Crystal Hearts

We can grow only once in our lives. As our love crystallizes and grows, so, too, do our hearts…they are a manifestation of our love. In time, they are given over to the one who inspired them…who wished them happiness. You at least…I wish you happiness…

Chapter 6: Krad's Heart

#Wait…#

/What now? I was about to tell the story!./

#Back tracking for a second…are you saying that all the Niwa fell for the Hikari that died.#

/Have not listened to a single word I've spoken?./

#…if I say no would you answer me?#

/Not all the Niwa end up falling in love…but most do, it's really hard to say no to something or someone with pure love and crystals for hearts./

#Is that why you fell for Krad?#

/Hell no…actually…sorta…not really though but still…/

#Make up your mind.#

/Well…screw…I suck at this./

#I noticed.#

/I meant to say it'll be explained better if I tell you the whole thing./

#Kay.#

/It all started in Black wings when we were both still one…well not really…more like two in one anyways. But I could always sense him…it was comforting…/

#You never saw him?#

/Not really, I knew him as Krad or the light, the light I saw him as. When we separated, something felt empty…like it was missing. Then the next generation we ended up in our first tamer's body, I missed him./

#That's love?#

/What? No, well sorta…eerrrr…maybe I started a bit too far back…okay, anyways, we met when Kin and Seijun were our hosts, they were our...third host I think. After they died me and Krad came back, after that incident let's just say we grew closer./

(Grew closer?)

((We got new hosts, and since we knew which bloodline we were in, we naturally called to each other. And in a way it seemed like we were forcing our hosts to meet. My host never seemed to mind…))

(Since he loved the Niwa.)

((Yes, most of the Niwa were eager to comply.))

(Wow…)

Black wings folded neatly and let out a soft "Kyu" as it perched itself onto his shoulder, there was a soft huff, "He's late…"

"Who's late?"

The thief whirled around, there was the blonde sitting on the roof, white wings shimmering under the moonlight, "Oh! So you are here!"

Krad rolled his eyes, "No really…I'm an illusion."

Dark pouted as the angel snorted, "That's mean…" The kaitou went over and sat beside the angel, looking out at the sea, decorated by jewels in thesky,"It's pretty."

The blonde nodded, "Your host asleep?"

"Yeah, yours?"

Krad nodded again, "I wonder how many more times it's going to happen…"

"Who knows, it's sad though…I feel sorry for you."

Krad curled up a bit, hugging his knees, "I have to go through this every time…I don't know how much more I can take…it hurts…"

Dark pecked the blonde's lips and hugged the curled form sympathetically, "I wouldn't worry too much, and you're strong…" Krad didn't answer, trusting Dark, he closed his eyes and leaned into the embrace. With his host asleep no one could hear him and his thoughts. ((Let's just hope you're right…))

/I didn't get his hints, I just thought he was complaining, yes I was fucking stupid./

#Yea…#

/You didn't have to agree…/

#It's true though…#

/Krad…he always hinted at it, but him being Krad, there was no way in hell he'd say anything until it was too late. But he'd hint at it, you miss it, you're doomed./

#Sounds bad.#

/I didn't mean to make him sound like some attention hog, he's anything but that. He's simply Krad, there's no other way to describe him, he hates to show his weakness./

#Why do you love him?#

/I was getting to that…/

#…well?#

/…I…don't know…/

#What!.?#

/Don't yell at me! I mean you don't know why you like creepy boy either now do you?./

#I…no I don't.#

/See? You don't know either, love just comes naturally./

#…#

(So what happened?)

((What Satoshi-sama?))

(Your heart, you said you had one, what happened to it?)

((Oh…like I said, I gave it away.))

(To who?)

((Isn't that obvious?))

(To Dark?)

((Aa…))

(…)

((Lies…he told me lies…and I believed him…))

(Lies?)

((He told me everything would be alright in the end, he told me…that I was the only one…))

"Hey." He nodded his greeting, the thief pouted, "Is that how you're going to greet me?"

"Hn."

"What's up with you?"

"I was wondering, you're a thief…"

"Obviously."

"Shut up and listen," Dark did as he was told, "Since you're a thief what would be your most prized possession or what's the one thing that you'd steal if given the chance to?"

Dark grinned, "Can I un-shut up now?" Krad nodded, the thief smiled, "Isn't that obvious? If given the chance to steal anything, it'd be you."

Krad raised a brow, "Be serious."

"I am! Dark Mousy does not lie!"

"Hm?"

"I'm telling the truth Krad, believe me, please?"

"…hn…"

/I wasn't lying, there's no way in hell I'd lie about that./

#Uh huh.#

/I wonder what would've happened if I had figured it out sooner…maybe things wouldn't be so bad right now…/

#You can't go back into the past.#

/I know that but still, I still wish I knew earlier, then maybe I could've stopped him./

#Wha?#

Dark ignored the redhead and continued. /Maybe if I had noticed he wouldn't have given his crystal heart away…/

It was raining that night. Two lonely figures were walking across a bridge. Then one stopped mid-stroll, the other turned around noticing the loss of his companion. "Krad?"

