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A/N: I want to say a big thank-you to allthesame, Jellicos, freaky-Minnie, Midnight-Silk, who read and reviewed you guys are wonderful.

This chapter is about the last night Minerva and Hermoine have together as professor and student, as well as a little of their plans for the future. It is by far not the last chapter. MA

As always this story is dedicated to my one and only, My Bella. I love you my darling with all my heart. xxx

Wanting what I should not want

By Morgana-Alex

Chapter 4

The graduation ball had come and gone, the students had enjoyed themselves immensely that night, while I had sat in the corner observing from the side lines as my love played her part in the celebrations.

That night I realised that I would lose Hermoine, maybe not completely and maybe not forever, yet I knew right there and then that things would never be the same between us again.

As the ball came to a close and the head boy and girl undertook their last duties in those rolls, I left the great hall and retired to my chambers, the other professors could handle getting the students back to their common rooms and dormitories.

I needed a drink as the door closed behind me and doubt crept in to my mind, in truth I had dreaded this day since I had laid eyes upon Hermoine Granger, at first I had dreaded that a wonderful intelligent student would be killed in a battle that was not hers to fight, and then I worried that I would lose someone who meant more to me that my own life.

Fire whiskey would help my nerves and stop me dwelling on things I could not change; I had just poured my third glass when my portrait opened to reveal the vision that is Hermoine Granger.

"I knew you'd be here, however I did not expect you to be getting drunk while waiting for me." Her tone while not unkind held the slightest malice or maybe it was just disappointment, was it in that moment that she realised just whom she had tied herself to?

"This is my third glass my dear and as you well know it would take a lot more than that to get me even tipsy, so we will drop that subject if you don't mind." Both of us were frightened of what the morning would bring and I realise now that that was why the air was crackling with barely concealed hostility that night.

"Of course, but I don't want you drinking because of me Minerva, I never want to give you cause to drink to forget or dull pain." Her voice softened as she walked up to me and placed her arms about my waist.

"Now what do you say about making my last night as your student a night to remember?" Her smile wicked in the way only she could manage, her hands already playing with the zip of my dress, I melted of course.

"I think that could be arranged Miss Granger, now what would you like to learn tonight?" My tone and my manner was playful I wanted to be as close to her as was possible, just in case this was the last time I held her in my arms.

"I think tonight is for the student to show the teacher just how much she has learned under her tutelage." My lover took my hands and led me to the bedroom.

I awoke a few hours before dawn to find myself the only occupant of my bed, the pillow beside me was cold, it was obvious that Hermoine had not slept as I had. Tears began to rise in my eyes as I turned over to face the window and discovered that my lover had not left me alone, just that she had been sitting watching the night from the window ledge.

"Hermoine?" I called as my tears retreated.

"Oh Minerva I didn't mean to wake you." She stood then and walked back to the bed I lifted the covers and drew her to me as she lay back down beside me.

"Couldn't you sleep my dear?" I asked

"No, for some reason the fact that I must leave Hogwarts tomorrow is playing on my mind. I do not want to leave you my Minerva." Tears had stained her cheeks and I wish I had woken earlier to comfort her.

"We knew this day would come my love and while I do not want to see you go, I cannot except you to stay here just because of me. You need to follow your path, experience life away from the confines of this school." My tears reappeared.

"But Minerva I shall be so far away from you, I would only be able to visit you at the weekends when I could apparat up to Hogsmead." I held her face to my chest then, I didn't want her to see my expression, how could I let her do that? Let her give up a normal life for me – her aging professor.

"Hermoine would you really do that for me? Every weekend travel hundreds of miles for a few hours when your study will take up most of your time. I remember what university was like my dear; I never had time for anything but study." It was her turn to cry then, her turn to realise that I was not trying to push her away but to let her know that I knew what could happen to us when she left Hogwarts.

"We have to try Minerva, I don't want to leave you and at the same time I want to continue my education." I looked in to my fair maidens eyes and said.

"The we will try my dear, we will give it our best shot with no regrets and you will not be the only one to travel at weekends; and on the holidays I shall take you to my manor, my home I cannot wait to show you the house in the winter with the snow and a roaring log fire." We both stopped any thoughts of further tears then and held each other close, we made love once more and just before the sun came up my love left my chambers so she could be found in her own bed.

End Chapter

A/N: Thank-you for reading, if you have the time please spare a minute to leave a review, I beg you. The next chapter will contain a little more sorrow for the couple but it will not last, I can't say anymore without giving everything away. See you soon Lots of Love Morgana-Alex