A/N: Hey guys thanks for all the wonderful replies! Love it! Anyways here is chapter 10...enjoy. And yes people I do kiss my guy friends on the mouth. As weird as it may sound. Enjoy and let me know!

Chapter 10

"Nathan...what are you doing here?" Haley asked self consciously.

"I'm looking for you." Nathan said with a poker face. It scared Haley because suddenly she couldn't read his emotions anymore.

"Well...you found me." she tried to joke but it came out sounding strained.

"Yeah I did...right where I thought you would be." he replied.

"Nathan...you're scaring me..." Haley said as she took a step back, trying to back away from him. But Nathan stepped forward and grabbed her arm.

"Nathan...you're hurting me..." Haley cried as Nathan's grip on her arm tightened.

"Me hurt you? I think you got it the wrong way around." Nathan said as his voice rose.

"How did I hurt you?" Haley asked through sobs...Nathan was scaring her.

"You cheated on me Haley! With my own brother!" Nathan yelled.

"No...no I never did!" Haley screamed through her crying.

"Stop lying!" Nathan yelled.

"Let go of her arm Nathan." Lucas said as he walked up behind him.

"leave Lucas...this isn't your fight." Nathan said but let go of Haley's arm...he wasn't stupid...Lucas was stronger than he was.

"According to you it is." Lucas said calmly.

"Fine...if you two lovers want to fight lets fight." Nathan said cockily.

"Nate, we are not having an affair...we are not lovers and you are the only one that wants to fight." Lucas said softly.

"You were before the accident." Nathan yelled.

"That's not true Nathan...Haley said through her sobs.

"I saw you two kissing on the porch not five minutes ago!" Nathan yelled.

"You act like you never kissed a friend before...you kissed Peyton and Brooke on the mouth before." Lucas said calmly but he felt the anger inside of him start to rise.

"You were always together!" Nathan yelled and Lucas felt himself lose control...and suddenly his control was gone.

"It was because of you! Because how you changed after Deb's death (A/N: If I haven't said it...Deb died about a year before Haley's accident.). Haley came to me because you were yelling at her and you suspected her of cheating. You weren't the man she loved anymore...you weren't the brother I knew. God Nathan how could you ever think we'd do that to you? How could you think she would do that to you when she was pregnant with your child!" Lucas yelled and then realised what he had done...what he had said.

"What?" Nathan asked confused.

"Lucas!" Haley yelled in surprise.

"I'm sorry Haley it slipped out...but I think Nathan has the right to know."

"You were pregnant and you didn't tell me?" Nathan asked as realisation hit him.

"I wanted to...I was about to when the car hit us." Haley explained.

"You remember that?" Nathan asked as tears came to his eyes.

"My memory is starting to come back." Haley said and Lucas left the couple to be alone.

Nathan slowly slid down and sat on the floor. Haley sat down next to him, took his hand in hers and intertwined their fingers.

"You should have told me about the baby..." Nathan said but was interrupted by Haley.

"Would you have believed it was yours?"

"Probably not. I'm sorry for changing. I'm sorry that I hurt you." Nathan said and Haley looked up at him and Nathan returned her gaze. His eyes were filled with tears and suddenly Haley knew that the real Nathan was back.

"I'm sorry we never got to see our baby." Haley said and Nathan broke down in Haley's arms. Nathan layed his head in her lap and they spent the next half and hour together, mourning the loss of a child.

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Haley made her way into the apartment hours later. Nathan had left before her. When she got inside she found herself in pitch black darkness and when she turned on the light she found a small note on the counter. As she read it her heart sank.

Dear Haley

When you get this I'll be long gone. Don't try and look for me. Please understand why I am doing this...when we got married I promised you and myself that I would never hurt you. That I would always protect you...and I did that successfully for years till my mothers death. Maybe I wasn't honest with myself...I didn't allow myself to mourn the loss of my mom. So I guess I directed all my pent up anger at you. I made myself easily open to lies – which is probably what got us here, in all this mess. Then after the accident I realised I loved you deeply so I pushed aside all my emotions and concentrated on you. I taught myself how not to show signs of love. But in the end those emotions came back to bite me in the ass. I turned back into my old self – the complete and utter jackass. But having Lucas confront me was the best thing he could do because I realised who I had turned into...Dan. But Haley understand that it's half the reason why I'm going. The other reason is because of our child. I need to do this Hales...I need time to mourn. I don't know how long I'll be gone...as long as it takes to properly mourn my mom and child. But I'll come back for you Haley. I love you with all my heart. I will come back for you someday.

Nathan

Haley sank to the ground as she re-read Nathan's letter. She was sad but she knew he had to do it...or they would never be happy. But she didn't even try to stop the tears that were running down her cheeks.

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Miles away Nathan sat in his car, crying. It was time for him to let go. But somehow it hurt more to leave Haley.