lure me with her showers and hot meals then corrupt me. I'm not going to fall for it. You will help me right Diary? I know you will.
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The Demon's name is Samantha. Or is it...
I would leave now that I'm fully healed, but if I leave now I'll die. For now, I'll just bide my time and do chores around her home...
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It's still snowing pretty hard and I'm snowed in with her. I have a wooden stake under my bed, but each time she wakes me up she pulls it out with her tail. I will need a new strategy.
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The snow is starting to stop, but now we are snowed in inside her house. She said to help myself to anything in the kitchen while she knits more clothing for me. Maybe I will Samantha, but I still don't trust her.
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She just knitted me a sweater...the last time that happened was...mother...
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She found me crying earlier today about my homesickness and started to hug me. She kept hugging even after I stopped trying to kick her off. Whatever her game is, I fear it may be working.
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I think...I think I am starting to trust her Diary. I don't know why she hasn't done anything to me yet...the king had always said that the demons only exist to hurt us...so why is she being so nice to me? Why me, a hopeless young lady she found naked and dying in the snow.
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The snow finally is gone. She said I'm free to leave if I wish, and she even packed me luggage. I thanked her and left as soon as I could. Now I'm back on the road, looking for a real place to stay...real place...
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No luck today, but this time, I have the skills to survive out here for a bit. I'm opening my luggage now to see what she packed me...
...she...she left a note...she really did care about me...I need to go back Diary!
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No! Diary I can't go back! She's a demon! She's just tricking me right Diary? She's tricking me, playing tricks on my head...
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It's been a few weeks since I left. So far, no one was willing to take me in. Samantha hasn't come back in a while, but I always find new food and clean clothing beside me when I wake up. Maybe I need to...no...I can't...but...Diary what do I do?
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I went back. I'm sorry Diary...I couldn't hold out. I'm going back to the demon, and I'm taking you with me to witness my death into hell. If I die diary...please...please serve as a warning to those that find you.
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She gave me another bath again. So far nothing too suspicious, but I'm really trying to be wary this time...
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Samantha asked if I would like to go on a walk. As I would ever do that with a demon...but with Samantha...wait what am I writing?
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I can't believe I just went with her on the nearby walking path. Even worse, I can't believe I want to do it again...
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Dear Diary, I just got some more ink from Samantha. She had a room installed for me to permanently live with her. I know Diary, but please forgive my unforgivable choices. I really do want to stay pure, but Samantha is one of the only ones that truly do care for me, other than you. Please...keep me as pure as you can for a bit longer...
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I got to meet some of her friends today. I mostly hid behind her when they talked in the living room, but they didn't seem to want to hurt me. One of them even brought me a gift.
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Her friends came over today. They came into my room while I was reading a book. Of course I head under the blanket, but unfortunately that wasn't able to stop them. I'm just glad they are so friendly. Especially the fox one.
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The fox friend sent me a gift. It was this weird encyclopedia...she said for me to read it...
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Samantha took me along with her to work today. The portal was weird and the demon realm was weirder, but she let me hold her hand as we went through. I never knew there were so many different mamono until now...
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I'm hiding out in her office again. It is very spacious and I can just read at her desk while she's out of her room. Occasionally someone will come by, so I hide under her desk until they pass.
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I go with her regularly to work now. Her work friends are pretty nice and try not to scare me...except for the incubus that hides behind the corner occasionally. But he just does it in good fun. It is funny when Samantha baps him for scaring me after.
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Diary, you would never believe what happened. So when me and Samantha came in the room, I saw a lilim waiting behind the door. I ran away immediately into another room. Right now I'm hiding in the break room. I like everyone here, but don't want to be turned into a mamono...
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Samantha told me that the lilim wants to "train" me. I don't buy it. It's probably some lewd thing, but Samantha said she would have to at least take me there. We're in this together, right Diary?
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I hid behind Samantha the entire time they talked. The lilim asked if I could become her personal assistant since I show up with her to work. As if I would ever!
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I hate Samantha! She's making me go. She says that "it would be a good opportunity for me." AS IF!
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I'm standing at the lilim's room. I'm bringing you in with me Diary after I write this entry. I've also hidden a small blade in your spine in case things get hairy or lewd. We have each other's backs, right?
