Sorry the Chapter Four took so long; the administrators wouldn't let me upload, so yeah. I thought I'd give you guys a little extra treat for being patient.

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Chapter Five

James watched Sirius run off into the distance, presumably after Moony. He hadn't gotten a chance to ask Sirius what exactly was wrong, and he was regretting it now. The curiosity was getting the best of him.

Just a few hours ago they had all been sitting together playing exploding snap. Then Moony left, so Sirius went to comfort him, then suddenly, Remus runs off and Sirius is running after him? What could have possibly happened? Maybe Sirius had offended Remus in some way, about his furry little problem. The time of the month was coming up, so maybe Sirius said some off-hand remark that had triggered an unexpected domino affect?

Well Damn it all. James thought to himself. Prongs, you're a genius!

He was ever so proud of himself for figuring out the puzzle by his lonesome, his self-esteem climbing higher still from successfully talking Lily into a study session and not getting slapped ONCE. His grin broadened and broadened. Since Sirius and Remus were presently occupied, there was only one person left to tell, Peter.

Peter had been awfully quiet lately. Always been there, but quieter and quieter as the days went along. James thought it must have been about a girl. He had been looking at Michelle McClellan an awful lot lately. Prongs decided to talk to Peter about that too.

He returned to the Gryffindor tower with his usual swagger. The girls looked expectantly up at him, but he did not return the favor. He was Lily's; he thought he had assured them of that last year.

Flashback

Prongs entered the common room and the girls began to swarm. He had become something of what people would call a 'ladies man' and he was enjoying every minute of it.

At least he had been, before he fell for Lily Evans.

He tried to shove some of the girls out of the way to see where the red-head had gone, but she was no-where in sight. Sighing, he brought the girls down to a dull roar, and told all of them that he had to talk to them.

The women obediently sat, looking eager and excited, oblivious to James' clearly glum state.

"Now ladies. I know all of you are doggone nutters over me, but you need to chill out. The bottom line is, I don't like any of you, in THAT way. Your constant… presence is hindering my chance of catching the girl I TRULY care for."

"Who might that be?" One of the many girls asked.

James' eyes glazed ever-so-slightly, "Lily, Marie, Evans." The girls guffawed in disgust.

"THAT bloody old bitch?"

"She's not even pretty!"

"I could be so much better for you James!" James scowled.

"No, you couldn't. She's not a bitch, she is the most wonderful creature to walk this earth. She is gorgeous and I will not have any more of this bashing of her! Now I want all of you to stop following me like a moth to the flame! The only person I EVER want to be with is LILY do you all understand me? LI-LY E-VANS" He spoke in syllables.

End flashback

Ever since that day, the women were always waiting for James to give up on Lily, but he never did. He plopped loudly on the chair next to Peter, who didn't even acknowledge James' presence.

" 'Lo Pete."

" 'Lo"

"Do you have any idea why Sirius and Remus are running around after each other like chickens with their heads cut off?"

"Cause they're in love."

"Oh really? Cause I thought-wait….WHAT?"

"They're in LOVE"

"Sorry Pete, one more time?"

"Sirius and Remus are in LOVE"

"Whew, must have dozed off. What were you saying?"

"I'm not saying it again James." James sighed.

"Did they tell you? Or did you just put the puzzle together?"

"I put it together. All the pieces seemed to fit. Except one. I'm not sure they're BOTH in love, but I know at least ONE of them loves the other…"

"How do you figure that Pete?"

"Haven't you noticed James? They're always stealing glances at each other. They touch unnecessarily. The only thing I can figure about tonight is that one revealed their feelings, and the other said something wrong, or did something wrong, or something went wrong, so Remus went running."

Suddenly, thousands of memories passed through James' mind faster than he could comprehend them.

Sirius getting Remus a present for Valentine's Day

Remus, blushing at something Sirius had said

Sirius suggesting we become animagi for Remus

Remus' eyes going blank when Sirius' name was mentioned

Sirius, with his head in Remus' lap on the way to Hogwarts.

James' eyes widened.

