Title:The Longing
Author: Me silly!
Chapter:One
Rating: K(possible K+)
Summary:

The story of Lily Evan's has been told many times and all of them have the same theme. The same plot line over and over again. Why can't they just deal with the fact that maybe for a while Lily and James were friends, that Sirius wasn't a complete tease and James might have not 'loved Lily' but had a measly crush on her? Why do these thoughts never cross anyone's minds? Are there any real hints in the books to show my reasoning unreasonable? I don't think so. So here is my version, and what is most probably the truth.

Chapter5.SecondYear.BetweenTheSirius

What are you supposed to think when your best friend, one of them anyway, is going out with Sirius Black? Are you supposed to be happy for her, dating one of the most popular guys in the school, or should you be upset? One might think, upset why would you be upset? Sirius Black is…perfect. A very handsome boy who had inherited the aristocratic, somewhat haughty Black good looks. His dark black hair was short at the moment. He took good care of it, unless upset over something. He had gray, fathomless eyes, one's you never want to look away from. His ease and elegance was intimidating and his looks attracted every eye of any girl, any sane girl anyway.

Not only was he handsome, he was smart. Though he decided to keep his intelligence quiet, any nitwit with half a brain could see how he worked and how high his grades were. Hardworking, smart, and had looks that made him godly. Yes every first second and third year girl wanted to go out with the twelve-year-old. Every girl interested in him worked hard to be his type, get their make-up in that perfect look, put their hair up in that perfect shape, laugh the hardest, smile the prettiest and get the most attention from Mr. Sirius Black.

For anyone who really knew him, though, knew the truth. That he wasn't all angelic and great as he made out to be. The boy as a real troublemaker, a crude boy with cruel intentions. His innocence wasn't questionable; it was nonexistent. The only Black to be sorted in Gryffindor, everybody knew of that family. Rich. Spoiled. They even had a motto! Toujours pur, meaning always pure. Pure bloods or otherwise known as higher class. It was pathetic really. The whole concept was stupid, but it was what made the Sirius egotistical. A moron. Not only that, but a womanizer at that! Dating a different girl ever month, its disgusting! That was the reputation he had built in only one year.

So what are you supposed to think when one of your best friends is going out with Sirius Black?

Why didn't everyone see how big this was? A sweet innocent girl was being taken advantage of! Yep, this was what you were supposed to think. At least when that best friend was none of then Lily Evans. A sweet, shy little thing. Or as Chloe Saracrost like to call it, weak and fragile. Breaking her work be simply as if breaking a Popsicle stick. Those type. The one's you could just stomp all over. Not the type that…that…that idiot went out with.

Now, Chloe was happy her best friend's first kiss was Sirius, which was a huge deal. She wasn't against the whole ordeal because of jealousy, no! She had her James Potter. Sort of. Chloe wasn't the type of girl to stick to a boy as long as she had been with James. It was time to get a new boyfriend, she had decided over the summer. The Gryffindor was pretty sure the feeling was mutual. The Potter boy had been, it seemed, avoiding her. On the train back to Hogwarts, white Sirius and Lily were acting like one of those sweet lovely dove couples that just make you want to puke, James seemed to be engaged in a conversation, an excuse not to have to look at her. Any person would have thought that was stupid and he simply was talking to someone else. Chloe knew better. If it was any person, sure she might not jump to any conclusions.

But he was chatting it up with none other then Peter Pettigrew.

The lad was nice and all, but as dull as a stick. No, scratch that. You can play with a stick. Peter was blah. Just a kid who had gotten lucky. Well, not exactly lucky. The reason he got to hang around with such a crowd was he tripped over Remus's cart! Remus Lupin as another Gryffindor in their year, and a very cute one. Sirius was handsome, Remus was cute, James was decent and Peter was the odd one out. Poor boy? Yeah, but again. As dull as a stick. Duller.

Sirius Black was trouble for a girl like Lily Evans. That's why Chloe Saracrost had concocted the perfect plot to separate those two love doves for good. After all, what were friends for? Lily might not exactly approve, that is she wouldn't approve if she knew. Chloe was going to do everything in her power to make sure Lily was and stayed completely obliviuos. Chloe was smart and cunning, living with her family had taught her to lie with ease, no sweat, no blinking. Move three steps ahead and make sure the victim stays four steps behind. That was her family motto. All they needed was an ancient monster manor as a home and a stupid house elf that listened to portraits of dead ancestors. Then they could be an even more pathetic version of the already pathetic Black family.

