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Lying is the Most Fun a Girl Can Have

Chapter 3

"Hi James… Fancy seeing you here…" she said uneasily.

"Lily… I… umm…You… you look great." James said stammering over his words.

"Thank you… so do you." There was a very awkward silence after this.

"How have you been?" James asked, know that her answer would be along the lines of 'great! I love my job,' and 'Sirius and I are doing wonderful.' She surprised him when she said:

"Well, I look better than I am. I assume Sirius has told you about us?"

"Oh, yeah, umm, I heard about you guys. It sorta came as a shock to me… I can't believe that you guys got together. I have to admit that I felt bit betrayed to find out that you guys got together so soon after we broke—"

"Don't give me any of the crap James Stephen Potter. Don't even think for a moment that I would feel sorry for you. Not after what you did to me. You have no clue what true betrayal feels like until you have had your heart ripped out of you." Lily fumed.

"Your right." He replied quietly.

"What?"

"You are right. I don't have any clue what it feels like. The only thing I know is what disappointing and losing someone feels like. But I would like for you to tell me what true betrayal feels like."

"You really want to know." Lily said disbelievingly. James nodded in reply.

"Ok. I was hurt beyond belief. I though you and I would always be together. And that day I was looking for you to tell you some good news that, or so I thought, would change or lives for the better and draw us closer together. I heard you were in the Room of Requirements from a friend."

" When I saw you guys in there my heart broke. All my dreams were shattered. And I found my self at seventeen going to be a single mother. I was scarred and alone. I felt trapped. James I nearly jumped out of the astronomy tower, but thankfully Sirius was there. He comforted me and kept me from taking two lives."

"Wait you were pregnant? Did you have the baby? Is it a boy or girl?" James asked excitedly.

"Sigh yes I had the baby but that really doesn't matter right now. Sirius had to sleep next to me for weeks to keep me from doing something rash." Lily said sound upset.

"But you looked fine. Like nothing was wrong and like you had moved on…"

"It may have looked that way but on the inside I was dying. James, I though that you had changed. That you stopped cheating on girls when you went out with me. You said and promised me that it would never happen if we were together. James you promised, and like a fool I believed you. I thought what we had been special. Not only did I love you but I trusted you." Lily looked away; her eyes were glistening with tears.

"I trusted you so much that I gave myself to you, forgetting about my promise to remain a virgin until marriage. And then look what happened. Everyone warned me that after I gave in it would just be a little before you moved on. You said it wouldn't be that way and I trusted you. I thought it was all going well. We lasted two months after we did it. I can't believe that I bought into you ' I love you with all my heart.' And your ' I would be incomplete without you.' You said those things then threw them away for some bimbo who was looking for a good shag." Lily was silently letting the tears run down her cheeks.

" It hurt me more to know that I had blindly put my trust in you and you had broken it. I didn't know what to do with myself, heck sometimes I still don't know what to do with myself. I use to want to die but now I know I cant and never could. I have a little girl that I need to live for. And Sirius really cares about me. And for the first time in a long time I am happy." By this time Lily' nose had turned pink from her silent tears, and she finally looked him in the eyes again. She had a slight smile on her face, one that James had been dying to see for months.

James was at a loss for words. His mouth hung slightly open and his eyes were closed. His mind was a mush of emotion.

"What is her name?" James was finally able to ask.

"Huh? Oh, her name is Anniah Rose Evans-Potter."

James smiled, "She has my name…"

"Well yes but she will go by Evans when she is at school." Lily said flatly.

"Oh… Ok… Can I see her sometime, please?" James asked, looking her in the eyes, hopefully.

"Well I need to think about it…" she said as she pulled a piece of paper and a pen out of her purse. " Here is my number. Call me in a few days, just give me a day or so to think."

"Thanks Lily." He took the paper from her. "Hey… please don't keep my daughter away from me. I really want to be in her life. So please…"

"I'll consider it. Good night James. I'll talk to you later." She turned around and started to walk away. When she was a few yards away James called to her.

"Lily, I really truly am sorry and hope that one day you can forgive me…" Lily nodded and walked away.

"Lily, wait. Before you go I have to know."

"Yes?"

"Are you happy?"

"What?" Lily asked confusedly.

"Are you happy with Sirius?"

"Yes," she smiled reflectively, "Yes I am."

"Then… I am happy for you." That was the hardest thing James had said all night.

"Thanks… that's good to hear." She sighed and walked away for good now.

James slowly walked back to his car then whispered.

"I am happy… even though it will kill me to see you with him… I still wish you were mine…"

AN: hey guys sorry it took so long to update and this chapter being so short... school started up last week and i have had a ton of time to right. i am aiming for a chapter everyweek but it might be every other week... anyways i hope you enjoy... oh and do you think the should get back together of lily should stay with sirius? i havent decided so you let me know.