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Chapter 9: My favourite Mistake

VO: My first love was at lower school, I was 5 and fell in love with one of the teachers. My first kiss was when I was 12, it was my big love, until he went away with my best friend. I cried for 2 weeks that was when my heart was broken for the first time.

"Well Sara, what do you want to do, now? I mean, we still have a few hours before dinner." Meredith asked

"I know what we can do." Derek said.

"What?" Sara asked.

"It's a surprise."

15 minutes later they were on Derek's surprise.

"Oh, Derek I love Ferry boats" Sara said as she looked in the water.

"Yeah Derek, thanks" Meredith kissed Derek. When they broke apart they were looking in Sara's sparkling eyes.

"Ah, how cute"

"Sara," Derek said fake-angry. He picked her up and pretended to throw her in the water.

"Ah stop" Sara screamed laughing.

Meredith laughed as she looked at them. Her phone ringed. She picked it up.

"Hello"

"Meredith this is Maria from the nursing home. We, uuhm, found your mother."

"You did?"

"Meredith I'm so sorry"

"O my god… Is she, Did she, is she dead."

"She drowned we found her by the water."

Meredith shut her phone and fell down on her knees, she started crying.

"Meredith what's wrong?" Derek ran to her followed by Sara.

Meredith raised her head. "It's my mother they found her…" She didn't have to say more. Derek knew what she meant, he sat down next to her and hold her in his arms. "It's going to be fine, Mere"

Sara was standing looking very confused, Meredith looked at her. She opened her arms. "Come here, baby" Meredith said.

Sara threw herself in her arms. She didn't know what happened but she had to cry. "Shh, it's okay baby"

"Come on Meredith let's go home, we will bring Sara back tomorrow."

"Do I have to go back to the hospital."

"Yeah Sara, Meredith's…" He changed his mind. "Somebody really close to Meredith just… Uhm… left and she's really sad but you can come another time, okay? Do you understand?"

"Yes" She hugged Meredith. "I'm sorry Meredith"

"It's okay Sara" She whipped away some tears. "You don't mind you have to go?"

"No, I can come another time."

Derek was amazed that such a small girl could understand that good. "Maybe you can come next week" He looked at Meredith, she nodded.

"Okay, it's my birthday next Saturday"

"Really and you didn't say that."

"I forgot"

"You forgot your fifth birthday?"

"No, I forgot to tell you"

"Okay" Derek picked her up and got Meredith's hand. "Let's go home"

Meredith didn't say anything the whole ride she just stared out of the window. Derek had his hand on her leg the whole time, just to tell her he was there. Sara was quieter than she was normal too.

"We're there." Derek said.

Meredith got out of the car and opened the door of the back. She picked up Sara. "Let's go inside."

"yeah," Sara put her dumb in her mouth.

As they walked in. She heard Izzie George and Emily talking in the kitchen.

"You go watch some television, okay?" She said as she put Sara on the ground.

Derek sat down next to Sara on the couch. And Meredith walked into the kitchen.

"Hey guys"

"Hey Mere, have you been crying, you look like crap."

"Yeah, I need to talk about that."

"How you look like crap?" Izzie asked sarcastic.

"No" She sighed, and turned to Emily "it's mom, Em."

"Oh my god. Did they find her?"

"Yeah, and She uuhm… She…" She felt the tears running down her cheeks she just couldn't say it. But suddenly she felt hands grabbing her hands.

"She… died..." Derek said.

Emily started crying. Meredith walked over her and hugged her. "I'm so sorry"

"Yeah me too"

Sara ran in and Derek picked her up. Let's get you to bed, okay. So Meredith can talk to her sister.

I'm so sorry." Izzie said se hugged her and Emily.

"My condolences" George said as he too, hugged Emily and Meredith.

"Thanks George"

And George and Izzie walked upstairs after Derek.

Meredith and Emily talked for a while. And went upstairs to get some sleep. The next day they would talk about the funeral. As Meredith stepped in her bed Derek wrapped his arms around her and kissed her forehead.

"Are you okay?"

"I'm fine"

"Okay, now get some sleep, we'll do the rest tomorrow. And Mere…"

"Yeah"

"I'm always here, you know that right."

"Yes"

He turned on his back, she put her head on his chest and he started to stroke her hair lightly, just as they did every night.

"Goodnight"

"Yeah, I love you"

"I love you more"

And with that she fell in a fast sleep he followed soon.

The next morning Meredith woke of the smell from chocolate. She turned on her belly and felt something hard on her head, it was a note. She read it.

Dear Meredith

I had to go to the hospital

I will be back at half past nine

Eat something, Izzie made chocolate cake.

I brought Emily with me back to the hospital

If there's something, call me.

I love you

Derek

She walked downstairs, into the kitchen and saw the chocolate cake on the table. It had another note on it.

Dear Meredith,

I made this cake for you and Emily

If there's something missing, George discovered it.

I'll tell Bailey you and Emily

Aren't coming in today.

Keep it calm

Love

Izzie

Meredith walked back upstairs to wake Emily. She walked into her bedroom and sat down on her bed.

"Emily? Wake up."

"I'm already awake"

Meredith looked at her face, her eyes were red. "Come on Em."

"How can you be so calm."

"I knew something would happen. I already cried this hard when I found out she had Alzheimer and when she ran away I already knew that was the end.

"Ow"

"Yeah, it's not like I'm not sad or something, but for me she wasn't Ellis Grey anymore, she didn't even remember who I was. She was already gone for a long time."

"I understand"

"Now let's go eat some chocolate"

"Yeah, I could use that now."

They walked out of the room.

"Derek already went to the hospital, with Sara."

"Oh my god, the hospital. I completely forgot"

"Oh, Izzie told it to Bailey and we have a day of"

"Oh good. You still have to introduce me to Sara."

"Yeah, she's coming next weekend. It's her birthday Saturday."

"Oh, how old?"

"She's going to be five. She's gonna go to the elementary school."

"Really, that's so cute."

"Yeah, She will start in November, She actually had to start in the beginning of the year but they just found out about her asthma and all."

"Oh, I understand."

"She's excited" She took a bite of her chocolate cake.

"Mere, when will the funeral be" Emily asked, changing the subject

"It will probably be Monday"

"Okay, that's soon"

"Yes… It is"

Emily was looking to the ground and a single tear fell down her eyes. Meredith couldn't hold her tears either. She picked Emily's hand up and Emily looked in her eyes.

"We're gonna get through this" Meredith said looking deep in her eyes.

"As long as we stick together" Emily added.

It was quiet for several minutes.

"Mere, I hate funerals… I, I never went to one before" Emily said hesitantly

Meredith walked towards Emily.

VO: We all have to experience first times it's nature. Some aren't good experiences and second times are mostly better, sometimes the second times are worse and you'll just have to live with it.

"Neither does Sara"

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