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Chapter 14: Burying Your Past

VO: Everybody has something they're ashamed of, something that happened in the past ,and you wish you could turn back. But if you make a mistake you'll just have to except it and try to control the damage. You can't turn it back but you can keep you're head up high and move on…

"So they're accepting to see us?"

"Yes, tomorrow morning."

"Okay"

"Good morning," Meredith said interrupting Derek's phone call. She gave a kiss on his forehead.

"I'll call you before that"

"Okay"

"Bye"

"Bye"

Derek shut his phone. "Good morning" He said as if he had been up for the whole night.

"Coffee?"

"Yeah, thanks"

They sat down on the table.

"Where are the girls?"

"Oh, I brought them to school and then went back to bed."

"Oh" He was quiet. "Would you mind if Addison comes today?"

"No of course not. Or actually, I do, that fighting is very annoying." She laughed.

"I'll try to keep it down."

"Good, and how is it going, with Adrienne and all."

"We got a meeting at the police station we need to prove we we're her parents all that time. If it's good prove, we can get her back. Probably not immediately for adoption, but Addie can take her home."

"Good" She paused. "When will Addison be here?"

"Any time"

"Derek , couldn't you have told me earlier I still have pyjama's on"

"I'm sorry." He said as the doorbell rang.

Meredith ran upstairs to take a shower.

"See you later" He said as he opened the door for Addie. "Hey"

"Hi"

"Come in, Meredith is upstairs, she's taking a shower, she already brought the girls to school"

"Okay"

20 minutes later Meredith stormed down the stairs.

"HI Addison."

"Hi Meredith"

"Derek, I'm going to work. Can you pick up Sara? I have to work 'till 9."

"I can't, I will have to do this." He said not looking at her but at the papers in front of him, he was clearly not paying much attention to Meredith.

"Okay" She said annoyed. "I'll ask if Emily can pick her up."

"Okay"

"Bye"

"Bye."

She walked out.

"Derek what the hell are you doing." Addison said as she stood up and smacked her hands on the table.

"I'm signing these papers" He said still not paying attention.

"I mean with Meredith. You're pushing her away."

"I'm not pushing her away" He said assaulted.

"You may have not noticed it, but you are."

"I'm not"

"Derek I now you're having a hard time, and that this is you, cause when you get focused on something you forget everything and everyone around you, but you must remember the world is spinning on and she is living too. I know you love her but you don't see what you're doing."

"Addison, you have no right saying this all." He said but actually he knew it was completely true,

"You now it's true Derek"

"Can we just focus on this now?" He said looking away.

"Okay" Addison said just as annoyed as Meredith was a few minutes ago.

Meredith was sitting in the car, she was angry at Derek. He didn't seem to have time for her or Sara. She knew that Adrienne was important but Sara was important too, wasn't she. And herself. She pulled her car out of the drive way and drove to the hospital, she was already late anyway.

The hospital was quiet today, she even send her interns home because they were bored to hell and when the day was finally over she was glad that she could see Sara again. She hoped it went well with Emily.

She walked into the door and was greeted by laughter. Sara and Emily were sitting on the couch enjoying a movie. Sara saw Meredith.

"Mummy" She ran up to her and gave her a hug as Meredith picked her up.

"Did you have a good time?"

"Great" Emily answered. "She's a smart little girl you know."

"I know"

"We went to the park and watched dogs, I really want one but I know I can't have one because of the asthma but watching was fun too. And we ate pancakes."

"I'm glad you had a good time."

"Yeah"

"Do you want to watch the rest of the movie?" Meredith asked as she put her down.

"Yes, Emily are you watching again?"

"Of course"

Meredith walked to the kitchen and didn't saw any Derek, or Addison, or papers.

"Emily, where is Derek?" she yelled to her sister.

"I think he's still at the police station."

"I guess." Meredith said to herself. She poured herself a glass of water and took one of Izzie's cupcakes.

"Sara, I think it's time for bed, you need to go to school tomorrow."

"Okay, mummy" She walked to Meredith who just finished her cupcake and Meredith took her upstairs.

"No bath today?" Sara asked.

"No, it's way too late," She sighed "I'll have to remember you're only five." She said more to herself.

"Not only, already."

"But that's where it's all… Never mind"

Sara giggled. "Can I wear my princess pyjama's?"

"You mean the pink ones?"

"Yes"

Meredith put Sara in bed and went to bed herself. She was exhausted, again. She put her sweat pants and her Dartmouth shirt on and stepped in bed. Although she was very tired, she just couldn't sleep, she kept thinking about Derek and why he was keeping so much distance and if he did it on purpose. When she woke up that morning she found her bed empty, again. She heard Sara talking with Emily down stairs. She figured she should probably eat something and she walked down the stairs.

"Mummy!" Sara yelled, running to Meredith.

"Hey, honey"

"We already had breakfast but we left some eggs for you."

"Thanks"

"I'm going to shower" And she ran upstairs.

"Here Mere" Emily shoved the plait to Meredith. "You look exhausted. I can bring Sara to school for you"

"That would be nice, thanks."

"Yeah. Is something wrong?"

"No, nothing"

"You sure?"

"Yes, completely"

"Okay" She paused. "Where is Derek?"

"I have no idea."

Emily walked upstairs to help Sara get ready, Meredith figured Derek might have called and she turned on the answering machine. She was right, the first message was his.

Meredith, the meeting at the police station was very long.

So, I went to a hotel.

I see you tomorrow.