Did you get a look at that family! The mother in her fur hats and coats that made her look double her size, the father was some psycho-path who never even went out of the house, probably afraid of the muggle cuties, and the brother could have been something if he would take baths sometime! Him and Severus Snape thought it cool to be greasy slime balls, but on the bright side they never had to worry about girls following them around. They didn't have to worry about girls at all, or anyone, for that matter. You could smell them a few miles away. It was really unnerving when you were trying to eat and when you were trying to get a whiff of the delicious food, the reek of two Slytherin outcasts lingered into your nostrils. Really lost your appetite. Oh and don't even get started on his cousins, Narcissa and Bellatrix! The make-up those two applied, really after the 15th layer it's enough.

Thinking about all this, wasn't Chloe doing Lily a real favor by getting rid of Sirius? She wouldn't have to deal with that family; his smugness or any of that after Chloe was done with him. She had sent a note telling him to meet her at the courtyard and that it was urgent, signing it as Lily Evans. He was waiting there, on a random seat looking back and forth, right and left, most probably looking for Lily. How long had the girl kept the poor, unsuspecting boy waiting? Ten, twenty, thirty maybe forty minutes by now. She had to make this look realistic, don't let the big oaf become aware that this might be some type of scheme.

"Sirius!" Chloe walked over, flipping her dark hair behind her and giving him a sweet, innocent smile. If he had not been preoccupied, thinking where Lily might be, he would have been a bit confused. Chloe was never sweet or innocent; unless there was something she wanted. And what she wanted was for Sirius to break up with Lily.

Would it hurt the girl? Of course it would, but better be hurt now and feel only a little ping then see Sirius with another girl later. Chloe herself had experienced this many times and every time it had felt as if somebody had punched her in the stomach. It had taught her one simple rule. Never get too close. Boys were nothing but trouble, but fun trouble. That was until you started really trusting them that was your first mistake. Then it was after you have some fun, but you got to promise some things and give up others.

Then the crash.

That's what Chloe called it, the crash. When you found out the lies or caught him with another girl. There were many things a boy can do to break any girls heart. Too many. It was as if there was a guide, 'how to break down the girl you promised you'd be there for'. Oh that must be some secret best seller. Anyway, it hit you all at once. There was that mental and emotional pain, it was something that you couldn't forget. Though it was so easy for it to happen again, but you became extra careful. See, like a car crash. Now that's a simile for you.

Sirius returned her greeting with a smile, obviously taking quick glances behind her but still facing her direction not to be rude. Or had Lily come early? What a perfectionist! Couldn't she do something wrong for once? Lily Evans was Chloe's best friend, along with Evalynn Avis, but she could get so annoying! Eva was dumb as a doorknob, oh a metaphor now, and there was her problem. Chloe was smart and great at quiditch, but dropped boys as if useless waste and took action before thinking of consequences. Lily didn't do anything wrong! She had never done anything wrong. She probably will never do anything wrong. It's creepy and inhuman.

Chloe flipped her brown hair back once more to examine the scenery. Good, that little miss goody two shoes wasn't here. It was a horrible thought for one of your closest friends, true, but the girl was a pest and Chloe was doing something nice for her anyway. Well, half nice.

"Looking for someone?" she tried to hide her tone of apathy, or appeared to anyway. It was all part of the plan, and a very good plan at the. Completely fool proof, or at least that's what she reasoned. Normally Chloe dove head first into a plan that sounded the least bit appealing but she had worked this hard. She had worked this hard to get Sirius Black away from Lily Evans. Get him free from her grasp. Or was it the other way around? What if she was getting things backwards? Sirius was a god, everything he touched turned to gold! Yet he was adventurous and…

Was she really thinking this? For a year Chloe had carefully distanced herself form the sights of that arrogant pig! Though he did carry those XY chromosomes she fancied ever so much, and it seemed his good looks had doubled. Oh god, if only two months did this to him imagine him in a year!

No! Stop it. This is ridiculous!

