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A/N: I'm very sorry about all the grammatical mistakes. I live in Holland and I'm only 13 so… sorry 'bout that…
Chapter 10: Laugh Now, Cry Later
VO: Some people, when they lose a loved one, are sad, for some the world falls apart. I'm not like that, I'm one of those that try to fake that they don't care. But I'm such a bad liar.
Everybody was dressed in black. They walked to the graveyard. Derek and Meredith walked hand in hand, with Emily carrying Sara on next to them. Behind them were Christina and Preston, followed by Izzie, Alex, George and Callie.
Derek squeezed Meredith's hand. "Are you okay?" He whispered
"Yeah, thanks." She whispered back. She looked at Emily and Sara.
"Meredith can you hold me?"
"Of course, honey" She took Sara over.
Ellis's grave was full of flowers. Meredith put down a dozen roses with Sara and Emily. As she walked away from her grave she said a quiet goodbye and a single tear fell down her eyes.
They were walking away from the graveyard…
"Is she ever coming back?" Sara asked Meredith quietly.
"No, she's not honey, she's not"
It was quiet for several minutes.
"Sara, do you want to stay over tonight?"
"Really?"
"Yes"
"Yeah, I want to stay"
"Okay"
Meredith turned to Derek.
"Sara's staying tonight"
"Meredith can I go in the bath?" Sara asked. They just came home and Sara was her old self again.
"Of course you can, but not alone, I don't want you drowning" She stopped with those words, she just needs to try not think about it.
"But I can swim."
"I'm sure you can but still… I will just read a magazine or something."
"Okay" She started to walk towards the stairs.
"Not so fast missy, we're going to eat first."
"Can I have a cupcake?"
"No, we're going to eat healthy for one time, okay."
"Okay. But not Derek's muesli it taste like feet"
"Well thank you" Derek was standing behind them.
"Hi Derek" Sara jumped on him.
"Hi" Meredith kissed his cheek.
"I will cook you something healthy"
"Can you cook?" Emily asked. She just walked in.
"Yes, of course."
She walked over Meredith. "Seriously Meredith, just marry him right away" She whispered in her ear.
Meredith laughed. "What are you making?"
"Spaghetti"
"Wow, that's hard to make"
"Yes, it is if you make it on my way."
"I love spaghetti" Sara said excited as she walked to the kitchen. She sat down on a chair. "Can I have a cupcake after the spaghetti?"
"Only if you eat everything I give you!"
"Okay, I promise."
"Good" Meredith laughed. "You've got to get Izzie out of the hospital to make you cupcakes first, though"
"Oh, I want a cupcake." She complained and she crossed her arms.
Meredith gave her a kiss on her cheek. "But you ate them all yourself"
"No! That's not true, I ate eight and Derek ate one."
"But Izzie did make some chocolate cake the other day, you can have a piece of that."
"I can?"
"Yes"
"Can I have it now?" She gave Meredith her puppy dog eyes.
"No, no, no. First we're going to eat Derek's spaghetti"
"Okay"
"Okay"
"Can I take a bath now? While Derek is cooking."
"Of course."
And Sara ran upstairs.
"Yeah you fill the bath in the meantime."
"I will help her" Emily went after Sara upstairs.
"So we're finally alone" Meredith wrapped her arms around Derek's waist.
"We are" He turned around and kissed her.
"Meredith I'm going in my bath now." Sara screamed from upstairs.
"We'll finish this later." She loosed herself from his grip and walked upstairs.
"I hate it, when she starts something and wants to finish it, later!" He said to himself.
After Sara took her bath, they had dinner and ate Izzie's chocolate cake they were lying on the couch.. Meredith saw Sara yawn for the third time in the last 10 minutes.
"Come on Sara time to go to bed." She picked up Sara's hand and helped her of the couch.
"Do I have to go to the hospital tomorrow?"
Meredith looked at Derek. "We will see about that, okay?"
"Okay"
"Now, let's go to bed." She picked Sara up and walked upstairs, to the quest room she prepared for her, at the end of the hall.
"Look what we bought you." Meredith picked up the pink pyjama's that were lying on her bed.
"I love them. How did you know this was my favourite colour?"
"Well, you're four, a girl and all your clothes are pink. It was just a guess."
"Thank you" She put the pyjama's on.
"Now, time to sleep."
"Yes" She yawned. "Goodnight, Meredith"
Derek just entered the room.
"Goodnight Sara."
"Goodnight, Derek"
Meredith kissed her forehead.
"Sleep tight" she walked out of the room and turned of the light.
"Meredith?"
"Yes honey." She walked back.
"Can my bed light stay on?"
'Of course honey"
"Okay"
She walked out again. She met Derek at her own bedroom.
"I'm tired."
"Me too. No finishing tonight, huh?"
"No, especially not with a child in our house."
"Yeah. She's a sweet girl, don't you think?"
"Yes. We're starting to get too attached, don't you think?"
"Yes" He collapsed on the bed and climbed under the blankets.
"But she's so sweet" She lay down next to him.
"You know, I was thinking." He turned to his side so he could look in her eyes. "We could, I mean, take her in house."
"You mean we should adopt her?"
"Yeah, they haven't found a family yet, we could do it"
"Derek, no way, we're doctors, it's too much responsibility, and you know it." She sighed.
"But Mere, maybe Izzie and George can help, we can ask them."
"No way"
"Mere, maybe she has to stay in the hospital for another couple of months, she already knows us. We would be great parents"
"Derek, we have night shifts and long ones"
"But if Izzie and George would help… okay you sleep on it and if you agree we will only do it if Izzie and George will help."
"No Derek"
"Please Meredith, just think about it, do it for Sara"
"Okay I will think about it, just thinking"
"Okay"
"Goodnight"
"Goodnight" He kissed her forehead. "I love you"
"Love you too"
The next morning Derek woke up by the smell of something burned. He put his robe on and walked downstairs. In the kitchen he saw Sara sitting on the table and Meredith trying to cook.
"Meredith you can't cook" Sara said laughing.
"I know, but I can try" Meredith said back. She suddenly felt two hands around here waist and lips pressed against her cheek. "Good morning, Derek"
"Here let me help you" He took over the pan Meredith was holding and threw everything in it away.
"What are you doing?" She asked annoyed.
"Cooking" And he pushed her to the table. "You sit" He pointed to the chair next to Sara's.
"Sara, could you watch some TV? I have to talk to Derek" Meredith asked to the giggling girl.
"Yes" She climbed of the chair and put her dumb in her mouth as she walked to the couch.
Meredith stood up too and walked over Derek. "I thought about what you said." She said hesitantly.
"You did?"
"Yes, I think you're right."
"Do you?"
"Yes." It was quiet for a few seconds. "We should ask Izzie and George first, though."
"Yes, yes, of course."
VO: It's a fact that after a loved one dies, people start making big changes, so you can forget everything that reminds you of that somebody. But sometimes you're just very sure about something; it's just a thing you'll have to do.
Well… What do you think? I really tried to get the grammatical mistakes out. I always read it over but now I read it like… 3 times.