Chapter 4
Miranda's POV
I just kept on smiling at Gordo until he started to explain. He just kept on look at me like he was embarrassed to tell me what he's feeling. Sometimes I think Gordo is just like other guys, they think their too macho to share their feeling but other times Gordo is the best person to talk to, for me at least. He took a deep breath and started to explain, "Randa…" I love it when he calls me Randa… he's the only one who calls me that, it's like his special name for me. "…you know how I feel about Lizzie right?" Goodness gracious…of course it was about Lizzie, when wasn't it about her. I nodded because how can you not know how he feels about her. "Well, in middle school it was just a crush but once we got into high school things started to change." I really didn't want to hear about this right now. I turn to look at the clock, its 4:32 already. I look back at Gordo, right when he turned to look at me; he sees my expression and suddenly gets interested in his hands. "Everyday I see Lizzie flirting and dating all these guys, who doesn't give a crap who she is and only goes with her to get laid…and hopefully failed." Oh, virgin
Lizzie having sex! Goodness No! I reassured Gordo by telling him she didn't. "Good"
I guess Gordo just blacked out because he was just staring at me, not saying anything and not thinking anything. "And…" He snapped back into reality and continued talking. "Oh, and I just got upset with that and didn't want to live like that anymore" I tried to process what he had just said. I never heard or seen Gordo get jealous, he just seemed like the 'whatever' kind of guy. "You mean you didn't want to live being jealous all the time" He took that in and replied, "Yup." I hate it when he talks about Lizzie…I guess I get jealous. "That's it?" He nodded, "Pretty much." I wish he would talk about me the way he talks about Lizzie. I tried to lighten the mood, "Well then tell me about now…the good part." I smiled and he laughed, "Yeah, the good part."
I sat there look at him…waiting for the good part. It was probably about Lizzie, it's always about Lizzie. Then he finally says, "Randa, once I got to your house, I felt better. I forgot all about Lizzie and could only think of you." What! What does that suppose to mean…he could only think of me. Is he joking? If he is this is a cruel joke. "Wh-Wh-Wha-What do you mean?" I honestly didn't know what he meant, he went from "Oh I miss Lizzie, why does Lizzie notice me" to "I can't stop thinking of you Randa" I just look at him waiting for a response "Randa, I love you." I didn't know what to do. I know I should say it back because that how I feel but I can't bring myself to say it. The only question in my mind now is… "What about Lizzie?"