"Yeah, as a matter of fact I am. How did you…No never mind," he raised a curious eyebrow, tilted his head and pointed up wit his index finger showing his confusion. Smart, but thick. Only he could pull that one off. It was all Chloe could to keep from laughing and making some sarcastic comment. Thank god she wasn't Eva. That girl had such a sharp tongue it could cut through iron! Also, that girl was very immature. Sure it was funny to see Sirius's and James's face when she beat them in the annual official eating contest, but pleas grow up! And there's nothing official or annual about the contest. They made it up sometime last year, three months from leaving. Chloe was too lazy to do the math. Also, the date as chosen at random. Basically one day they would declare it eating contest day and everyone would huddle up around them. Remus Lupin, Peter Pettigrew, Sirius Black, James Potter and Evalynn Avis. On occasion some poor victims would try and verse them, but those five monsters could eat a whole gourmet kitchen in five seconds. Separately.

"How did I…?" Chloe put on a curious voice. She was glad she finally got his attention, he was no longer looking sideways to check if Lily had come or not. She would come soon, very soon. Chloe had planned the whole thing. Who's the mastermind now Evans? Hmm? Yeah, that's right! Give the girl her well-earned kudos; Chloe could be cunning and quite sinister when she wanted to be, which was not often. Somehow the sorting hat had decided Gryffindor so she was going to play the part of a Gryffindor. Although, right now was a Slytherin time. "What, do you mean how did I know you were waiting for some one?" Sirius nodded. "Just a guess."

Sirius then simply shrugged and turned his attention from Chloe, irritating her once again. What was so special about Lily Evans anyway? Yes, sure, the whole perfect thing. So what? Didn't it distress him as well that that girl could do no wrong? Didn't he notice that she wasn't even human? Being completely perfect wasn't human. "O.k., I'm lying! I know all about it. You're meeting Lily here. This was the spot she asked to join you in her letter." Sirius's eyes widened. Chloe sighed. "She's going to break up with you, Black."

"Oh. Well I guess I'm not surprised. A girl like that and a guy like me just don't mesh together well. Really, I guess it's for the better," the ranting Sirius went on, a gloomy expression plastered on his handsome face. It made Chloe feel bad for him. Or nearly feel bad. He didn't deserve Lily…or the other way around. Whatever! She noticed that instead of questioning her on how she knew this piece of vital information. He just went on with his ramblings. Poor boy.

"You know, I guess I should be with a girl more like me. Like you for instance."

"What?" she tried to hide her look of astonishment that was creeping up. That was the last thing she thought he would say after learning his girlfriend was about to break up with him. He was falling into her trap before she had planted it! What a wuss, and for a second Chloe had thought this was going to be a challenge. Oh well. This wasn't a game. This was for Lily. "Well, I guess I see your point. We're both outgoing, mischievous and play quiditch. You're good looking with the whole package. Brains, bronze and money."

She laughed to inform him it was a joke. He laughed along, it sounded almost like barking. It was loud and powerful. Who knew something as joyous as a laugh could intimidate you? It made Chloe back down a little. He seemed to have noticed this because he started to calm down and put a hand around hers as a sort of way of informing her he wasn't going to bite. "Sorry, I guess I went a little overboard. You know you're the whole package as well. Sexy, smart and a killer-"

Chloe refused to let him finish that. She couldn't hear it. She couldn't hear this coming from her best friends boyfriend's mouth. This wasn't for Lily; this was ruining Lily. Or going to anyway. Luckily Saracrosts were strong, no man stood in the way of a friendship. "I'm sorry Sirius, I've…got to go. Lily will be arriving shortly…"

Without looking back, she rushed away throwing curses at her stupid heels. Good thing the girl was fast, eight miles per hour in these things actually. At the moment it was more her tears getting in the way. She was crying, why the hell as she crying? Oh she knew the answer, it was quite clear actually. But the 12 year old refused to believe that she could…she had…how could she?

Chloe Saracrost had actually fallen for Sirius Black. The one thing she had promised not to do. She knew, out of all the drivers, his crash would be the worst. Scratch that, she didn't. She didn't know how it would feel. And hopefully, she never would have to.

With that in her mind she walked up to her dorm and found-

"EVA! What's happened to you?" Chloe shrieked.