I don't love you

"Remy!" Rogue sat up in bed with a start, a sheen of cold sweat covered her skin. She had been dreaming about him again. She looked at the clock, five a.m. She sighed and climbed out of bed. Putting on her robe, she went downstairs. She couldn't believe she was still having these dreams. She had tried so hard to get over Remy. She had dated her fair share of men, but none of them compared to him. Not one of them made her feel the way she did when she was with Remy.

Once in the kitchen, Rogue put on a pot of coffee. She had hoped things would have changed once she started seeing other men, but nothing had eased her pain. Until two months ago, that is. That's when she met David. He was a great guy, and really made her feel good. He made her laugh, and was kind, and sweet, but there was still something missing. If only she could get Remy out of her head, then maybe she could figure out what that something was.

"You're up early,"

"Jean," Rogue turned around, surprised. "Ah didn't hear ya come in,"

"Sorry, I didn't mean to startle you," Jean replied, concern etched on her face.

"Did Ah wake ya?"

"Yes, but don't worry about it, I was going to get up soon, and I needed to talk to you anyway,"

"What's up?" Rogue asked pouring herself a cup of coffee. She leaned against the counter as Jean sat at the table. She knew what Jean was going to tell her. She knew Ororo was nervous about the surgery and had asked Remy to come back. This was about him, he wouldn't come back, and Rogue felt guilty, but glad.

"Well, you know Ororo asked Gambit to come back for her surgery," Jean paused as Rogue nodded, "Well he said he'd come back,"

"What?" Rogue gasped choking on her coffee, and slopping most of it down her front. "Shit," she mumbled wiping herself with a towel. "When's he comin'?" she asked trying to stay calm.

"I'm not sure, he said he would be here before the surgery so I guess anytime now,"

"Did...did anyone tell him about meh?"

"About your powers or about your role in the surgery?" Jean asked, although she knew the answer.

"Both,"

"No. No one told him about your powers or about the surgery. Did you want someone to tell him, so you wont have to?"

"It doesn't matter. Ah doubt he'll care either way,"

"O-kay, and what about David?"

"What about him? Remy doesn't need ta know anything about mah personal life,"

"How are things going with him anyway?" Jean asked, changing the subject.

"Good. He's great. He's kind, smart, good looking, what more could a girl ask for?"

"Right, what more? I'm going to try and get a little more sleep,"

"Yeah me too," Rogue walked back to her room knowing she wouldn't sleep anymore. Panic started to overtake her. She didn't want to see Remy again, but she couldn't just leave either, Ororo needed her. When she had found out Ororo needed a kidney transplant, she got tested as a donor, knowing it was a long shot, knowing that the chances of being a match were slim to none. But she had been a match, and now she had the power to save her friends life. And when Ororo had asked if Rogue would mind if she asked Remy to come see her before the surgery, of course Rogue said she wouldn't mind, she never thought he would come.

Rogue took a quick shower and sat down brushing her hair, lost in thought. She hadn't told David about Remy, maybe it was time she told him. But how much should she tell him? David didn't know she was a mutant either, or about the X-Men. He thought she was a teacher. Maybe she should tell him everything, things were getting pretty serious between them but...

The sound of the phone ringing interrupted her thoughts.

"Hello?"

"Hello, Anna," it was David. "I'm sorry to call so early, but I'm on my way to work and I wanted to catch you before your class started,"

"What's up sugah?" Rogue willed herself to feel more excited by his call.

"I had an early meeting with a client today and he's friends with the owner of that new restaurant, Casa Del Mar, and he got us reservations for tommorrow night," David was an accountant, and he had a lot of connections.

"Oh David, Ah've heard great things about that restaurant. Ah also heard they're booked solid for months, Ah can't believe ya got us in," Rogue replied, excitedly.

"I'm glad you're happy. I've got to go, I'm almost at the office I'll pick you up tomorrow night at seven, our reservation's at eight, but I thought we could get there a little early,"

"Sounds great, Ah'll see ya then,"

"Bye, Anna"

Rogue hung up her phone and went downstairs. She walked around looking for Jean. She needed advice on what to do about David. She peeked into the rec. room and saw Bobby watching t.v.

"Hey Bobby have ya seen Jean?" she asked him.

"Uh, I think she went to the store or something," he answered, not bothering to look at her. "Wolverine was looking for you earlier, he said Ororo wanted to talk to you,"

"Thanks Bobby," Rogue said heading for the med bay. She hadn't been to see Ororo in a couple days, she must have been worried.

