Title:The Longing
Author: Me silly!
Chapter:One
Rating: K(possible K+)
Summary:

The story of Lily Evan's has been told many times and all of them have the same theme. The same plot line over and over again. Why can't they just deal with the fact that maybe for a while Lily and James were friends, that Sirius wasn't a complete tease and James might have not 'loved Lily' but had a measly crush on her? Why do these thoughts never cross anyone's minds? Are there any real hints in the books to show my reasoning unreasonable? I don't think so. So here is my version, and what is most probably the truth.

ChapterFour.FirstYearThatFirstKiss

In a situation you have to think about the positives and negatives. Correction, you should. When you think you want do something, in a situation, when making a change you should think. There are plenty of people who don't bother to thinking about could happen but instead they think they are doing the absolute right thing. The thing is when your young and you make a mistake; it usually affects other people like your family and/or friends. Bringing the negatives unto them as well as yourself. Great friends, right? Well it happens and when you become involved what can you do? You can suck it up and deal with it. Most people choose to run away, though. Betray your friend that needs you. Hell yeah. That may not be the right choice, but believe it or not it is the smart choice. When people close to you are dealing with drama just follow one specific rule.

Do. Not. Get. Involved.

Shut up and stay away. They will, hopefully, understand. Its just what kind of drama may you be dealing with? When a friend is mad at another, family troubles and of course the ever-popular boy/girl troubles. There are different types of boy/girl drama. There is when you like someone but they don't like you back, someone likes you even though you don't feel the same way or when your friend is dating someone you like. A rare case is classified as the 'Sirius girl drama'. It's just when you spend too much time with a certain girl and they wont leave you alone. Why do they have to be so clingy? If someone breaks up with you its not the worst thing in the world! And what's with the 'I love you' stuff. At eleven you don't really think like that. Most girls, no matter how cute, have no real common sense. They enjoy living in their own little world where everything is all pretty and pink and fluffy.

Well for this he needed somebody smart. Someone trustworthy. Someone willing. Someone who could think fast. Someone who couldn't say no. Someone who didn't know the 'how to stay out' rule. He could only think of one person, but oh how perfect of a person she was. The one. The only. The sweet, the cunning, the innocent.

Lily Evans.

It had been the last day of Hogwarts and she had been all mopey at the Great Hall. Yeah saying good-bye sad, sad, cry, cry, tear, and tear. Whatever. Well, after getting creamed in an eating contest, it was James, Sirius, Peter and Eva (who had been the winner. This girl could eat), Sirius decided to change the subject and suggested that they sit together at the train home. Just at that moment his most recent girlfriend decided to come and join them.

Her name was Clara Ann Letimka and she was a third year Gryffindor who wouldn't back off. Yeah sure, she had good looks. Golden hair with highlights, fake of course but the girl tried to make people believe they were real, and those hazel eyes that 'glistened like the stars'. It was always the same old thing. No originality in these girls anymore. Only this one had a thing with following him around and spending ever second with him. Sirius had planned on dumping her last week, but when he tried she laughed and took it as a joke.

Anyway, she came over and had insisted they sit together and talk about their relationship when they both graduate Hogwarts. Well as he heard snickers in the background Sirius couldn't help thinking about whacking her across the head with some sort of rotten meat. Smack her back into her senses. This is Sirius Black! He was a Black; he made no commitments! Nothing like that! The Gryffindor couldn't, and didn't want to, have a girlfriend for over two weeks. Homework? Hah! Quiditch? He had gotten kicked off for missing practices. Classes? He had gotten an infinite number of detentions for being late to class. Sirius black had built a reputation of being a 'bad influence' in only a month. Having one girlfriend for his seven years in this dump hole, hah.

No he didn't think this place was a dump hole. In truth, it was his escape. His escape from his own dreaded family. They were all 'dark' and 'pureblood' lovers. They couldn't stand muggleborns or even half bloods. Prejudice, tisk tisk. Sirius deeply hated his family. They preferred to stay in rather then go out with all those poor people and muggles and mudbloods. Purebloods were all so snooty and vain!

