Was It Worth It?

by Eximaus Xiana

As Inuyasha lies dying and wonders one thing, was it worth it?

Disclaimer: I do not own Inuyasha.

Summery: As Inuyasha lies dying, he wonders one thing, "Was it worth it?"

Was It Worth It?

Time. Hm. Time is an illusion. I had time. I had so much time. I was supposed to live a good few hundred years. Now, I have maybe a few good minutes. Minutes. That's it. That's all the time I have to right all the wrongs of my life. Looks like I won't be able to.

I look around me. Naraku is long gone and all that's left is rotting bodies and the foul stench of blood. It's so heavy it makes my stomach churn. Or maybe that's the big hold in my chest. I don't know.

Everyone is lying around me. Dead. Everyone. Miroku has died holding Sango. He sits with his back against a rock wall in the cave to my right, unmoving, his head bowed as if forever praying. Sango's head is cradled in his lap, also lifeless. The brave demon slayer he had come to love so much. They died together and for that, I am grateful.

Kirara is a few feet away, a big gash going from her chest to the middle of her legs. Her insides ooze out slowly and I shift my eyes away. Shippo is down and to my left. I gaze over at him. His tail looks out of place with his small body. Shippo's head is bent at a sickening angle, his open eyes see nothing.

I know where Kagome is, but I dare not look at her.

All my friends, everything I have known, is dead. I tried. I really did. Was it worth it? Was destroying Naraku really more important than the life of my friends?

No.

Then why did I fight? Why did I place everyone in harms way? The all had their reasons for fighting but I had the strength to defeat him. I had something the others lacked. I should have been the one and only one dying here today. Not them. I cough and blood spits out and back onto my face.

Was it worth it?

I finally tilted my head up to Kagome, instantly wishing that I hadn't. Her lovely face was smeared with blood on one side. Her face held a peaceful expression, a dagger sticking out from her chest. Blood began to slowly trail down her chin.

My nose began to tingle and water collected in my amber eyes. The tears fell effortlessly, as I did not struggle against them. I let out moan and arched my back. That's all I can do. Moan for the one I love. I didn't even tell her I loved her.

Didn't even tell her.

So many things I left unfinished. So many things I'll never get to do. I'll never defeat Naraku. I'll never have kids. I'll never grow old. I'll die prematurely. Was it worth it? Was it?

I lay there and cry. It's all I had strength to do. Cry. I wanted to scream but I simply had no strength left. Suddenly, the tears stopped. As did the pain.

My vision clouds and I start to feel lightheaded. I stare at the ceiling of the cave and I can feel my soul slip. I close my eyes. So, this is it. Time for me to go.

My time is up.

R&R

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