SHIT

Peter could only watch in amusement as James ran up the dormitory steps screaming loudly. His arms waving wildly, and his feet kicking random objects. The only understandable part of what he was screaming was him repeating the words…

"HOLY SHIT! MY TWO BEST FRIENDS ARE GAY!"

Sirius kicked a bird dropping and walked out of the astronomy tower. If he couldn't find Remus, he might as well think about what he would say when he FOUND Remus.

He still wasn't quite that sure about how he felt. Dippy seemed to think that he was in love with Remus, but admitting you're gay isn't something you decide every day. This was going to take some thinking.

Did he like women as well? Or were the past four years a sham? Was he going to throw every caution to the wind and come out? So many questions, so little answers.

Suddenly, he heard a scuffle behind him. Without thinking, he silently slid behind a statue and waited for the trespasser to walk by, until he saw who the trespasser was.

Remus was walking towards the wall. His crying apparently through. Sirius was working up the courage, and was about to come out of hiding when Remus spoke.

"God? I don't know if you remember me…Remus Lupin? I stopped talking to you after I got my bite, but, I really need your guidance…"

Sirius was stunned, he had no idea that Remus was religious at all. Shamefully, he kept listening, knowing he would have to apologize for eavesdropping later.

"Is being gay a sin? Will I be banished to hell for what I am? Though I probably won't be welcomed to heaven with welcome arms being a werewolf anyway, I just want to know because…There's this guy. I think I love him, I hope he loves me, but I really, truly don't know. I'm scared, and at this point, I feel completely and utterly alone.

Remus kept talking, spilling his heart to an invisible stranger. Sirius never really understood the concept of religion, why talk to someone who can't talk back? He made mental note to ask Remus later. He seemed to really believe in this stuff, because he just kept talking and talking, even though he had no response. All this GOD stuff was never anything Sirius could wrap his mind around. Sirius came back to rapt attention as Remus wrapped up his one-ended conversation.

"Anyways, thanks for listening God, Amen." Remus stood up to leave, and suddenly, Sirius knew what he had to do.

"Remus." He said. Remus whirled around.

"Sirius!" He was shocked. "How did you find me? How much did you hear?"

"It doesn't matter." He answered both questions at once. And in a split second that seemed like an eternity, closed the distance between them, and kissed Remus gently.

Lily was sitting in her dormitory when she heard a scuffle at the door, her dorm-mates liked to hold conversations out there where Lily couldn't hear them, even though she could.

Lily wasn't a very liked person. She was fiery, opinionated, smart, and well, a down-right bitch to people sometimes. She didn't care. It's better to be hated for you are than liked for who you're not. The only real friend she had was her owl, Nightshade, who was at her bedside table, gnawing at an owl treat Lily had just handed him.

One of her dorm-mates was talking outside the door to another person.

"I can't believe James likes her. What does she have that I don't?"

How about some BRAINS? Lily thought to herself and chuckled.

"God, I just wish she would be grateful for what she's GOT. I mean if she can snag Potter I don't know why she's complaining! I mean, what else does she have for her? Looks?" Both people burst into laughter.

Lily winced. She was confident in herself anyway, but that hurt.

"I think James should put his time into someone more worthwhile. He's never going to get her. She wouldn't let him, she's so picky about absolutely every detail the only person that can stand to be with her is herself!"

Lily pretended not to hear and kept working on her History of Magic Essay, but her ears disobeyed and kept listening.

"I wouldn't be surprised if Potter is doing all this for a bet." More laughter from the nameless people. "But he's wasting his time, and his money." The two girls walked away, and the only thing Lily could hear was a distant muttering.

She was NOT going to cry. Who cared about those stupid bitches anyway? They've got snot for brains and they'll never get anywhere in life because they're STUPID and they don't know what they're talking about.

Lily folded her books and laid them on the floor by her bed. She gave Nightshade one last pet before crying herself to sleep.

Yes, I know, very, very depressing. But I always try to keep the scale balanced. Some happiness and sadness in every chapter.

Next chapter, next week, will include, the study date, a discussion of religion, an insight into Pete's life.

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