Why should a person be discriminated just because they popped out of someone with magic? They didn't pick it. It wasn't like they asked for it. No one put out a piece of paper to fill and there it was: Would you like to be magic. X Yes No. Would you like your parents to both be non-magic/muggle? X Yes No. It didn't work like that! Sure, Sirius was lucky to be in a pureblood family. It as both rare, honored, brought so called 'pride' to the wizarding community and he wasn't part of the discrimination that went along with having muggles in your family.

So afterward, the girls had left, and the marauders were still there discussing Sirius's girlfriend problem. He had begged them for help. Try to think of a way to get her away. They simply laughed and refused. Poor guy. They did admit their pity for him. She was pretty, but had a lower average then Eva. Not that any of them really cared for smarts in a girl, but Clara was a real dimwit. They felt his pain, but they knew the 'getting involved' rule and the consequences of not listening to it.

Well now he walking, no jogging, no running, toward the last compartment on the train. That was where they had all agreed to meet. Well he knew for a fact Lily had gotten there early, something about reading some book in privacy or whatever, and he needed her! Desperately. She was the ones with the brains and of course, she was still behind in the whole drama type situation. And quickly, Sirius also knew Clara was hot on his trail in the train also.

He arrived at his destination soon enough and opened the door to find pretty little Evans sitting cross-legged on his right side on the seats next to the window, reading a book 'So your older sister is a prat'. At that point he had collapsed on the floor right next to her feet and held his hands in the begging position.

"Lily, I need your help!" he gave her a pleading look as he stared in hr emerald eyes. She looked shocked but pleased at the same time. Weird, why would she look pleased? Maybe she would get back at him for accidentally mistaking her rat for a piece of bread. It had permantly scarred 'Chuckles' and she had needed a new pet. He had of course pitched in to help her buy it, but c'mon! It was him who had been coughing up rat hair for the next week. Stupid magic rats…

"With what?" she inquired. One easy simple question.

"Clara, she'll be here in a few minutes and I need you to think of something," Sirius begged. Literally. He clasped his hands together and was on his knees in a praying position. She took his wrist and helped him up, or more forced him up. Feisty woman.

"I've got an idea, but your going to have to trust me. And play along," Lily commanded. He gave her a salute.

Well, just in time Clara came in with her short skirt and skimpy tight shirt and all. Honestly, did no teachers notice at all? Least the other tramps Sirius went out with wore the uniforms, even with slight modifications. Yeah, slight his ass. "Oh Sirius Honey! Oh em gee, you got a maid for us! That's so adorable. But, oh can we change her hair color? Honestly, Siripoor, eck!"

"Why I aught a," Lily started heading toward Clara but Sirius held her hand tightly. Lucky for her, because the redheaded beast, which happened to like her hair color, was about to rip her face out! "Sorry, no. Sirius here, Siripoo as you call him, is my boyfriend."

He raised an eyebrow but went along with it.

Clara laughed, the same high-pitched laugh when he had told her he wanted to break up with her for the 13th time. "Oh Siripoo your so funny! Now really, lets go discuss Hilary and Sirius junior! In privacy…"

"It's not a joke Clara," Sirius informed her and just as he did Lily pushed him into a kiss to show Clara. It was nice and natural, unlike all the other teases. Well Clara ran out of the room crying, which was actually pretty funny since running was scientifically impossible in those shoes so she looked like she was attempting to fly, and Sirius pulled Lily out of the kiss. "What was that?"

"I told you to trust me," Lily blushed and turned away. Looking at Sirius...she couldn't. "Uh, I have to go find Chloe now and -"

"It was good," Sirius told her.

"What?"

"It was good," he repeated. "I mean your a good kisser and well...please don't go."

He grabbed Lily's hand once more and dragged her closer until she could feel his chest next to hers and his steady breathing. She felt her heart skip beats...No. She couldn't like Sirius Black. Not like he would like her back, anyway. She would be just another girlfriend, and then just another ex. Lily should have known better then to kiss the boy.

But she wasn't so sure because when he pulled her into another kiss she could have sworn she heard his heart skip a beat also.