Dedications: This one is dedicated to all the people who reviewed my last chapter; Dream On. Without love-ly-meow, darkphoniex245, The Oblivious Captain Anna, Madelyn xD, Patpat, SxcAmethyst and Lush-Lalo reviewing I probably wouldn't have carried on with the story! Thanks guys! XD
Disclaimer: "Call and you could be the prize owner of Gravitation!" Calls number "Sorry you have not won it, please try again next time" Looks down and cries…
A/N: The song lyrics for The Rage Beat are in English because although in my story they live in Japan and so on I have written all their speech and so in English (obviously) so I thought it would be easier if I put the song lyrics in English too. If you would for any reason prefer them in Japanese then just say and I will do my best!
Quote for today: The pen is mightier than the sword, and considerably easier to write with…
Love Hurts
Feelings Confessed
Even after an awful night's sleep, Shuichi managed to drag himself out of bed and get ready for another day at work in the recording studio. It only took him a few minutes in the bathroom and before long he was ready and should get there on time, for a change, unless he stopped off at the Dragons Palace first…
No He thought. I'll be there for 8:30am…like I'm meant to be!
"Oh I hate Mondays" He whined as he opened the door.
"Ah, it'll be great! Look out the window, it's a shiny day" Ryuichi grinned, holding his pink bear.
"Bye Ryu" Shuichi laughed, rolling his eyes
"Bye Shu…Mr. Bears says bye too!"
"…Bye Mr. Bear" and Shuichi left Ryuichi in the apartment on his own as he sighed and headed to work.
……
"Shindo, you're here!" Mr. Sakano greeted him
"Yo, Shuichi, you okay?" Hiro questioned, appearing to be the only one who noticed the distressed look on his best friends' face.
"Ummm…no, not really. I don't think I feel up to rehearsing today guys"
"Oh, great" Fujisaki mumbled. "Who is it now?"
"Is it a guy? Is that what's up?"
"Obviously" The keyboardist rolled his eyes, his arms crossed.
"Anyone I can shoot?" K grinned, hugging his precious rifle
Hiro shot Mr. K a look and hit Fujisaki for being so insensitive toward Shuichi. He hadn't been like this for a long time, not since…
"No, K, you can't shoot him" Shuichi shook his head
"Soo? Who is it?" The producer asked
"It's, erm…its Yuki…"
"Mr. Yuki?" Hiro looked confused
"But I thought you two were over a long time ago…?" Fujisaki pulled his head from his sheets of music and his voice sounded intrigued to know.
"Well…we were, but he's been on my mind a lot lately, and I mean a lot. I've been dreaming about him…well, not him exactly…me and him, when we were together. I really miss him" Before anyone could comment on his outburst, Shuichi left the recording studio and ran to the small field a few minutes away.
"Shu! Wait up!" Hiro called after him. Shuichi didn't stop but he did slow down, knowing the person running behind him was his best friend and he did have some explaining to do.
Hiro found Shuichi sitting on a bench under the shade of a tree a couple of minutes later. He sat down next to him and both were silent until the pink haired male spoke.
"Why can't I escape him? I can't stop thinking about him and neither can my unconscious self! For gods sake he is even in my dreams! I'm with Ryuichi now, were made for each other but…but"
"But what?"
"But I love Yuki…"
Hiro smiled. "C'mon Shuichi. You know as well as I do that the best way to get over someone is to get under someone else…or in your case behind someone else-"
"Hiro!"
"What?" The guitarist put on an innocent face and Shuichi only laughed
"I do not wish to discuss my love life with you, thanks" He crossed his arms and lifted his head so his nose was in the air.
"Oh, you never cease to make me laugh" Hiro scruffed Shuichi's pink hair
"Heee" The vocalist blushed and laughed manically. "Yeah, you make me laugh to Hiro"
"Well I know I'm great Shuichi but, sheesh, you don't have to tell me all the time…"
"Shut up you, big head! I'm gonna put cotton wool in your ears!"
Hiro raised an eyebrow
"Coz if you hear any more compliments your fat head won't fit through the damn door"
The two laughed but soon silence fell again.
"Say, Hiro, what do you think I should do?"
"Well, me personally, would think it through but as means as it you… I think you should just go speak to Mr. Yuki, without thinking it through, follow your heart. Its what you do best, after all"
"…Well, thanks Hiro…C'mon, lets go do some rehearsing"
Hiro and Shuichi headed back to studio two to record the special edition, speeded version of the bands first song.
"So, shuichi, you gonna go see him?" The red head asked
"Yup"
"Good for you!"
The two entered the room and Shuichi picked up the microphone as Hiro and Fujisaki took their places.
"Hit it!"
"With a terrified look in the eyes, spit those irritated feelings into the fickle wind
The signal that melted into the cracked roadway is leaving only a scar behind.
Before the drowsy noise blurs away tomorrow,
chase after those ambitiously resounding footsteps.
The members of Bad Luck did their very best. This song would be released as a special edition all over the globe and millions had been waiting for its release. Usually when they attempt to recorded it, Shuichi messes up a line in the middle due to the new beat of the music but so far so good.
That unfulfillable emotion that never settles down somewhere--
just decide to ignore it, then overtake it.
Aim for the loophole in this shy, trembling society,
for the place we keep struggling towards. I want new world.
