The sun was low in the sky as another day came to an end, and peace was all over the grounds of Hogwarts except for in one tower of the castle where a young man lat most dissatisfied with the state of things for him right now.

Why had he made such a darn fool of himself? He just thought things had been going so well for him and his padfooted lover that Sirius was going to be ready for those words to be said between them. Clearly he had been wrong.

More than anything he was angry, whether it was with Sirius or himself he didn't know, but Sirius had made the whole thing a lot more upsetting than it was met to be. Heck it should have been the most romantic moment that they had ever shared together. Wasn't it for every couple the first time they said those three magic words.

As Sirius went in to the dorm room that night and he saw Remus he didn't know what to say. Neither of them did. How could they after early that day?

Lord Sirius had been such a fool. He hadn't meant it to come out so wrong.

"Remus what I said –" he tried to begun to explain to his friend he had to tell Remus what had been going through his mind.

"no you made how you feel quite clear to Me." the werewolf protested.

"No I didn't." said Sirius defying Remus's expression that was clearly telling Sirius he didn't want to hear anything he had to say.

Remus looked up at him still angry but with much more willing ears. Hadn't he? Then did that mean his lover felt the same way?

"Remus I can't say those words." He said to him as he sighed again and sat on his friend's bed.

"Why not, I struggle with them too but I find a way round it," said Remus to him as his hand found Sirius's own. How was he ever going to get through to him?

"I never even said them to Clara. We were together for two years, Remus please understand I can feel them, and I do, but I can't say it, not to you not to any one." he said as he felt himself get even more wound up by his own sensitivity. He didn't know why it got to him so.

"I know you didn't." said Remus gently as he stroked Sirius hand lovingly with his thumb. His friend's eyes were so hurt by the years of cruel treatment from his mother and his father.

"Don't let them control you." Remus begged, he didn't want this for the friend who was going to the most amazing lover if he could just reveal his feelings.

Sirius looked at him darkly. "Then don't talk about what you don't know." He said as he got up from here he had been sitting.

Pacing Sirius inhaled a sharp deep breath of air that was cold and stung at his insides.

'Damn, you Remus,' he thought to himself. He hadn't wanted to fall in love with him. he hadn't even really wanted to be his friend when they were on the train all those years back but you don't choose who you fall in love with.,.

And yet he had already done every thing a true lover would for Remus. He had turned his life around from the misery to the joy it was for the both most of the time today,.

Why was this a big deal for him? They had been together for a while now not that any one knew.

They were very sly about there relationship. They had stolen kisses in the corridors instead of the full blown love lily and James had.

"I don't want to hurt you." Said Remus to him. "I want to love you, and I do" he sighed as he broke off.

"It just scared me ok." Said Sirius back to him. "You know me, I am not all touchy feeling." He said.

Remus smirked. "You were very touchy feely last night." He reminded him.

Sirius let out a laugh like a bark knowing it was true. The previous night had been amazing. It was moments like them when he had been tempted too say the words Remus he knew had been longing to hear, but he had been able to. He had been so close and then he had just stopped.

"You know what I mean." He said and from was he had been laying Remus got up to embrace him.

"Yeah I do." He said as he wrapped one arm around Sirius. "I didn't want to push you, I just have to know what I am waiting for you for." He said to him.

"I don't know, you could have any man in this place." He said to him smiling. "but I how it is because what you said is true and deep down you know I feel the same and I am going to be able to confess it one day, just not yet."

"Then I guess I am just going to have to wait for you Sirius black." Sighed Remus as he kissed him on the lips gently.

Smiling as his boy friend teased him so Sirius hugged Remus tight and proceeded to kiss him again; grazing his lips against the werewolf's own with a smile on his face until finally it was more a passionate gully fledged snog than anything else.

As finally both off them were painting uncontrollably, they feel on to Remus's bed and looked at each other.

"I meant what I said this morning Padfoot." Said Remus to him finally.

"I know," Sirius said. Kissing his friends hand he got off the bed. He had to get to Quidditch training, but just as he headed for the door, he turned and he looked at rebus.

"What" asked the werewolf as he looked at his Sirius. His Sirius. The phrase just rolled off the tongue.

"Nothing. Just I think – I think I love you too." Shaking his head, he left the door, and leant against it. Having confronted his fear, he tried to figure out how he felt. Then he got it.

Just so warm…