The figure in white was silent, head dipped in silence, "It hurts…"

"?" The thief watched the other in confusion.

"It hurts…there's too much pain, I can't bear it anymore. It just hurts too much…" Shaking his head he held a hand to his chest, water was dripping from long golden strands. He looked up at the thief, unmeasured pain reflected off his eyes.

Dark frowned, something was wrong, he walked back towards the blonde, "Krad?"

A little smirk played on the blonde's lips, "They say that you'll give your heart away to the one you love the most…they say that you can only truly fall in love once…and it'll last you the end of your life. Quite accurate don't you think? After all…the Hikari only live up until they fall in love…" Dark slowly realized where the blonde was going with it. Krad let out a sigh, "What is love anyways? I never understood that…"

He frowned, hand clutching his chest harder, the pain was overflowing, "If love means wishing that person happiness even though he's caused you nothing but grief, then I think I know the feeling…"

"Krad…"

"Tell me Dark, is love suppose to hurt?"

He had no answer for that, no…love was suppose to be the happiest thing anyone could feel…Krad looked down in disappointment, "If…love means wanting to give everything away to that person then I think I understand it just a little."

His golden wet hair was clinging to him, Dark couldn't tell if he was crying or just having rain run down his face, "In truth…I really don't know anything about love do I?"

He looked up at the sky, the moon wasn't there, it had abandoned him, no light shone on him, there was no hope, "I was never meant to have a heart." The statement shocked him, Krad continued, "Yet…I still do. They say you can only give your heart away once…"

Dark's eyes widened, absorbing everything in at once, "No! Please! Krad no, not another one!"

The blonde gave a sad smile, "…what if I told you that this one was mine?"

The thief froze, his mind went blank, blood going cold, hesitantly he called out the blonde's name, "…Krad?"

"The next time we meet…I will not have a heart for you to destroy or to give away."

He was resorting to begging now, "Please don't…Krad…please…"

The blonde ignored him, "Whoever obtains a crystal is supposed to be given happiness…"

There was no doubt in Dark's mind that there were tears running down the blonde's cheeks as he gave a smile, his last smile, "Goodbye Dark…may happiness find you…"

His fingers suddenly thrust through his chest, breaking through his rib cage. He let out a gasp of pain, there was a wave of relief that washed through him though…he pulled something out, by the time Dark had overcome his shock and was by his side, he was falling, falling endlessly. He placed the object into the thief's hand and he fell, he fell dead, golden eyes closed. Dark stared in horror at the blonde in his arms; he set the angel down onto the ground gently. He hugged the angel the blood dripping from the object in his hand dripped onto the golden hair that once shone like the sun. "Krad…"

In his hand was something hard and smooth, he opened it. There laid a bright golden jewel that glittered brighter than any star in the sky, reminding him of bright golden hues that use to twinkle as the blonde spoke to him. Dark hugged the lifeless form closer, "Krad, please come back…I love you…really I do…I love you so much…Krad…"

The rain continued to fall as the blood slowly washed away. The thief remained with the blonde repeating his name softly until the sun had rose and Krad's form melted away into the shape of his host. Dark dipped his head, grief overflowing, he turned back to his host and waited for the process to repeat again.

/Daisuke?./

#Yea?#

/You're crying…/

The redhead wiped his tears away with his sleeve. #It's okay…#

/…Daisuke…/

#Hey, let's go and get some breakfast ne?#

/It's well past noon…/

#Then some brunch.#

The thief didn't feel up to arguing with the crying boy so he complied without further questions or complaints. Daisuke headed down the stairs, thoughts swirling around his head so fast that he couldn't comprehend any of them. For the first time in his life he noticed the pains and scars behind those violet eyes. Dark shifted around uneasily, the redhead shook his head and cleared the thought out of his head.

After a moment, silence filled the room, Krad frowned and looked around in the darkness, ((Satoshi-sama?))

(…) Satoshi was staring at his hands, unable to comprehend his own thoughts.

((…)) Figuring that it would be a good idea to leave, Krad frowned and went back into the blue haired boy's mind.

After another minute, Satoshi finally snapped out of his trance, (…Krad?)

((Yes?))

(Did it hurt?)

There was a moment of silence, Krad looked up thoughtfully, ((It still does…)) The answer seemed to have satisfied the blue haired boy, for the moment anyways, ((Satoshi-sama, you should eat.))

He got up without a word and headed down the stairs while the blonde curled up nervously, his wings folded neatly, twitching every now and then. Satoshi frowned, in a way, he could say that Krad was broken. The blonde's mind was whirling with memories, Satoshi somehow caught an image of a man with icy blue hair and a kind smile, (Must be Kin…)

Satoshi tried to imagine what it must've been like, never liking anyone, except for a single person…that much he could relate to. But being with that person for possibly hundreds of years? He probably wouldn't last that long. The part that messed his mind up the most was when that person, that one single person turned and betrayed him. He couldn't imagine what it must've felt like. And the deaths…all the deaths that the blonde went through, each dying before they lived their full life. The pain must've been overwhelming…so overwhelming that it led to death…Satoshi winced as he bit down on his tongue, grumbling to himself he reached for his glass and chugged down the water.

