A/N: Okay, how evil am I? I just got a review, demanding me to update, LOL! And I have been meaning to, so here it is, after a very long while.

And although I have said this numerous times, I will updating frequently! Now that I am able to, due to some personal shit, I was unable to be anywhere near my comp.

Thank you to everyone who has stuck by this story and been so patient!

Enjoy!

Chapter 17

After a day of restless tossing and turning, and drowned in different drugs. Jay thought bitterly like that would have made a difference.

Even in sleep, his thoughts ran frequently to Emma.

Upon waking, Jay was informed that the killer, left thinking he had gotten Emma and Jay.

They found that Jay had passed out from the blood loss and shock upon seeing Emma stabbed.

Emma lay in the ICU area next to him. Yelling that he had to have her there in one fit to scream.

Emma's parents arrived that morning while Jay was still asleep. Fitfully tossing under the sheets only calming when Spike laid her hand over his brow to calm him. When he lay still, Snake and Spike ventured to the door next to Jay's and requested that Emma be moved to be with Jay. Repeating to the doctors that Emma would wake faster having Jay near.

That night after having her moved in, Jay was allowed to get up from his bed only to pass to the far side of the room to sit next to Emma.

Yes, he had been stabbed numerous times, and in various organs, but Emma was impaled in the chest missing her heart half an inch left to the side.

That thought coupled with her unconscious state caused Jay to instinctively rock.

IN his chair next to her, he leaned in and grabbed her hand in his and held on tightly. Unable to bare the thought of ever letting her go again.

He sat close and reached to his lap to pull out his mp3 player that Spike had brought with the rest of his personal belongings. Pulling up the speakers for his ears and settling back with his eyes closed and Emma's hand still in his.

What would you think of me now,
so lucky, so strong, so proud?
I never said thank you for that,
now I'll never have a chance.May angels lead you in.
Hear you me my friends.
On sleepless roads the sleepless go.
May angels lead you in.

Jay chanced to open his eyes to see her, staring at her chest to watch her breathing. Letting a smile grace his face, as for the first time, since they had been together - and before that if he was honest with himself - he was looking at her chest and not for some sexual reason.

Then he smirked, this situation, not stopping him from thinking, the minute they got home, he was not letting her from their bed for a few days.

She would have called him dirty if she could read his thoughts, which would not be hard if she could see his face.

With the smile on his face still, he squeezed her fingers in his and closed his eyes again.

Absorbing the music.

And if you were with me tonight,
I'd sing to you just one more time.
A song for a heart so big,
god wouldn't let it live.
May angels lead you in.
Hear you me my friends.
On sleepless roads the sleepless go.
May angels lead you in.

Jay thought of the significance of this song for the first time since he hit play. Frowning and inside praying that he could see her smile again. That no matter, what he had done in his life, all he wanted was happiness, and it scared him that that could be taken away from him so fast, so hard that Jay almost found it impossible to breathe. He opened his eyes gazing at Emma, listening to the rest of the song. Hearing the words for the first time.

May angels lead you in.
Hear you me my friends.
On sleepless roads the sleepless go.
May angels lead you in.
May angels lead you in.

The song having ended, Jay found himself doing something Emma did countless times to make his eyes roll, he pressed repeat.

Jay, looked at Emma, leaning forward, raising their joined hands to the sheet top to rest there. Coming forward to press his lips to locked fingers and leaving his mouth to linger there.

Kissing each fingertip, Jay missed the flutter in her lids.

Signaling that Emma was now coming through, Jay kept with his ministrations, wanting to be as close as her could.

Jay closed his eyes as he leaned more into the mattress, listening to apart of the chorus play again, making Jay feel like he could choke. Throat raw and rough from te hard swallowing of tears unshed.

What would you think of me now,
so lucky, so strong, so proud?
I never said thank you for that,
now I'll never have a chance.

Jay continued to listen to the song, caressing his cheek across their fingers. Sucking his bottom lip between his teeth to keep the burst of emotion from surfacing.

Emma, felt more than heard struggling to keep together, when she felt the first warm wet drop slide between their fingers, she opened her eyes and stared down at the back of Jay's lowered head.

She licked her lips to ease the dry crack it felt, and grimaced as she felt them break at the surface, second to trace her lips again, tasting the coppery tang of her own blood.

She licked again, testing her throat without making a sound.

And that was when Jay heard it.

His name.

Emma realized her voice was gone when Jay came out in a whispered rasp.

Jays head shot up and at the same time his body. Causing him to stumble from the shock that went through his side and lanced down to bruise and gash he bore.

Jay landed roughly in the chair again, grabbing for Emma's hand, pulling it between both hands.

Emma then noticed he had one side of his headphones in and smiled, thinking that during any time, Jay will have music to lean back into.

She reached over and pressed the button next to her. Wanting to inform what she knew were her awaiting parents.

Listening in the background for the nurses as she rubbed Jays bowed head as he sobbed with relief.

A/N: Incase you want to know, that was Jimmy Eat World's Hear You Me! Which I don't like them, but heard the song on accident and loved it!

So sorry for how long I have taken to update, that was badly done of me.

Well I hope you liked this chapter!

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