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So let the magic begin! …
Chapter Ten - Drowning In Doubts
"STOP, the truth" Draco said so that Harry would snap out of his trance.
"Stop, stop, stop" Harry silently muttered to himself.
"Welcome back"
"Glad to be back" Harry said while his consciousness came back to him.
Draco was just staring at the boy in wonder. It was just then that he realized that his fingers were placed to his lips, so he quickly removed them.
"So Malfoy, did you learn anything interesting about me?"
"Wouldn't you like to know" Draco smirked, got up with his belongings and walked away almost triumphantly.
Harry just remained sitting where he was, staring up at the slender blonde walking away from him. He sighed sadly and leaned against the trunk of the tree. He was lost in deep thought when he realized where he was.
This is not where I was when we started. What happened? Why was I moved?
"Drakey Pooh! You're finally back!" Pansy came rushing over to Draco and lunged at him.
"Damn it Pansy, would you stop lunging at me? I mean, I know I'm gorgeous and everything, but that's no excuse to pounce on me all the time. I can't have you hanging off me if I want to keep my body intact."
"Sorry, Draco"
"Apology accepted"
Well sort of…
"So what kind of information did you learn from Potter?"
"Nothing we didn't know already, Pansy" Draco hoped she would believe him.
"Are you sure?"
"Positive"
"Well that's a drag; Blaise at least got one thing from Hermione"
"Oh and what pray tell would that be?"
"Oh, just the fact that she and the hand-me-down Weasel have been secretly dating" Pansy scowled.
"Pansy…"
"Yeah?"
"Everyone knows about that."
"Oh…"
"So it's not useful?"
"No, not unless Blaise wants to tell the whole bloody school, which in doing so he would just humiliate himself, because everyone in the school already knows."
"Well that sucks" Pansy said while folding her arms in front of herself.
"Well I have had quite a long night, I need a cold shower, and then I'm off to bed. See you later Pansy."
"Night Drakey Pooh"
"Night"
Draco made his way up into the boy's dormitory and began taking his clothes off while in the bathroom. Slipping into a "cold" shower like he had planned, he let his mind linger on the green-eyed Gryffindor. With only the soft sound of falling water consuming him, he let the water run down his toned body as he thought of that kiss he shared with Harry. Draco was very hurt that the boy would not know what had happened, but still he could not bring himself to tell him either. Draco kneeled down on the floor of the shower no longer being able to stand and curled his body in a tight ball. Letting the cold water hit his back, he drowned out any doubts or sorrow he was feeling.
Harry finally arrived back at the Gryffindor common room, and sat on one of the red sofas by the lit fire. It had seemed that all was quiet, and most of the students were already sleeping.
Harry couldn't stop wondering about what Draco had asked him. At first he wasn't worried, at first he was sure that there was nothing to be hidden. But now…now he had felt like Draco pulled something from him, something that was hidden in his mind maybe even from his own knowlage.
With all these worried thoughts Harry was having, he decided that he would turn to the source. Harry was going to write to Draco and ask him; just what he found out, or at least get the blond to give some hint or sliver as to what happened. Harry felt that if he didn't find out soon, he was going to do something rash.
Dear Hermione,
I am thankful that you replied to my last parchment, but I want you to know that it was not necessary. The last parchment was just something I had to get off of my chest, it was not meant to be a hassle to you in any way. I found out today that you made your relationship with Ronald Weasley public. I am happy for you, knowing that you are happy, I'm happy. I will not deny that small parts of me will always wish that it was me you loved, and that I was the Weasley of your dreams. I, the one with long fiery hair, would be there for you when you are happy, or sad, that I Ginny Weasley would always be your soul mate. But I now know whom you truly love, and I just want you to be happy.
Love Ginny, Your Soul admirer for life.
Hermione held her letter she received from the weaslette close to her chest. She laid heart broken upon her bed that evening, as she knew she would have to make a choice. A choice between the one she truly loved and the one she greatly admired.
"I, I can't do it." She muttered over and over again.
Hermione was in what you would call denial in many ways. She was confused. She knew she had to make one final and content choice. But she didn't want to hurt anyone. She did not want anyone to be in as much pain as she was in now. She had to talk to someone. She had to talk to a friend. Hermione had to talk to Harry.
Hermione had entered the boy's dormitory to find it was clear and safe to go in. She noted that all the beds had been empty except one: Harrys. Hermione quickly made her way over to Harrys bedside in hope to get some sort of answer to her problem, but Harry had been asleep already.
Hermione plopped down upon his bed and lay down beside the young Gryffindor, lifting his right arm over her, and placing it on herself for some kind of friendly comfort. As she moved his arm she heard a soft moan escape from Harry's lips. It seemed to Hermione that Harry had been dreaming of something, or maybe even someone.