A pain so devastating that it hurt even now, while pondering this, Krad had his own thoughts to deal with. Accidentally, he let his thoughts slip to his hand, it was something that the blue haired boy caught right away. He immediately pushed the blonde out into the open, "S-Satoshi-sama?" Krad blinked, not realizing his mistake, he stared directly at his tamer, not seeing him approaching. Satoshi grabbed the blonde's arm, Krad made a useless struggle as his gloves were taken off, "No!"

Satoshi blinked as he looked at his curse's right arm. His palm was covered in scars as though he was grabbing a handful of glass too tightly and they all dug straight into his hand. But there was more, the blonde looked away as his host rolled up his sleeve, more scars. Scars of suicide…the blue haired boy stared in horror and disgust, "You…" Krad continued to look away, "Did you do these? Or did someone else?" The hunter swallowed, hard, trapped again. He hated the feeling, having nowhere to run and hide. Satoshi tugged him a bit closer, "Well?"

"…both, these are mine and the ones on my palm are by Hikari Yoro…"

The blonde ran the razor over his wrist watching the blood drip out, every time he stopped the razor the wound would simply seal up. He'd done it over and over again, each time the cut would heal, but soon enough scars started to appear. Krad frowned, he was covered in blood, his own blood, his host fast asleep in his mind. He ran the blade over his arm again and again; at times he could see his flesh tear apart. Collapsing onto the puddle of blood on the floor, he bit back a cry of annoyance and ran the razor over his arm at such a pace that his wrist cut open. Golden eyes widened with hope as he saw his bone in the cut, more blood was spilt. But the wound closed up within a minute. Krad sat back against the wall, groaning in exasperation, "Why? Why can't I just die already!.?"

Satoshi covered his mouth, trying to collect himself. What the blonde had described to him, trying to stop internal pain with physical pain. It painted a clear picture in his head, the hunter trying to stop his eternal life, flesh being torn, scars being made. The blue haired boy had always thought that the hunter would have perfect smooth ivory skin. Not a single flaw on it. "You were wrong Satoshi-sama…I have flaws…many of them."

Calming himself down, he managed to ask his curse, "Who was…the other Hikari?"

"Hikari Yoro, he was your grandfather's brother…the kindest man I'd ever had for a tamer."

#Yoro?#

/Aa…I can tell you this much…your grandpa knows him very well…/

#…Hiwatari-kun's grandfather's brother...#

/You catch on quickly./

#What happened?#

/I'm not too sure on the details, but everyone called his death noble./

#Tell me what you know.#

/I'll do my best./

Nya

Another chapter! Woots! This is where Krad loses his heard :O and Daisuke's thoughts went from - to # because of the stupid stupid quick edit thingy, I swear, this is more annoying than anything:( it's so...restricting...did I mention annoying? I'm deprived of DarkxKrad :'( there aren't enough fics...I'm going insane! argh! deprived...

Hakudoshi-chan- Yup, it's a side story in demon diary. Krad's heartless:( I suppose in a way he really can't love...kinda sad...but oh well... :( only a couple chapters maybe even only one left of the past, I'm getting kind of tired of lingering in the past :P

General Kitty Girl- lol, who knows? I might end up dead tomorrow morning o.O then I'd miss my snowboaring trip and stuff...maybe not...I might end up dead next week...you never know XD hopefully the fic will be done by then XP

Anukis-san- XD Having Dark steal kisses is one of the funnest thing in the world XP it's the first kiss that leads to many other :P

Lord Scribbles- They both do but the one who goes through arranged marriage apparently never finds out about it so he/she doesn't fall in love and it never breaks...yea...ermm...let's just say the two met in heaven :D I kinda think happy endings are overrated, it's so..predictable...XP maybe it's just me but I rather like tragic endings..I'm so mean XD

Mysterious Kaitou- lol yea, woots, can't wait for new fics XD I wish I had more time to type them out..yup if only he stayed quiet, it's all his fault -nods- let's all blame him, must suck to be broke, I'm saving up :)

Ailin- Yea! It's kinda sad, but not really really sad, but still sad :D the kid's so giving...not to mention the yaoi-ness XP That's something I'm lacking right now...I looked yesterday and I was horrified since there were just about no DarkxKrad T.T

white- XD Thankies! You didn't really have to go on your knees but still XP Here's an update for you!

Kibethan:O lol! XD I still don't know, I think there are going to be ups and downs -duh- erm...I'll try to increase the rates of ups though XD

golden-flame4- Yea! The truth unrolls and flattens them all! Only a couple parts of the major flashbacks :O

Hikari Fubuki- Aku is busy plotting :) Either that or he went to disneyland XD I'm not allowed to tell, but he'll be back. Let's just hope Satoshi doesn't die :P poor Dai-chan, he might end up going insane XD

dimonyo-anghel- yup! it's from the side story in the first volume, they kissed o.o yes pity the Hikari XD they're all destined to die a horrible and painful death for love :P touching isn't it? Sorry, I'm feeling sadistic at the moment :D

Seena58- Awww...you okay? o.O are you sick? Me keep writing! XD hope you feel better soon nya!