Peyton was laying face down on her bed. Her tears socked the pillows. Why did this happen to her? She would never wish cancer on anyone, but out of everyone, why her? The same question she'd always asked herself. What if she had treatment? Would it harm her baby? She couldn't do that. It would be a fate worse then death she told herself! What if she died? She lost her mom at an early age and then lost her real mom to cancer only six years ago. How would everyone cope? Jenny only a little girl had already lost her real mom, how would she handle losing her mother figure. Peyton remembered how the doctor told her she had many options. She could have chemotherapy, but that could harm her baby. As time went on she could have an operation, which the cancer could return, or she could die in theater. Either way, she felt like she was screwed. Her whole world was falling apart and all she could do was sit back and watch it happen. Peyton didn't want to die. So she made a '..I'm always here..' box filled with memories that her friends could enjoy if anything ever happened to her. She added photos of her friends, how they used to be, HAPPY! She put in one of her drawings which were a face with tears falling down, above saying I'm always here. Peyton got up, got paper and a pen and decided to write a 'wish list' so maybe one day they would come true.

My wish list
1) My friends to be happy again
2) Become Mrs. Jakeski
3) My baby to be okay

Peyton didn't know what else to write. So placed the paper into the box, shut it and put a label on it

Only open if...

She couldn't even write the word 'die' on the box, so how the hell would she cope if she became worse before she ever got better.

Brooke had arrived back in Tree Hill, the place she once called home. She knew Peyton would be in, so she went there. Before she knocked, she knew that Peyton never locked the door, so she opened it herself and it was unlocked. She walked upstairs and heard the sound of cries. She walked in Peyton's bedroom and saw her sitting there crying.

"P.Sawyer, what's up?" Brooke asked. She had a feeling that it might have something to do with Jake. Maybe he ran away again because Nikki came back into their life. She hugged her and kissed her forehead. Brooke had missed her best friend. Peyton didn't answer her. "Please, I have to know your ok" Peyton still didn't respond, she couldn't even look at Brooke. Brooke noticed a box on the floor the other side of Peyton's bed. She read what it said. She didn't say or do anything. Peyton lay on her bed and Brooke stayed with her until she fell asleep. When she woke up Peyton was fast asleep. Now was the chance Brooke had to see what was in that box. She had to be quiet incase Peyton woke up. She sat on the floor and opened the box. Inside where pictures of her and Peyton when they were younger. A few pictures of everyone, pictures of her mom and real mom. Her dad. One of her drawings and right at the bottom was a folded piece of paper. She opened it and saw Peyton's wish lit. What the hell? She hopes her baby will be okay. How come she didn't even tell her best friend she was pregnant? Peyton woke up and turned around. Her eyes widened as she saw Brooke looking at it.

"What the hell are you doing?" Peyton shouted to Brooke, who quickly stood up.

"What the hell am I doing? What about you? You don't even tell me when your pregnant. Your not telling me what's going on and I'm supposed to be your best friend"

"Sit down and I'll tell you" Brooke sat down on the bed and Peyton began to open up to Brooke, she hadn't opened up to anyone in ages. Not even Jake.

"Yes I'm pregnant" Peyton said, Brooke got all excited; her best friend was going to have a baby. Peyton grabbed her arm. "There's more.." Brooke didn't understand, what else could there be? Had Jake left her? If he had she would do something to make him regret ever hurting her best friend.

"Is it Jake?" Brooke asked.

"No, Brooke...it's umm...I" this was really hard for Peyton, she took Brooke's hand. "I..I have cancer" she told her, Brooke just stared and then broke down in tears. How could she loose her best friend? She couldn't, she wouldn't!

It had been a little over an hour since Peyton had told Brooke about the cancer. Brooke left and was walking around Tree Hill, directed to Lucas' house. Surely if he knew about the cancer then he would be round checking, caring for Peyton. That's the kind of guy he was, and that's what Brooke always loved about him. She walked up to the front door and Karen answered. She was really shocked.

"Brooke! Wow, it's good to see you" Karen said, hugging Brooke.

"Is Lucas there?"

"Yeah, his in his bedroom, go on through"

Brooke walked through the house and waited outside Lucas' bedroom. She couldn't believe it, she would see Lucas again, her Lucas. She knocked but there was no answer, she opened the door and walked in.

"Sup-" she could not believe what she had seen. Lucas was in bed with his new girlfriend Abi. Lucas looked up and was gob smacked.

"BROOKE!" he couldn't believe it. Abi looked up and she knew 'Brooke' was in fact the Brooke he used to talk about. She sat up with the covers over her.

"Yes, Brooke?" she said with hate.

"I just wanted to talk to Lucas, who are you?"

"Abi, I'm Lucas' girlfriend, a whole year now isn't it baby" she said kissing Lucas. Brooke still didn't believe what she was seeing. She ran out and sat on a bench outside. No wonder Lucas' never wrote back or phoned her in three years. He was too busy sleeping with cheap tarts like Abi.

The guy she loved, loved someone else and her best friend had cancer, something she could die from. Brooke could only sit back and watch it all happen.

A/N: Thanks for the reviews! I'm sorry I don't know how to spell Jake's last name, if you do can you please let me know, it will be useful in later chaps. Spoilers for next chapter

Jake finds Peyton's wish list. Brooke & Lucas get closer and Abi tells Lucas something that could destroy Brucas!