Last chapter! So fast… I kinda like this story…

Disclaimer: No own –sound of tape rewinding- No own (and on and on and on and on…) –sound of tape rewinding- No own (and on and on and on and on…)

Chapter 6: Pulling the Trigger

I was devastated.

I went in hibernation for a whole month. Of course I still watched him from my window.

It all made sense now. Why didn't I think of it? Look at him.

He's got a flat chest. Like, duh. And the way he walks. There's something manly in there too. He doesn't just sashay. And if I look carefully at his face, he looks more like a guy than a girl. Although… His voice still kinda sound like a girl's.

And, guess what?

I love him.

Him. I love him.

There really is something wrong with me. Blinded by love… Am I?

Someone knocked on the door. I hesitated first, and then said, "Come in." I moved away from the window and sat down with my back to it.

Dad came in, looking worried. I frowned. Him of all people. Well, who was I expecting, anyway? "Are you okay now?" He went to me and put a hand on my forehead.

They found me at the stairs on the fifth floor of the castle last month, shivering like crazy. I came down with a bad flu at that time, and then went on and off it every week.

Dad smiled. "The fever's down."

I brushed the hand off me. "I'll be better if I go out and see hi…" "Her." Thank God I didn't say him. Dad doesn't know. I don't want him to know, anyway.

Dad sat next to me. "But it's winter. It's cold outside. You'll get the flu again."

I stood up and faced him. "I want to see her. Tomorrow morning. I'm going even if you're objecting."

He opened his mouth to object, but then closed it again. "I'm going too. If you get sick again, I won't forgive myself." He stood up and went out, quietly closing the door behind him.

When did I become stubborn? Dad's a bit angry now, and I'm angry at myself for that. I threw a pillow across the room.

All through the day and that night I thought of what to say to him. I know why he took off his shirt that time.

So that to make me know that 'she' is actually a he, and to stop bothering and lusting after him.

Lusting after him…

That fantasy world is slowly building. Sometimes I blushed at those thoughts.

What will I say to him?

That stupid question buzzed in my head until I fell asleep.

"Let's go." I stood up and looked at Dad. He smiled at me. "Or we'll be late."

I walked to him, and then bowed. "I'm sorry, Dad. I'm just… selfish. I…"

Dad placed a hand on my cheek and made me stand up straight. "It's alright. I don't have any meetings to go or anything. I want to walk around with my son." He smiled at me, making me feel even guiltier.

I smiled back, and we walked next to each other, exiting the castle grounds, surrounded by Dad's best guards. About three dozen of them. Yeah. The ones that were with me before were my guards. Dad's guards are better. And bigger. If you just look up to them, it will feel like they're about to fall on you and squish you.

Haha… I feel better already.

I stopped when I saw the two of them. Dad just walked to them, and they were like, "Good morning, Your Highness!" Why are people nervous around my Dad?

"Ah… Yuki and… Tohru… My son was talking quite a lot about you. So, would you please walk with him today? He would really love it after a month of being ill indoors."

I was gaping, but quickly closed my mouth and walked to Dad. I kissed Tohru's hand. I hesitated when I saw Yuki. Dad doesn't know, so I have to do this.

I was looking in his eyes when I kissed his hand. I smiled, and saw hatred burning in his eyes. "M'ladies." Yuki walked to my right and Tohru to the left. Dad is right in front of me.

We had to stop where Dad is stopping. We didn't talk at all, and it was getting to me. I looked at him, and saw he was looking the other way, not wanting to look at me.

"I… I still love you, you know." Dad stopped for a split second, smiled and then walked again. Yuki still didn't want to turn to me.

"I know you want me to leave you alone, but I love you too much." I heard him gulped, but he still didn't turn to me.

I brought my hands to his shoulders and forced him to turn to me. "I don't care if you're a guy, okay, Yuki? I still love you!"

Out of the corner of my eyes, I saw Dad turn around. Damn. I said that too loudly. And now he's gonna have his gay son's hide for this.

"A guy in love with another guy. What's wrong with that?" I was shouting now, and holding on to both of Yuki's shoulder. He looked shocked. I leaned in to him, touching my forehead with his, tears running down my face. "I love you, Yuki. I don't care if you're a guy. I love you. I always have, and it won't change even after last month."

I could feel Dad's anger quickly burning up, and Yuki's face turning warm. I touched my lips to his, but didn't want to kiss him.

Dad is charging towards me now. And, without even myself knowing, I aimed for the inside of his shirt belt. In a split second, I am holding on to the kingdom's most powerful hand gun. Dad's gun.

I stared at it in disbelief. How'd this get in my hand? I looked around. Everyone is staring at me. The guards don't know what to do. They can't aim their guns at the Prince, but he's holding on to the second most powerful gun in the world.

I looked at Dad. He looks even more shocked than everyone. His second favourite gun is in his only son's hand. But what made him mad at this second is knowing that his one and only son is gay. A prince can't be gay. They would be disowned by their father. The World Royalty would force him to, and they have power. Even more than you can imagine.

Dad charged at the gun this time, wanting to take it off my hands. I raised it up to him, and instantly the guards' guns were raised to my head.

"Put those guns down!" Dad bellowed, and the guards practically threw them away. Dad turned to me. "Kyo, give me the gun." He extended his hands, and I backed away from him, the gun still aimed at his eye.

I felt Yuki trying to escape from beside me. "Yuki, you move and you know what will happen." Dad knows I know how to use this gun. He taught me four years ago.

I could feel Yuki's fear clearly. I could feel everybody's fear. "What… What are you trying to do, Kyo?" I turned to him, but then quickly turned back to Dad. That's the third time I heard him say my name. And now I want him more and more.

I started crying, still looking at Dad, the gun still aimed. "You… You rejected me! And then… And then you purposely took off your shirt in front of me! Why couldn't you just tell me?"

"I tried!" he shouted, not moving from his spot. "You wanted that night to confess to me, and so I let you."

"That first time you wanted to tell me, right? Then why didn't you just tell me? It took me a lot of my courage to write that letter, and a lot more to confess. I would leave you alone if you had just told me!"

Dad extended his hand further. "Kyo, please…"

"My life doesn't have any meaning anymore!" I screamed at both Yuki and Dad.

"I love you, Dad," I said to Dad, and then turned to Yuki. "I love you, Yuki."

I saw Dad running to me, but… Too late. I heard Dad and Yuki screamed, "No!"

I put the head of the gun in my mouth and pulled the trigger.

-

-

I looked down and saw a fiery haired teen lying face down in a pool of blood. I entangled my fingers in my hair.

I strained my eyes and saw that there was a huge hole at the back of his neck.

I brought my hand to the back of my neck, and grinned.

I saw Dad cradling my body in his arms, crying, and Yuki was crying next to him.

"See you soon, Dad," I said. I turned to Yuki and frowned. "I'm going to haunt you for the rest of your life." I floated down in front of his face. "You're going to regret it for not loving me back!" I shouted in his face.

I saw other people there, all of them crying. I snorted, and then flew off somewhere.

-

His death doesn't have anything to do with anything. I think. I'm kinda confused.

That's the first and only time that I'm gonna kill my husband!

Kyahkyah… I'm just writing.

Six chapters in two days. Five chapters in less than fifteen hours.