Part 6
Summary: Regret, anger… What's going on to Sammy's mind?
Warning: Angst – yes, violence – a little.
Disclaimer: I don't own them, though I do want to kidnap Dean to my own pet. Can I?
Beta: Blame it on me.
Sam POV
I can't stand his look as he stared at me after I hit him. Am I really bad brother after hitting the one that protected me all this years? He even puts his life, letting the danger took him, he sacrifice himself to save me, and now what I did, I hit him, and wanted him to leave me alone, what brother I am?
I move away from him, feeling bad for what I did. The pain in my heart was a great deal, as now I could not stare him from a shame for what I did.
I turn around and leave the bar, I couldn't stand to see him, I walk away over the apartment me and Jess share.
God, I knew that I need to think what I am going to do next, incase that he would continued followed me, but I still wonder what I would do.
I walk back and forth, by that I know that I might make Jess crazy.
"Sam? What's wrong?" Jess asked as she looked at me.
I stop walking and simply stare at her. Could I tell her what's bother me?
How could I tell her that I hit my own brother? Would she understand me? Understand my reasons?
No… I feel that I couldn't, first I know that I need to push my anger away from me, I can't live like this, and now Dean seemed to do a good work as he pissed me up, nudging me from my normal life.
Why should I care about father and him in the first place?
TBC…