Bye

Meredith turned the answering machine off again and collapsed on the couch. She turned on the TV and watched it for a while until Sara came running down the stairs with her backpack.

"Bye mummy I'm going to school." She said as she walked towards Meredith to give her a kiss.

"Do you have everything with you?"

"Yes"

"Your inhaler?"

"Yes"

"Good, now, give me a kiss"

Sara gave Meredith a kiss on her cheek. "Bye"

"Have fun"

Emily walked down the stairs, to the front door.

"Bye Mere"

"Thanks for doing this, Emily"

"No thanks, it's what sisters do, right"

"Right"

"Bye"

"Bye" She walked out holding Sara's hand.

Meredith walked upstairs, took a shower and changed into some normal clothes. When she was done, she sat down on the couch again. It started raining. She listened to the sound of the rain falling on the windows. She listened to the sound of nature. She listened to the sound of Seattle. A single tear ran over her cheek. She lay down and looked at the ceiling. Derek entered the room.

"Mere?"

She turned her head and saw him standing in the doorway. "Hey"

"What's wrong?"

She whipped the tear from her cheek. "Nothing" she paused. "How did it go?"

"Good, Addison can probably bring her home. Probably tomorrow, we don't know for sure." He looked at the stairs. "I'm tired, I'll just take a nap."

She didn't answer.

"Mere, what's wrong?"

"As if you would care. I'm going to the hospital."

"But you only have to be in at four!"

"I'll see you tonight, Derek"

"Okay" He was too tired to chase her and he walked upstairs.

The rain fell down on Meredith. S he didn't even planned to go to the hospital so she just stepped in her car and just drove. Deep down she knew where she was going, but she didn't think about it. When she reached the harbour she stepped out of her car and walked to the ferry boats. She sat down on the deck, leaning against the rail. She was alone, nobody would go on a ferry boat when it was raining. It didn't go out on the water but she stayed on it. She was deep in her thoughts until she heard a voice.

"Mere? What's wrong?"

"Derek. Didn't think you would follow me"

"Well, I did."

"I see."

"And something it's wrong."

She didn't answer.

"Tell me Mere."

She still didn't answer.

"Come on Meredith, you'll have to tell me." He said more urgent.

"Okay, I know this thing with Adrienne is important but you completely forgot about me…and Sara. You never talked to me only when I talked to you, and I don't think you have said a word to Sara." She started sobbing.

"I'm so sorry Mere, I didn't notice I was doing that." He sighed. "I'm so sorry" He sat down next to her.

"It was like you were pushing us away."

"I'm so sorry, I didn't meant to do that."

"Yeah, but you did."

"I know and I'm so sorry." He sighed. "I'm going to make it up to you"

"You better" she stood up. "Emily is picking Sara up, I'll have to go to the hospital."

"Okay,"

"Bye"

"Bye"

She walked to her car and drove to the hospital her shift was 'till ten and she wasn't trilled about it, she didn't get to see Sara before she went to bed, again. The hospital was quiet again. She even got to go home at nine and she was grateful, she stepped in her car hoping Sara still was awake. But when she came home she saw her light was already out and the house was quiet too. She walked upstairs but she saw the light was on in the bathroom she walked towards it. As she stood in front of the door she saw a rose lying on the ground. She stepped into the bathroom and saw all sorts of candles the bath was full with leaves from roses in it. Suddenly she felt two hands around her waist she turned and looked into the smiling face of Derek.

"You did this… All for me?"

"Yes" He paused. "I was a complete asshole, and I'm so sorry"

"Yeah, you proved that here" She smiled.

"I know, and I think the bath is ready for you"

"For us."

"No, no I did this for you, so you can relax."

"I think I'm completely capable to relax, when you're around."

"You think?" He smiled.

"I know"

She took her clothes of and he followed. She stepped in the bath first and he sat down behind her. She put her head in his chest and closed her eyes.

"Now, this is relaxed."

"It is"

Suddenly her eyes opened and widened. "Where is Sara?"

"Calm, I already put her in bed, she's already a sleep."

"Good" She closed her eyes again and snuggled against Derek.

"Still mad?" He asked after a few minutes.

"You're hundred percent, completely forgiven."

"Sure?"

"Yes"

"I still have something for you," He grabbed behind him and put down a basket in front of her. "Full of lavender stuff."

"Ahh, cute, thanks"

After lying in the bath for about an hour, they both collapsed on Meredith's bed and snuggled against each other. It only took a few minutes before they were both fast a sleep.

The next morning, after they brought Sara to school, they were both sitting on the couch watching TV when the bell rang.

"I'll get it" Meredith said as she stood up. She opened the door and was greeted by Addison. "Hi Addison, come in."

Derek walked to the door.

"Oh, I actually was here to thank you guys, we can take Adrienne with us. The adoption is not for sure but we can take her back to New York." She paused. "Thanks, both of you"

"Oh you're welcome Addison" Meredith answered.

"And she was my kid to for all those years, so I owned her"

"Yeah, and you can always visit her."

"Yes, I will, come, someday"

"Okay, well I got to go, I have an airplane to catch."

"Okay, good luck, with everything."

"Thanks" she gave them both a kiss on the cheek and walked to her car.

"Bye" Meredith waved to her.

"Bye" she waved back.

Meredith closed the door.

VO: I always try to stop thinking about the past and focus on the future. I just don't think about the mistakes I made, I try to avoid making others.

"I'm glad that worked out well."

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