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Oh my god oh my god oh my god I learned a spell! I thought she would be making me just get coffee for or her lick her toes or something, not teach me how to use magic!
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So she found the blade in your book spine...I blamed you for it. I'm sorry.
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She's taking me to teach me how to teleport around places using my spirit energy and demonic energy. She said that if I wished to remain human, I would have to do this anyway to control the demonic mana building in my body. That makes sense, plus I will know how to teleport.
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Dear Diary, I never knew my life could end up like this. Samantha the nice demon lets me live in her house and make my own money to do stuff, My lilim mentor is teaching me magic and letting me help her on managing her realm, and now I'm getting fancy mage robes tomorrow!
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H...Hi Diary. The lilim said that if I wore the robes, I would be turned into a Dark Mage. She said she wouldn't force me to, and that I essentially didn't have to since I've developed my magical skills, but still...I don't want to lose my humanity, but I want to prove myself to my mentor. I want her and Samantha to be proud of me...I know they are but...Diary, what do you think I should do? You've never failed me before, and you were there with me from the start...
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You're right Diary. I'm keeping the robes off for now, but I'm the Lilim's official second hand now. I still live with Samantha, but now I help my mentor with higher tasks. She said that one day, I'll even get to meet her mom at this rate.
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Another day, another helping my mentor Diary, I just feel like this will be a great day...
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Diary, I just say a bunch of yellow flags approaching our Makai. My mentor told me to get Samantha and go a bit deeper into the building. I'm getting scared again...what if I lose Samantha?
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Samantha is hugging me tight right now, but the constant explosions and rumbling are making me feel scared. I'm just glad I have a demon that will hug me. Also, everyone is talking about some thing called "The Order". I would have to ask about that later...
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Diary...I don't know what to do now. When I asked about it, all I got was so many stories of them murdering close relatives, raiding mamono-friendly towns, and such other horrible things. I never knew that the very king that told me not to eat the fruit would do such things to innocent people. Have I been holding myself to the wrong side?
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The lilim has told me the same thing, but in more detail about how their god purposely keeps our fighting going for some wicked reason, and the only reason why we don't shed human blood any more is that her mother figured out how to not kill enemies and make our side better for humans to join if they did. The lilim patted my head and told me not to think about it so much, but all those things...why would the Chief God kill their her own followers?
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I had a panic attack earlier at work. My mentor recommended me to go home and lay down for a while. I couldn't take my mind off of what everyone said though. Maybe...maybe I shouldn't be human Diary. I still have the option to put on the robes. I could turn into a mamono...I could try to make the world better...I could keep both humans and mamono from dying...I could stop the Chief God from her brainwashing...but I don't want to do it as a human.
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I asked Samantha about it. She has become my new mother now, so I thought she would have the best answer to this. She told me to follow my heart, and that human or not, she will still love me like her child. She has the best answers sometimes...
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Dear Diary. This will probably be my last entry into you. I went and did it. There was a ritual to put on the robe and bind it to my mind, but it is complete now.
My new body doesn't feel so weird. Actually it feels the same as before, I just feel a bit horner nowadays so I would sneak away to masturbate. At least until my mentor caught on and put a stop to it.
My power also greatly increased. I am able to control a lot of Makai now with her help, and I would go out to other places and turn them into places of paradise as I call them. Places that mamono and humans can live together without fighting.
Places where the Chief God has no influence to hurt anyone.
Places that...places that there will be people that would see someone in need and suffering, and give them life again while opening their eyes to the true nature and kindness of mamono after you look past their sexual nature...kind of like Samantha helped me long ago that winter. At least it feels so long ago.
If you're a person that finds this book, please don't fret or try to destroy it. You wouldn't be able to anyways. It is here to help you, to share my experience of losing it all...and gaining it all back again thanks to the people I used to fear. Keep it with you, and let my experience guide your heart to wherever it may take you. Maybe you will find your own Samantha and make a friend.
And Diary...even though you are an inanimate object, you were my only real friend for a long time, and I couldn't have done it without you. It was like there was someone watching me struggle and cheer me on to keep me going. You will, and forever, be bounded to my soul so I will never lose you, and I will always love you for all that you did~