Title: Enemies of the Heart (working title)
Author: Neldluva
Fandom: Samurai Champloo
Rating: R
Pairing: Jin/Mugen
Warnings: yaoi, naughty language, liberties taken with the show's timeline, PWP-ish, ANGST
Disclaimer: I own nothing. It all belongs to those who created Samurai Champloo ... and made it so delightfully slashy.
Summary: Fuu speaks. First person.
Well, I didn't know what to think when I walked in on Jin and Mugen that morning. I mean, I figured out pretty quick what they were doing, and I'm sure I turned bright red and I know I ran away really fast. I spent most of that day just thinking about what I saw.
I'm not stupid, no matter what Mugen says. I know what it is women and men do when they get that itch in them. I know Mugen is constantly itchy. I just thought that he preferred women to men when it came to … um, taking care of that itch. I wondered for a little bit who got to play the woman when they had sex. Mugen didn't seem like the sort of guy who'd take that from anybody, but I can't imagine quiet, stoic Jin in that position either. Oh, I know I turn red just from thinking about it!
Yeah, it's kind of weird to think of two guys … um, like that, but it's kind of sexy too. I think I've had a crush on Jin since the beginning. He's always so quiet and clean and nice to me, he always makes me feel sort of special, like my search actually might mean something. As for Mugen … well, he definitely annoyed me from the start. He's always so loud and obnoxious that I don't even know why I bother with him. But he has saved my life a few times, more than a few times, and he is kind of cute.
Okay, so they're both gorgeous. I actually feel plain when I walk around with them. Mugen's got a sexy bold swagger, and when he smiles you know he's thinking dirty thoughts, and sometimes his eyes get this look like he just wants to put you over a table and … well, you know. Just looking at him and knowing that he's thinking dirty things makes me feel wild and dangerous, and I love that thrill. But that isn't it. He really does have pretty eyes, and he's got nice muscles too. We're all a little on the scrawny side, but he doesn't show it as much as Jin and I do.
And Jin … well, Jin is beautiful. He's got those aristocratic features, and even if he didn't have that mon on his kimono, I'd know he was from a big-name family. He's nice and quiet, and not nearly as mean as Mugen can be. His hair is so soft, or it looks like it would be if he let me touch it, and his eyes are always so wise and understanding from behind his glasses. He's the kind of guy a girl like me would love to marry. I know he did some bad stuff, and that's why he's a ronin instead of a regular samurai, but the wandering lifestyle just seems to suit him. I can't imagine him taking a master or working for the shogunate.
I mean, I know they're both warriors. Jin has his bushido, and Mugen has a whole lot of pride, and that's what keeps them fighting, I think. But that's also why I would never have put them together! They act like they hate each other during the day, the way they're always going at it or, in Mugen's case, attacking me. I guess that doesn't mean anything, though, because they were having sex and lots of it. It makes sense now why they always rush off so soon after we finish dinner.
I saw them once. Going at it, I mean. Some nice guy in a village had directed us to a little shack near some hot springs. I was a little nervous about the shack part – I remember thinking, they wouldn't have sex with me right in front of them, would they? That would be too weird! But Jin and I agreed that we all needed baths, so I went off to one pool while Jin dragged Mugen, kicking and screaming as usual, to another pool.
Oh, the springs were so nice! They smelled a little like sulfur, but the water was nice and hot, and I was so happy to get clean. Sometimes, I hate traveling with two smelly men, but I guess I can't really help it. And I sort of get used to it after a few days, as long as Mugen doesn't raise his arms too much.
I finished up nice and quick, even though I could have stayed in there all night. I sort of wanted to get back to the shack and fall asleep before the boys returned. It would just be too weird if they came back and started making out or something while I was awake. So I put on my clothes and made my way back through the woods.
I heard noises in the bushes. Maybe I should have just left well enough alone, but I've always been too curious for my own good. I knelt down with my kimono beneath my knees and shifted the branches of the bushes around until I could see beyond them. What I saw took my breath away.
I'd seen Mugen naked before, after that horrible wreck he was in after taking up with Mukuro and his gang. I'd dragged his unconscious body back to a hut and got him all undressed so I could wrap up his wounds and so he wouldn't get sick. I didn't take too much note of his body then because he'd been nearly dead and so helpless-looking. And I'd never seen Jin naked, though I'd had plenty of fun imagining. But now, I got to see them both, and boy, imagination isn't nearly good enough.
Mugen had Jin on his back, and Jin had his legs up around Mugen's waist, so I didn't get to see too much what they were doing. I didn't mind that because I think I had a pretty good idea, and I know I turned red at that point. Mugen's mouth was all over Jin, and I got a little worried when I saw that he was biting Jin, but neither of them seemed to mind … Jin even seemed to like it because he tilted his head back even farther. I brought my hands to my hot cheeks as I noticed that he wasn't wearing his glasses.
They looked beautiful together, and it took my breath away to watch them. Jin was all long and pale, and I guess I hadn't realized how long his arms and legs were until then. Mugen was scruffy, as usual, but I think he'd had a bath because he didn't look quite as dirty as he usually does. Against Jin's skin, his arms and legs looked brown. And yeah, they were both pretty skinny, but I hardly noticed that. They just looked so happy. I don't think I'd ever seen either of them so happy, especially not with each other.
They mumbled at each other, and I saw Mugen grin, so I knew it must have been something dirty. I probably should have just left them at it, but I couldn't take my eyes away. I hadn't expected them to be so pretty together. Jin wrapped his arms around Mugen's neck, and Mugen's hand dropped to Jin's thigh, and they just moved together like they were dancing or something. All of a sudden, Mugen shouted, and I was so surprised that I fell back to my butt. I heard Jin cry out too, and scrambled to get to my previous position. When next I could see them, though, they were both finished and just lying there. I let out a breath that I hadn't known I'd been holding and pushed my thighs together. My whole body felt hot, and I was so glad that they couldn't see me now. I got up and ran back to the shack.
I was curled up in my own corner with my eyes squeezed shut when they came back. I heard them mumble more to each other, and then there were some wet kissing sounds, but then they were quiet. Thank goodness they didn't decide to do a repeat performance, or I wouldn't have known what to do.
I guess I started feeling sort of left out, especially after watching them like that. It had been just the three of us for a long time, and we'd been doing pretty much everything together. I mean, Mugen sometimes went off to the brothels, and we went separate ways for our jobs, but we were living together and eating together. I guess I thought they would share that kind of thing with me, though now that I think about it, they have no reason to. I'm just the weird, awkward girl that picked them up and made them come with me on this quest.
I don't think I want to be on the inside of their relationship, not at all! That would be too weird. I do have crushes on both of them, but if I had to be in there, between them … I don't think I could do that. It just feels weird that there's a big piece of their lives that I'm missing out on and that I can't participate in. It makes me feel so lonely.
Sometimes, I feel sort of flattered that they've stayed with me this long. We get along pretty well, considering everything, and I like to think we are at least friends. Something beyond my quest is making us stick together, and whatever it is, I don't want it to end. I don't know what sort of claim I have over those two, or even if I do have a claim, but I don't want them to leave me. We've gotten so far together that I don't know what I'd do without them now.