"What ever Hiroshi said to Shuichi earlier seemed to have worked. He's doing better than ever today" K whispered to Sakano
"Yes, Shindo does seem to be singing rather well now, I wonder why. Maybe something is wrong! What if he's got a big bomb shell to drop on us! What if-"
"Ah, all if's and but's Mr. Sakano. There is nothing wrong with Shuichi. Just sit back and enjoy it!"
"But…"
"Enjoy it"
"Right"
If you bare your claws at your swarming anxieties, you'll be snapped back by unfamiliar lies,
and the unbearable times will adorn the rust-covered roads with agitation
Stuff your bag with nothing but velvet coins.
We don't need a map of the maze-like dreams.
From the tidal-wave's pounding rhythm
to the glittering silver passion, it's all just temptation's strategic pull.
Your fragile eyes beat on the door we can go through
as we still keep on searching. You just a new world
I can still hear the accumulated tears carving their paths into Main Street,
warping the sound of those footsteps.
I just want to get this recorded and I can go see Yuki! Shuichi thought. How do I even know if I love him? Maybe all this is just my heads way of testing mine and Ryuichi's relationship? Well if that's the case, I've failed, coz' whatever, I'm going to see Yuki…Tonight!
Shuichi looked across at Hiro who smiled knowingly and Shuichi gave the thumbs up signaling the red head was doing great.
That unfulfillable emotion that never settles down somewhere--
just decide to ignore it, then overtake it.
Aim for the loophole in this shy, trembling society,
for the place we keep struggling towards. I want new world."
……
Eiri Yuki sat at his desk, typing away on his laptop. He hadn't been disturbed all day and had made a considerable amount of progress on his latest novel, Met At Midnight. Well, that was until…
Knock Knock Knock
"Who the hell's that?" He mumbled, getting up
Knock knock Knock
"I'm coming, I'm coming!" He shouted
Knock Knock Knock
The knocking from the door was getting louder each time they hit the door.
Only Mika could be this annoying and persistent. Well Mika and… Yuki stopped and thought for a moment Nah, that's impossible!
"I said I'm coming already!-" He swung open the door open to see someone who he hadn't seen or spoken to in nearly a year.
"You? What are you doing here?" He spat
Shuichi jumped on Yuki, embracing him in one of his famous, over enthusiastic hugs. He let Yuki go and stepped back onto the floor, looking in to those irresistible eyes of his.
"Yuki!...I-"
"You what?"
"I wanned to…see you"
"Yeah well I don't want to see you" Eiri turned around hiding whatever look may be on his face to signal he was clearly lying through his teeth.
"But…But I miss you!" Shuichi shouted
"…"
"…"
"Oh, just come in. If people see you here it will cause a big scene and flying rumors"
"Uhhh…Yeah, sure" The singer said hesitantly
The two ex-lovers sat on the couch in the novelist's living room.
"So, what do you want?" Yuki asked, lighting a cigarette
"I came to talk…I needed to see you. We haven't even spoke in just under a year and I just cant do it anymore…"
Shuichi closed his eyes as he breathed in the smoke. It had been a long time since he'd smelt that smell. And it was good. It brought back memories. Good ones.
"You miss me that much, huh?"
"Well…Yeah, I do. I mean, we went through a lot together didn't we? And, like, I promise I'd be prepared to go through all that again just to be with you!"
Yuki's head shot up. When they were together, Shuichi had been beaten up and raped to protect him and he just promised to go through it all again. For him.
I can't lie to him now. Blow him off. It's just not fair…
"Shuichi-"
"You called me Shuichi!"
"Shut up you damn brat!...Sorry" Yuki sighed. "Just…listen. I…I suppose I miss you too. It's not the same here without you. It's quiet, my head doesn't hurt, I'm not stressed and I haven't coughed up blood lately…"
Shuichi lifted up an eyebrow. "Was that a compliment?"
Eiri only smiled and at the sight of this Shuichi grinned widely.
"Well if you miss me that much it means you still like me!...Right?" Shuichi sounded hopeful
"Right" Yuki doubted out his cigarette casually before turning to look back at Shuichi.
"So…Why'd you dump me?"
"Seguchi, Mika" Yuki shrugged. "They were always on my back about you and I thought it wouldn't really affect me that much if I let you go…But it did. To be honest, I thought you'd have been back sooner."
"Well I…I-" Yuki silenced him by placing his lips on his.
It was a feeling he hadn't had in a while. He was with Ryuichi now but a kiss with Yuki was so different. Was it because it was wrong? He shouldn't be doing it, betraying Ryu? But it felt so good…right. It made his insides bubble. He was still in love.
Yuki pulled away but he regretted it. Since he had finished with Shuichi he had had a few girlfriends and 'mingled' with a few fans but none of there kisses compared to that one. He missed Shuichi more than he could admit.
"Yuki I…"
"Sssh. Some how I'm guessing we aren't going to be mentioning this?"
"Uhhh, no. I need to speak with Ryuichi. I think I better go actually. He'll wonder where I've gone…" Shuichi got up and put on his shoes.
"You can drop by again sometime if you like" Yuki said quietly
Shuichi beamed. "Yeah, I will thanks" And he left Eiri Yuki's apartment once again but this time he would be back very soon.
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A/N: Yey! Lol thanks for reading my second chapter! XD. I really enjoyed writing this chapter it was just very strange trying to write a kiss with two men. I had to use names a lot coz' him this and him that is really confusing and I am, so, used to him and she! Anyway as always, read and review! XD
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