-R-

Shit. That's the best way to describe what he is feeling right now.

-C-

Ryan doesn't look at her the days after that. Only answers, if he really has to and they are very short. She is sorry. She feels terrible, but what should she do? Talk?

But how? And this is definitely wrong place for that.
Wait and see then, how it would develop itself. Maybe it would calm down. But maybe it wouldn't, a voice in her head whispers. She doesn't wanna lose Ryan. Not now. Never. She were closer now then ever, and she had felt really good and Ryan too, and then this little visit from Marc and this little lie would destroy that all?

With the next opportunity, she decides to talk to him. Alone.

Marc comes in, reaches out and pulls her against him. He doesn't smell like smoke anymore, but to Hugo Boss perfume. His beard is still there, but this time it doesn't look so unattended as earlier. This time he seems to belong. Though his stupid haircut is still there. He himself probably thinks he's irresistible. Or he thinks that she finds him irresistible. Like always. Fact is, that she's hates him. And the stupid haircut.

"Hello my cottontail."

Cottontail, how childish! She raises and eyebrow as he takes her hand, brings it to his mouth and kisses it.

"Are we going, milady?"

As answer, she just nods quickly. She doesn't feel good. He had something planned. But what?

They leave the building, stand directly in front of it. It dawns already, but this time there is no sunset. No chirping crickets and no rushing wind.

Marc was holding her arm, to keep her up. He looked deep into her eyes and takes her hand in his. Next to him she looked tiny and delicate, like an elf being compared to a bear.

"I love you." He said, without warning. She is frozen, feels how she cramps, when he pulls her towards him. She tries to break out of his grip, hit him, but his grip is too strong. She doesn't succeed.

A second later he presses his lips against hers. His beard stings her, his breath smells like an astray. Her heart beats in her throat, the blood rushes in her ears and she can only think one thing: GO!

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