Hermione was about to tuck his other hand inside hers when she noticed he was holding something…a letter of some sorts. Hermione could not resist and slowly took the letter from Harry's firm grip.
Harry,
I am sorry that I cannot tell you what you said to me with the influence of the truth serum. Keep in mind that that gives you the right not to tell me what I will say to you. I will mention that I had noticed that you did not seem scared or worried about taking the potion. I found that very intimidating, because I know that when time comes that I will be scared of what I may say to you. Yes Potter, you read that right! I'm scared. I have a lot to hide, and I am asking you, no…I am begging you, and pleading to you that no matter what happens, you do not tell a soul about what has been said. I promise I have not, and will not say a thing of what you said to me either.
One more thing, Harry… To answer your first question… I do not hate you, and I never have. I just did not understand why you would not want to befriend me. But I understand now.
Draco Malfoy
Hermione stared at the letter and could not believe what she had just read. It sounded crazy. Hell, it topped her letter without a doubt! Hermione could not go on with asking Harry for help. She realized that coming to him would just make matters worse. Harry had enough to deal with, and did not need to hear her confused thoughts.
Hermione took hold of Harry's arm and gently set it down. Slightly making her way to get up and leave, she had put Harry's letter back into his hand and when turning to leave she yelped with a loud screech.
"Please stay" Harry pleaded to the young women.
"Sure" Hermione answered.
"So what did you think?"
"Think? Think about what?"
"The letter." Harry said blankly.
"You knew?"
"Yup"
"And you didn't say anything?"
"Yup"
"Why?"
"Because you seemed to have wanted to read it bad enough to take it without permission, plus I needed someone to talk to about it."
"Oh, I see, I know how you feel Harry."
"So why did you come to me in the first place?"
"I need to speak to you about a letter I received, but first I want to hear about your problem Harry"
"Very well then"
Harry sat across from the girl he idolized and explained the whole story about the first parchment to the last that he had received from Draco Malfoy. He then explained to her about the truth serum, and how he knew Malfoy found something out, that he was unsure of himself.
Hermione listened very carefully to the boy across from her, and acknowledged every bit of information.
"So what do you think, Hermione?"
"Well, first off, I think I would ask you if this 'knowing something you don't know about yourself' situation was really the truth, and how would you know that Malfoy wasn't bluffing. But after reading that sincere letter from Malfoy myself, I know that what he says must be true, and that he has indeed found something out."
"It seems that way" Harry nodded.
"But on the other hand, we know that Malfoy won't say anything. So I guess him knowing doesn't really change anything."
"You know what Hermione, I think you are right. It doesn't change anything. The only thing that has really changed is the fact that I might have found myself another ally." Harry smiled in contempt.
"Thank you Hermione," the boy said while bringing her into a big hug and kissing her on the cheek.
"Do all gay guys kiss women on the cheek?" She stated with a little giggle.
"Only the polite ones" Harry stated with a smile.
Hermione has always known that Harry was a poof. In fact, she knew before he did. She has always been the most intelligent person when it came to…well, basically everything that didn't concern her own love life. Hermione accepted Harry for who he was, but both Gryffindor's knew better then to tell Ron.
"Your welcome Harry, and by the way, I think Malfoy kind of fancy's you, you know that?"
"Nah, he would never. He's a Malfoy remember? That means he's straighter then a piece of wood!" Harry chuckled.
"Some how I don't think that logic works, Harry"
"Well you give me an example of something straighter then wood" Harry argued.
"Well, I could name off about a million things Harry, but that's not what I came here to talk about."
They both started to give out a little laugh before getting back to business.
"Well that may be true, but it seems like someone I know might fancy him," Hermione said with a wink.
Harry blushed and threw a pillow at her.
"You tell anyone, and you are dead meat!"
Authors Cut In – OMG! I am freaking out man! Here I am writing this beautiful chapter for you guys and of course chatting to one of my friends on MSN, and he asks me "SO, is msn being a bitch to you?" and I reply saying "No, Men Suck Nipples, is being nice to me tonight!" then he asks "So, what are you doing?" and I reply with a "writs;.gcfmy" Yup that's right I replied with a "writs;.gcfmy" Wanna know what I was going to say, and why I didn't, well here we go ... I was going to say "Writing a new chapter for my 'beautiful' fans" but I didn't because I JUMPED away from the computer, and taking the key board for a LEAP I quickly typed in "writs;.gcfmy" because there was a SPIDER on my WALL, the WALL "I" SIT beside when I'm TYPING….and it was a BIG spider, and it FREAKED me out here ppl, I am lucky to be alive and typing this right now PPL! You should all feel proud, that I am here and continuing this story…ok on with my story…
Oh not the Fanfic story….
I mean my spider story...
