Now
she's seeing it, too. Before, all of her cosmetics and nurture
utensils were standing disarranged on the shelving, some even on the
side of the sink; but now everything is nearly awfully sorted –
after colours!
"Ryan, you wretch! You destroyed my neatly
arranged chaos!", she yells at him feigned aghast, and he first
looks at her as if he has a bad conscience. But after all he realizes
her grin.
„I'm sorry, but there was this hairbrush lying
and…well, she didn't belong there and so I stowed her away. But
once I started, somehow I can't stop it!" He has to laugh as well
– at himself.
Perplexed she shakes her head. "Get out of here.
I have to bring back order into this „chaos". Oh, by the way: how
is your nose doing?"
Painfully Ryan screws his eyes: "She
aches hellishly, but not as much as a while ago." Then he gets
ready to leave the room. Calleigh presses herself at the doorframe to
allow him to pass. He tries to squashes himself by her, he is very
close. So close that their both bodies nearly touched all over. She
feels his warmth, his heartbeat. He smells good, so good! She doesn't
know this smell, it's somehow flowery.
Her head begins to swim.
Well, not exactly, but it feels like that. Butterflies are fluttering
in her body – they seem to spread out from the points where Ryan
touched her and now it prickles in her whole body, even in the toes
and the finger tips. Her knees become shaky and if she doesn't pegs
to the doorframe she might just topples down.
Wow she thinks,
unable to articulate it. Ryans face is directly in front of hers. His
eyes studying her intently, expectant, confused, a bit
fearful…
Closer and closer – she barely realizes how his
handsome face approaches hers steadily, until his two brown sparkling
eyes seem to become blurred to one. She can feel his fresh breath on
her lips, their both points of the nose shaves each
other…
„Ouuuuchh!"
Ryan flinches back, his face
contorted with pain, stumbles his back of the head against the
doorframe and groans again immediately.
„Gosh darn it!" He
squeezes past her totally, holding his aching nose.
Calleigh
ignores her beating heart, her shaky knees and that what just nearly
happened. Anyhow: she tries it. She follows Ryan out and strokes his
arm carefully.
„Are you alright? " She recognizes some tears
of pain in his corner of the eyes, but he nods: „Tomorrow I'll
see a doctor, I swear! "
--
Afterwards he had left
she lies in her bed and couldn't find any sleep. She thinks about
the day, about everything that happened today - and what almost has
happened.
Perhaps it has already happened during their walk when
their hands touched for a short time. Or perhaps it was his glance
after it. How he eyed her up and looked at her. Well, it doesn't
matter, when it had happened, it just happened. She never had thought
it could get this far. Never…or?
Well, perhaps she felt it and
just didn't acknowledge it to herself, even when she figured it out
she denied her feelings.
Nearly they had…but only nearly! And
only because of the nose. Stupid nose! No, stupid Marc who broke
Ryans cute lug – or at least slightly broken her…
Stupid
Calleigh, who went this far with Marc.
So everything is her own
fault, her fault that it didn't happen! Anger rises in her, like
hot boiling water – she had been so damn stupid! Why did she have
to run after this nuff and freaky Marc, while the answer was lying
directly in front of her!
About two hours before she finally drove
Ryan to his car. Again they both didn't say a word during the whole
ride. Nobody had the courage to touch upon that nearly happened
affair. What doesn't mean that they feel nasty because of it –
well, anyhow from Calleigh's side; but she just couldn't take
courage – perhaps she feared Ryan's reaction, though she now asks
herself: why? With hindsight she can't tell which reaction she
might have feared. Perhaps she only waited for him to say something,
and probably he waited for the same inversely. But on the other hand:
what could you say about that subject? "Sorry, but tomorrow
we'll get it!" ? Scarcely. Actually you can't say anything
about it.
„See you tomorrow.", he had whispered to her before
he closed the door of her car and his shadow was swallowed up by the
darkness.
Tomorrow - it's time to dare a step forward. Now that
she finally knows about her feelings and also knows that she can't
avoid them, she just will ask him…