She had been nervous about asking Rogue about inviting Remy back. Now that they knew he was coming she must have wanted to talk to Rogue about it. Rogue got there quickly and knocked on the door.

"Come in," Ororo's voice beckoned from the other side of the door.

"Hey, sugah, Ah heard ya were looking for meh?" Rogue said walking in, and sitting on the foot of the bed. Ororo was hooked up to a dialysis machine, it hummed quietly in the background.

"Yes, Logan told me Remy called and I just wanted to make sure you were really alright with this,"

" 'Ro, you shouldn't be worryin' about meh none. Ahe said it's alright with meh, an' Ah meant it. Ya shouldn't worry so much, it aint good for ya,"

"I'm not worrying, I'm just wondering how you feel about this," Ororo replied, smiling. Rogue got up and sat next to Ororo and brushed her hair.

"Ah feel fine, so stop wonderin'. Where's Logan anyhow?" Rogue said, changing the subject.

"Well he was looking for you, but since he had an appointment with the caterer, he had to leave before he could find you,"

"Ah still can't believe ya let Logan plan your wedding," Rogue said laughing.

"It is his wedding to. Besides he didn't give me much of a choice, he didn't want me stressing over any of the details. Besides he's doing a wonderful job,"

"Yah, Ah'm still having trouble believing that. He's got to be getting help from someone," Ororo chuckled, and they sat in silence for the next few minutes, Rogue brushing Ororo's, running her fingers through her silky strands.

"How are ya going ta do your hair?" Rogue asked,putting the brush down and twisting her hair into a bun. "Up?"

"I've been looking through all these bride magazine's hoping to get inspired, but nothing. I think I've got to many option's I'm more confused now than ever,"

"Well you've still got plenty of time to decide,"

"So how are things with David?"

"They're good,"

"Just good?" Ororo questioned, raising an eyebrow. "You've been seeing him for quite some time now,"

"Ah know," Rogue replied sighing. "David's a great man, he's kind, considerate, smart, and Ah like him, there's just somethin' missing,"

"Oh?" Rogue stood and began straightening a vase of flowers on the nearby table.

"There's just, no passion between us. No lust ya know? I mean, he's attractive and everything, he just doesn't make me feel..."

Rogue paused, thinking.

"Like Remy did?" Ororo supplied.

"No," Yes. "Ah don't know, maybe. Ah just want to get over him, but Ah can't help comparing every guy Ah date to him. Gawd, it's been three years, why can't Ah get over him?" Rogue sighed, falling into a chair.

"You were with him a long time, Anna. You can't just forget about him,"

"Ah guess you're right, ya look kinda tired 'Ro Ah'm gonna go so ya can rest,"

"I am rather tired. Thanks for coming, Anna,"

"See ya later,"

-

Rogue got ready for her date early, she had spent most of her day in the danger room, hoping to distract herself as she anxiously awaited this evening. She pulled out two jeweled barrettes and clipped her curly hair back behind each ear. She then put on her make up, and earrings, before going to her closet and putting on her dress. She had bought the dress just for this occasion, it was the perfect little black dress. It was tight and dipped low in the front, revealing a nice amount of cleavage, had a slit up to her hip, and was daringly low in the back. Rogue put on a pair of black open-toed stilettos and she was ready. She looked at the clock, it was only six, she still had an hour before David would arrive.

"Wow, you look great Rogue," Bobby said, whistling, when she walked into the dining room.

"Thank ya," she said, twirling around. She poured herself a glass of water turning back to him. "Ya don't think it's to revealing do ya?"

"Nah, you look hot trust me,"

"O-kay good 'cus Ah'm really looking forward to tonight. Ah think tonight Ah'm going ta tell David..." but the words died on her lips as her glass slipped from her hands and shattered on the floor. For standing in the doorway was her former lover.

"Remy," he heard her whisper, so softly he wasn't sure she had said it, save for her lips moving. She looked great. All Remy wanted to do at that moment was pull her into his arms and apologize. But, as anger flashed in her eyes, he knew that wouldn't be a smart move. Although, he always did like to gamble.

"Did ya miss me, chere?" he asked walking towards her and placing a hand on her hip. He smiled at her seductively and hoped she would take this well. He looked into her eyes and a brief glimmer of hope filled him, before she raised her hand and slapped him across the face. Hard. He fell over as she stormed out of the room.

"That went better then I thought it would,"