So here it was on my wall just staring at me, just waiting for me to come back, I mean that thing could have been crawling on me, or like it could have SPRUNG in to my long beautiful blonde hair.
So there was only one thing I could do… I had to kill the little, no I mean BIG sucker!
So I went to grab a piece of paper from my printer to kill it with, but resisted when noticing that it was my last piece of white blank paper. I closed my eyes and tried breathing for air, and when I opened my eyes, BOOM! IT WAS GONE!
THE MOTHER FUCKER WAS GONE I TELL YOU!
I frantically looked around my surrounding area and lunged my hand into my desk to reach my notebook to get paper… LINED PAPER, to kill the sucker with!
I finally got the paper yes, but how could I kill a fucker that wasn't there? I looked closely at my dark blue walls, and noticed the little fucker, I means the BIG FUCKER, had only moved a foot up the wall and was by my window. I held on to the paper tight and SMACK! Right onto the little wanker! I HAD SUCCEEDED!
I KILLED THE FROGGER!
I felt so PROUD of myself…. but then I realized that it was stuck to the wall, so I got tissue out and started to wipe the wall clean. In doing so I got a closer look at it's dead body realizing that it had been pregnant. I feel relieved that I killed it before it laid its stupid little children!
That was until I took in the thought that it could have already had its kids, and that was it's second batch of hell being nurtured.
OK So that was a TRUE story that just happened right now…well before I typed this to be correct, and the moral of this story is… that "REALITY is the cause of STRESS" waits that doesn't make sense. The moral is … to never be like Ronald Weasley and I YoflamRettopReverof, and be afraid of spiders…Ok-you know what, there is no FUCKING moral!
See a SPIDER and KILL it, so there is less to worry about!
Now on with the story!
(Not the spider story –It's finished)
Beta's Note - LMAO! You crack me up!
Now On with Chapter Ten!
"So are you ok with me fancying Malfoy?" Harry asked, almost scared of the answer.
"I don't think I would have been if I hadn't of read that letter, to be honest Harry, but in the end I would be happy with what ever your choice was, because I know you have good judgment."
"Thanks Hermione" Harry smiled gratefully.
"You're welcome, Harry"
The room some how went quiet after Hermione spoke her three final words of encouragement to Harry.
"So how can I help you?" Harry asked, breaking the silence.
"Well…" Hermione spoke silently.
"You know you can tell me anything, right Hermione?"
"Yes, I know Harry, just like you can tell me everything!"
Hermione finally got over her fear of asking for Harry's help on this situation. She explained in great detail about how she felt about both Ron, and Ginny Weasley. And she had shown Harry the letters she was receiving from Ginny. Hermione knew Harry was a homosexual, and Harry knew that Hermione was bisexual, because she only believed in one thing, and that was love. Hermione was the type of person who believed that it was not what was on the outside, but what was in. It didn't matter what colour of skin you had, or what type of blood, or what their sex was, she just believed in love. No matter how many of those obstacles there were, if you were in love, there was nothing you could do about it, but condemn it if you had wished.
After gradually explaining her feelings and explaining that no matter which one she chose, the one she loved, or the one she admired, someone was going to get hurt and she did not want that happening.
"So now it's my turn to ask, what do you think?"
"Well it's an easy answer Hermione."
"I'm sorry Harry, but I don't see how this could ever be an easy answer"
"What I mean is, that you have to choose what's in your heart Hermione. You have to choose the one you love."
"I was afraid you would say that."
"I'm sorry Hermione, but it's the truth. You have to be selfish for once in your life. You will just wind up hurting your self and the one you truly love if you don't just for once, be selfish. You can't help it if the one you only admire loves you. They will soon get over it if they come to realize that you only love one other person."
"Your right Harry, how could I have been so blind to see it before? I have to tell them the truth, although them being relatives will only make the situation more complex. Thank you Harry, thank you for making me realize what I have to do."
"You're welcome, Hermione. Good luck with your decision"
"Yes and good luck with what ever it is you are looking for Harry."
"Chat soon I hope?"
"You can count on it!" and with that the young woman was out of the boy's dormitory, and on her way to confess her true feelings to the one she loves. She went leaving Harry in his dark room of solitude, leaving him with his thoughts of Malfoy while he softly drifted into a deep and dreamless sleep.
To Be Continued…
Spoiler – Triangles unite, and a flaming desire is known…Hermione has chosen.
Authors Note – So how did you like the new chapter, although we had a pretty big interruption in it, "damn spiders" Any who… it was pretty long? No? Anyone agree that I seem to be on a roll here? And actually getting somewhere in this story! Please review GOOD or BAD! "P.S. please give suggestions on what should happen…you never know when my roll is going to stop!"
Beta's P.S. - OMG…Favourite chapter.