Sacrifice
I paced to and fro the room as if thinking. I was angry, very very angry. However, I thought, Who was I angry at? At Maiko? At Suguru? At Sakura?... or… at myself? "Darn it!" I growled… No one reacted... I sighed and glanced at them. Sakura is still in deep sleep. She hasn't wakened up since yesterday. Maiko is beside her, staring blankly outside the window. Suguru covered his face with his hands, mumbling 'what should we do?' all over again. I approached him, stomping in each step. He slowly up at me, "Sakuma-san?" "We have to talk," I said, my voice low and serious. He looked down and took a deep breath, "Hai." I instantly grabbed his arm, squeezing it hard and walked straight out of the room. I pulled him without caring whether he trips or falls. I saw Shuichi and Hiro running towards our direction. "Sakuma-san! Fujisaki!" Shuichi called, "What happened to Sakura?" "She's still sleeping," I coldly replied and walked past them. Of course I'm still dragging Suguru behind me. "Nanda aitsu?" Hiro wondered aloud. Shuichi shrugged in reply, Where are they going?
I let go of Suguru's arm when we were finally alone and outside the hospital. I gave him a death glare. "What is it, Sakuma-san?" he asked. I smirked, "Hn! What's wrong?" I repeated, "Don't act as if you don't know anything!" He avoided my eyes, "So it's about Sakura." I put my hand on my hips, "Of course it is!" I grabbed Suguru's blue and white striped collared shirt and pinned him to the wall, "Damn you! Sakura got an attack because of you!" His lonesome eyes turned into raging fire. He grabbed my hand and gripped it tightly, trying to break it, "It wasn't my fault that she got an attack! It was nobody's fault!" "But she's with you!" I said, pushing him harder against the wall. "None of us knows that she's sick!" he shouted back, "Not even you!" I was stunned, knowing that he was right. But still I can't accept it as his reason. I let go of him and started to walk away. "This time I'll let you go," I hissed, "But I'm not yet through with you."
All that she saw was light and then... Shuichi. "Sakura," he sighed heavily, "How're you feeling?" Not having enough strength, she whispered, "Nii-san? How did you know about this?" "Maiko told me everything," he replied, "You shouldn't have kept this as a secret from me." "Demo, Nii-san ga—" "Don't worry about my relationship with Yuki," he said, "We're fine." She looked away, refusing to see their worried faces. Hiro sighed, "Sakura-chan, everybody's worried of you." Shuichi squeezed Sakura's hand as if saying, We're here. There's nothing to be worried about. A tear rolled down her cheek, a mixture of emotions altogether.
"Arigatou... minna-san..."
Suguru quietly closed the door and walked through the halls of the hospital. So Sakura has awaken, he thought, That's great! Suddenly, he remembered something: ""Shindou Sakura-san has 50/50 chances of living," the doctor replied, "If we are going to transplant a heart and replace hers, she may have a chance to live..." He stopped dead to his tracks but then he had this idea, an idea which he could save the life of his best friend.
Noriko stared at me, It's been a whole day and I haven't seen him play with his pink bunny, "Nee, Ryu-chan. Is something wrong?" I glanced at her, "Nothing's wrong." Tohma entered the room with his trademark smile, "Konnichiwa." "Konnichiwa, Tohma," Noriko greeted back. "Huh? Ryuichi-san, why the long all over your face?" Tohma asked. I shook my head, "I'm not lonely." "It's written all over your face, Ryu-chan," Noriko added. I angrily slammed my hand on the table, "I TOLD YOU THAT I'M NOT!" They were stunned and said, "Hai?" in a squeaky voice. I blinked and lay my head on the table, "I'm sorry." "No it's okay," Tohma cleared his throat, "The set up is ready. They're waiting for us."
The cameras are on. Tohma and Noriko started to play the music I took a deep breath and sang...
Shikai wo nukadashita panorama no dimension
Kanpeki na gitai na tada fureru
Cheap na shokushu wa mitsu wo motomeru reaction
Tsumetakutemo hiwai na kimi ga mitai
The field of view excels the dimension of panorama
a perfect mimesis that can only tremble
a cheap touch where reaction is to look for secrets
you want to see them even if they are coldly obscene.
