Lady Ai: Oh fudge! Now I have to start this crap all over again! I was just getting good in the story the first time but no! My mom had to go and get the guy to fix my ra damned computer! GRRRRRRR!
Eough of my my rambling screams. I'll just give you the ra damned disclaimer and get the stupid chapter over with! Gosh! So people.../goes off on people not knowing how to save before turning off the computer/
Disclaimer: I don't own Yugioh or the song.
'You Said I Love You, I wish I Loved you too'
By: Lady Ai
Chapter five:
Loveless Glares
XxRyou's POVxX
Flashback
"Wh-who are you?" I asked. I thought I was looking at a mirror but when I saw the difference in hieght, eye color/shape and hair I knew it was someone standing in my room. He was a bit taller then me. His eyes, God I love thoes eyes. They were a beautiful red color and in a pointy manner. And his hair was as white as mine except it had a silvery tint to it while mine had a bluish one.
He smirked. God, that was one sexy smirk. "I'm your Yami, baka."
End flashback
I hit my head against the window. I watched as it was -still- raining. It's been raining for four days straight now. Four days it has been since the last time I saw Bakura. And Akina. Four days that I've skipped school. Four days. How could Bakura do this? Can Bakura really be -that- in love with that...baita? How could this have happened? How do you get over a person you love? Heh, better questions is -how- do you -know- you were ever in love with the person to begin with?
'When you think about them alot. When you gaze at them even if it is a picture of them under your pillow. When you dream about them. When you would give anything, kill anyone, just to know how thier lips felts against yours. Thoes are some examples.'
Ok, you answered the ladder. Now what about the former?
'Silly Ryou-chan. You don't -ever- fall out of love. You could always push thoughts about them in the back of your mind and go out with someone else. But they will always be there at the end of your thoughts. It's like you can't escaped them.'
...That wasn't very helpful for my situation.
'I'm not here to be helpful. I'm here to tell you the truth.'
Okay, thanks. Now you could leave me alone.
'Look at you. You're so madly in love...you're actually going mad and talking with yourself.'
I, once again, hit my head against the window. I wonder...what will happen if this glass breaks and I fall? No. I don't like to think about suicide. I think it's stupid and immature. I hear a small knock at my door. I turn around in time to see a small tri-colored hair boy pop his head in the door way. "Hello Yugi."
"Hey, Ryou. I just got out of school and I was hoping to tell you about what you missed today." I nodded and leant Yugi a seat. "So, what -did- I miss, hm?" I ask. Yugi smiled.
"Well, Tristain and Tea left early because Duke and Mai came to pick them up for a shopping spree, lucky guys. Malik and Marik were having a staring contest that ended up in a make out fest. The secruity had to break them up because it was getting to steamy. Leave it to them to start Pshcyo's Gone Wild 3!"
I chuckle remembering Pshyco's Gone Wild 2. Malik and Marik started to take off their shirts and made out on the teachers desk. The look on the teacher's face when she saw them! It was just to funny. "So, what else happened?". "Oh, yes! You won't believe me but Joey was having an eating contest-"
"That's not unbelieveable!" I giggled as he playfully punched me. " Silly, let me finish! Joey was having an eating contest with...Kaiba." "No!" "Yup! The lunch lady was nice enough to give us the left over cereal packages from that morning. So, can you just imagine what it is to see the great C.E.O of Kaiba Crop. having an eating contest with Joey Wheeler?"
"No, I cannot imagine." I said, shaking my head. "Good! Because I took pictures!" I gave out a laugh as Yugi took out his cellphone and showed me the pictures. "I'm glad to see you smiling again, Ryou-chan." Yugi said, giving me a kiss on the cheek.
"Gasp! Is hikari-mine cheating on me?" Yugi and I looked at the door way to see a dramtic looking Yami, his arm on his forehead. Yugi giggled. "No, Yami-koi! It's not like that!" Yugi said dramitically. "No! Don't say another word! You break my heart hikari-mine!" Yami playfully fell over but gave Yugi time to catch him. I giggled. "You guys..."
"Hey look! The rain stopped! How about we all go to the mall to celebrate?" Yami said, picking up Yugi bridal style. I smiled, "Sure." For some reason, Yugi and Yami always cheered up my day. They got out while I took a shower and got changed.
Once I got out of the shower, I placed on my favorite CD and let the music flow out of the speakers. Soon, I heard the bass playing and the guitar and drums kicked in. I've taken a liking to this CD. It's one of Yugi's CD. The music is so beautiful.
Let me wake up in your arms,
Hear you say it's not alright.
