Sadness floods me, it fill's every inch of my body I should have known I shouldn't have trusted.
I let him in it's my fault I let him in I should have known not to let him in.
So whilst I may kick, I may shout, I may hurt it doesn't make a difference I still let myself love. The bruises make such a difference on my pale creamy skin some yellow some red some blue and even some purple I've in the past joked that I'll have a rainbow soon.
He always said he'd never do it again I've always known he would just not like this.
This isn't the first time I've waited in st mungo's waiting for a healer to attend to me thank god they don't recognize me I don't want any body's pity. They have fixed me up but the bruises are still obvious I use what must be my hundredth concealment charm and try and sleep the pain away.
It's a good thing Ron and Harry are to oblivious to it all but as for my best friend Ginny and her mother molly they can tell all to well. Molly says that sadness reflects in my eyes I suppose it's true, my brown orbs used shimmer so brightly but now the sparks gone. Ginny says that I'm not the same I've lost to much weight I can't tell them it was hard enough to convince them all that he's safe in the first time but now there suspicions will be confirmed. No I won't tell them, its not like they could do anything about it anyway.
So I go home again haunted like a shadow's following me black clouds over my head it's like he can tell where I've been. He practically spits at me with a voice laced with venom where have you been I plead I shout I threaten to leave him to tell all just empty threats he lifts me by the neck and throws me against the wall where's my dinner he says I tell him there's house elves to do that sort of thing honey my voice filled with fear trembling with every syllable. He throws me onto the floor. His steely grey eyes glaring hate upon me he takes me to the basement I scream my cries of pain and anguish as he inflicts pain on me over and over again but I know he loves me I know he does.
I know I can't leave him and by god I've tried but I have to for the sake of this baby I won't let him live the life I am. So I let him beat me one more time and it's like he knows his hold on me is broken. I pack a bag and in the night I go straight to Ginny's and I cry tears of joy because I know his hold on me is gone. I tell her every thing and she cries to but it's ok because his hold on me is gone my baby will not grow up with the name malfoy attached to it. I know it will be hard but I won't let him because my baby's to important and its good to know I won't have the shadow of him following me and I will once more be known as Hermione Jane granger.
I hoped you liked my first story its a oneshot please review hannah