Nanairo ni moteasobu
waki-da-shita kairaku no umi
Kage ga fuchidoru game
kono sekai kara uchinuke
a sea of gushing pleasure
that alters the colors of the rainbow
that strikes into this world
adding shadows to the fringed game
Kiss shining
kodoku wo katashidori
Karamaru koukai ga kuu wo kiru
Make me shining
chirabaru kokoro no nagara
Mabushiku sugisaru kibou ni
Kiss shining,
imitating loneliness
Cutting into space with entwined regret
Make me shining,
fragments of my scattered heart
A radiance that surpasses hope.
Kiss shining
hitomi ni kichizukete
Toke dasu hanabira mo jamani naru
Kill me shining
irozuku shigeki no hate ni
Kagayaki hajimeta maborishi
Kiss shining,
we're kissing in my eyes
Melting away even the flower petals in our way
Kill me shining,
changing into the most exciting colors
That first shone in a vision.
Please don't cryin'
kodoku wo katashidori
Karamaru koukai ga kuu wo kiru
Make me shining
chirabaru kokoro no nagara
Mabushiku sugisaru kibou ni
Please don't cryin',
imitating loneliness
Cutting into space with entwined regret
Make me shining,
fragments of my heart
A radiance that surpasses hope
The live show ended after some interviews. "I'm going home," I told them, "I'm not feeling well." Not waiting and wanting for them to answer, I went straight out of the studio. "Did something happen to Ryuichi-san?" Tohma asked. "Hmm. Maybe he lost his Kumagorou," Noriko wondered. "Even if he lost it, he wouldn't be this lonely," Tohma explained, "He sang lame and his mind is wandering while we were doing the interview. Come to think of it, I haven't seen him with his girlfriend." "Girlfriend!" Noriko repeated. Tohma nodded, "Sou desu. Didn't you know?" She laughed (megumi style), "It's impossible for Ryu-chan to be interested in women," she paused, "But on second thought, maybe he does." Tohma rubbed his chin, "Hm... I wonder is something happened to their relationship." Noriko shrugged, "Saa ne."
Hiro snapped, "Yo Fujisaki. We're about to start." Suguru slowly nodded, "Yeah sure." He put his hand on his hip, "I said we're about to start!" "Wha-! Oh yeah. Start...," he laughed, "Start what?" Hiro sighed, "I would understand if Shuichi is slacking off but you in his place? It doesn't seem right." Out of nowhere, K appeared and immediately painted his Magnum at Suguru, "Let me hear what you have to say. Spill it. What's bothering you?" Suguru forced himself to smile, "It's nothing really." "At the count of ten, I'll shoot if you don't give me a valid reason," K exclaimed. "I told you it's nothing," Suguru insisted. "8...7...6...5...," K counted. Suguru tried to think of anything just to get away from the American but his mind remembers the vision of Sakura. Her pale face, her sickness and still in deep sleep. "All right! All right!" he surrendered, "It's about Sakura!" "Sakura?" K repeated, "You mean Shindou Sakura?" He nodded, "Are you happy now?" No one replied, neither K nor Hiro have the courage to speak. They knew about Sakura's condition, how much her life is at stake. "I...," Suguru broke the silence, "I'll save her." Hiro looked at him, "How? I know it's really hard to accept the truth but she's—" "I'll donate my heart to her," he interrupted, "I'll undergo the operation." Hiro's eyes widened, "Wha-! Fujisaki, you'll die if you did that." Suguru smiled, "But I'd rather die for her than watch her die and do nothing," he sighed, "It's my way of thanking her for giving me a reason to smile."
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Translations:
Arigatou
Thank you
-chan
Honorific. Can be used either as a diminutive (e.g., with a small child—"Little Sasuke"), or with those who are grown, to indicate affection ("My dear").
Demo, Nii-san (ga)--
But, Big Brother (subject marker)--
Hai
Yes
Konnichiwa
Hello
Minna-san
Everyone
Nanda aitsu?
What's wrong with him?
Nee
Hey
Nii-san
Elder brother
Saa ne
I don't know
-san
Honorific. Carries the meaning of "Mr.," "Ms.," "Miss," etc., but used extensively in Japanese than its English equivalent.
Sou desu
That's right