Let me be self dead and gone.
So far away from life.
Close my eyes.
Hold me tight
And Bury me deep inside, your heart.
All I've ever wanted was you my love
You're all I ever wanted, is you, my love
Just you.
Let me never see the sun.
And never see your smile.
Let us be so dead and so gone.
So far away from life.
Just close my eyes.
Hold me tight,
And bury me deep inside your heart.
All I've ever wanted was you my love
You're all I ever wanted, is you, my love
Just you.
That's the way it's always been.
My heart stops beating only for you, Baby.
Only for your loving.
All I ever wanted was you, my love.
You...all I ever wanted is you, my love
You're all I ever wanted, you, my love.
You're all I ever wanted, you, my love.
I danced and sang around the room as I placed on my clothes. I wore black ripped jeans and a black polo shirt with a broken heart patch over my heart. I got it last year from Bakura. But he's such an idiot, he got a girl polo shirt. Anyway, he said I need more black clothes. I agree, actually. Black made me feel good right now, and it looks great on me.
I stopped the CD and ran out. I caught Yami and Yugi kissing on the couch. I cleared my throat and Yugi quickly got off Yami. "Ready?" He asked. I nodded. "I have to get out sometime, right?". They both smiled and we walked out the house.
Yugi tried to start a conversation. "You know, Ryou. You have a beautiful singing voice. Yami and I heard you." I blushed. "You guys really think so?". Yami smiled. "Maybe we should hit a kareoke(sp) bar later tonight." I blushed harder. "I barely sing in the shower, how do you expect me to sing infront of people?" Yami shrugged. "You should try. You have a magnificent voice. Better than short puff over here."
"That wasn't very nice!" Yugi yelled, kicking Yami's shin. That's got to hurt. Yami quickly bent down to rub his leg. Yugi giggled and gave Yami a kiss. Heh, short puff. I could go for a cream puff...
"Ok, you guys. There are rules. Both of you have to stick by me and no sweets. Or caffinee. Or sugar. Got that?" Yami said, wagging his finger at us. We ignored it and broke the first rule to go break the second one. "Hey! Did you hear me?" We heard Yami yell. "Run." Said Yugi. He grabbed my arm and pulled me into the Sweet Factory store.
Ten mintues later, Yugi and I are eatting our gummies and Yami was sitting with us, banging his head softly against the table. "Oh come on! We don't reck that much of a havoc when we are sugar high." Yami took out his cell phone and showed us a pictures from the last time we went sugar high. Yugi was throwing a tantrum on the floor of a goth store and I was yelling at the cashier lady. "Is that proof enough? Because I have more pictures." Yugi and I sweatdropped and saved the candy for later.
"Well, lookie here! Pup, it's your friends!" We turned around to see Kaiba smiling. Why the hell is everyone smiling today?
Joey came running when he saw me. "RYOU!". "Oh dear lord." I then fell to the floor as Joey held me in a death hug. "Seto-kun...Help! ...Help, me!" My arm reached up and grabbed air as I sturggled to get Joey off. I heard Kaiba chuckle and I felt that he pulled Joey off me. I drew in a deep breath. Until...
"OH! MY! GOSH! MALIK LOOK! IT'S RYOU!". "When will this-oof!" End? What the hell? Why is everyone suddenly intrested in tackling me to the floor. "HELP RA DAMN IT!" I yelled, atleast Malik's hug was a death grip. Seto, again, pulled someone off me. "Thank you Seto-kun."
We all decided to walk around the mall a bit more. Three in the afternoon soon became six in the evening. We were talking about things that happened in school and Joey and Seto's eating contest. We meet Mai and Tea on our way through the mall. Soon, everyone started to leave. So it was just Yami, Yugi and me.
We went to the local Kareoke(sp) bar and sat down in the closest booth to the stage. We ate our dinners there and listened to the good and very bad singers. Yami decided to sing 'The One' by Shakira (don't own) and Yugi sang 'Poprocks and Coke' by Greenday (also don't own). They both started to tell me to get up and sing. So that they could stop bugging me, I go up and sing.
One of the songs I felt in my heart was 'Wicked Game'.
The world was on fire, no one could save me but you
It's strange what desire will make foolish people do
I'd never dreamed that I'd need somebody like you
And I'd never dreamed that I'd need somebody like you
XxXx
No I don't wanna fall in love
(this world is always gonna break your heart)
No I don't wanna fall in love
(this world is always gonna break your heart)
With you
xXxX
What a wicked game to play
To make me feel this way
What a wicked thing to do
To let me dream of you
What a wicked thing to say
You never felt this way
What a wicked thing you do
To make me dream of you
XxXx
No I don't wanna fall in love
(this world is always gonna break your heart)
No I don't wanna fall in love
(this world is always gonna break your heart)
With you
xXxX
The world was on fire, no one could save me but you
It's strange what desire will make foolish people do
No and I never dreamed that I'd love somebody like you
I'll never dream that I lose somebody like you, no
XxXx
Now I wanna fall in love
(this world is always gonna brake your heart)
Now I wanna fall in lust
(this world is always gonna brake your heart)
With you
I opened my eyes and let go of the micorphone. Silence was held until Yugi and Yami started to clap and soon, everyone was clapping and cheering. I was reciveing a standing ovation. People were whistling and throwing their arms in the air. I didn't think I was that good of a singer. I looked around the room and smiled but my smile dropped from my face when I saw him.
It was Bakura and Akina. Akina was clapping but Bakura sat there. I notice Yugi saw the look of horror in my eyes and he turned around to see what I was gaping at. Yugi's eyes widened and shook Yami's arm. Yami also turned around and he gasped, placing a hand over his mouth.
Bakura's eyes were locked with mine. I suddenly felt movement and I notice I was walking back down to my table. Yugi turned to look at me so did Yami. "Ryou..." Yugi was probably left speechless, as was I. I gulped. "W-we should go home." Yami nodded. Yugi hugged me and all three of us walked out. But we had a small obstacule to overcome before we left.
Akina.
She stood in the doorway, smirking. She wore tight red pants, with the legs of the pants tucked into her boots, and she had on a top that didn't leave much to the imagination except probably 'how could I get that off'. I rolled my eyes, when is she going to stop being such a slut?
Really how can Bakura fall for this? Maybe I should dress the same way to see if I get his attention. That was stupid. I would rather Bakura like me like I am instead of me having to change for him. I'm beginning to creep myself out.
"Hello, Ryou. Why haven't you been going home?". "I don't need to be home right now." I'm trying to be polite until she deserves it. You don't know how hard it is to try and stop yourself from slapping that stupid smirk off her face. Actually, I want to scratch her face and make blood ooze from the cuts and then I'd laugh at her. Then I'd spit on her and pour bleach on her face.
'Ryou...you're scaring the readers.'
Right. Ahem. Now what was this slut saying again?
"I know who that was for." "Oh really? Don't you feel smart, huh?". She raised her eyebrow. "Look, I read that note you gave Bakura. He was hiding it form me but you know I have my ways." "Yeah, I certainly know. Your way is to fuck the truth out of someone...or fuck your way into something." I whispered the last part. "I'm going to tell you this once: Bakura picked me, not you. You think he's yours when he's actually mine. I have him twirled around my finger and I can do anything and get away with it. You better leave my boyfriend alone. He. Doesn't. Love. You."
That's it. I can't take her voice anymore. I can't stand her anymore. My patiences snapped along with my sanity.
I saw her fall back. She looked up at me, shocked and holding her cheek. I turned around to see Yami and Yugi shocked as well. I looked back and glared at her until I saw Bakura coming this way. Oh god. I have to get out.
I push Yami a bit to get out and I manage to run to thier house where I was staying until I could get over Bakura.
I ran to my bedroom (the guest room) and started to rip paper. I had to, that was what I do whenever I was mad. Rip paper. But that didn't satisfy me this time. I go into the bathroom and punch the mirror. I grab one of the shattered pieces of the mirror from the air and started to slit my arm. Not the wrist but the arm. I began to cry for the first time in four days. And again, the rain began to pour as if the world were crying for me.
I walk, dizzy, to my bed and flop on it. I took deep breaths and soon I was calmed. I dropped the peice of mirror.
Oh lord, what the hell did I do? Why did I do such an immature and stupid thing as to cut?
'I forgot to mention that when you love someone, you do the most stupidest and immature things you can think of. Sorry for not telling you sooner.'
LEAVE ME ALONE YOU STUPID VOICE!
'See, that was stupid AND immature. I mean, who screams at their voices?'
I raised up my arm to see the damage. Not bad, but not good. /Sigh/
"Damn it Bakura. What have you done to me?"
Lady Ai: AND THE ANGST CONTINUES/Raises index finger in the air to make her point/ What -has- Bakura done to poor Ryou? And what will Ryou do next time? Well, review and find out of course! Ciao until next time my darlings n.n
P.s. I'm sorry for the stupid spacing, FF did that. Not I.