Is it me? Is it you?

Nothing that I can do

To make you change your mind

"What was so special about Jake that you could let him in, but not me?" Lucas asked with a sad stare. "Why wasn't I good enough?" he continued as tears continued to fall down his cheeks and onto the floor.

Peyton's sobs grew even heavier at the last question. She stood up slowly onto her shaky feet, but soon realized that they would not hold her, so she sat down on the bed and looked up at his now shameful eyes. She hated that he felt that way, that wasn't it at all.

She took a deep breath, and shook her head no. "Jake didn't get in my heart, Luke." she said as she began to fiddle with her thumbs. "I.. I thought I loved Jake, but I couldn't. There was nothing left to give. You stole my heart a long time ago." she said softly not taking her eyes away from the cycling thumbs.

Lucas stared at her, waiting for her to explain. Realizing that his feet were probably going to give out with the further explanation, he made his way to the bed, and sat down beside her, still keeping a short distance between himself and her.

Is it me? Is it you?

Nothing that I can do

Is it a waste of time?

"I went and saw Jake a week or two after we all went to the cabin." Peyton began hesitantly, not sure how much detail she wanted to give Lucas. He didn't tell her about his sex life with Brooke, there was no need for him to know hers. She didn't want to tell him she proposed to Jake, but it was important to the story,

Lucas nodded so that she would continue while trying to brace himself for information he was certain he wasn' t going to be happy about.

"It was great!" she finally continued. He was the same Jake that he was when he lived here, except maybe happier." Lucas gave a small smile. Despite his jealousy of Jake and Peyton's relationship, he was glad to hear that Jake was alright. He was the first guy on the team to even be somewhat nice to him.Unfortunately he knew that there was more to the story than that Jake was happy.

"I even got to spend a whole day with Jenny. She's gotten so big!" Peyton said as a smile crept onto her face despite the tears. "The night before I left, she called me mama, and I.." she looked down at her hands that were now rubbing her legs.

"and you what, Peyton?" Lucas asked dreading the answer.

"I asked Jake to marry me." Despite his legs better judgement, Lucas stood from the bed and walked over to the wall to place his forehead against it. He was expecting her to say a lot of things, but that was not one of them. It definately did not help her case that she didn't love him.

Peyton watched him struggle to keep his balance against the wall, and was slightly envious. She wanted to get out of this room so badly, but her legs would not allow her to move.

"Why are you telling me this Peyton?" he whispered into the wall loud enough for her to hear.

"I.. I have a point. I promise, Luke." she replied as another wave of sobs continued to rack her body. It was bad enough that Jake had heard her say it, but she wasn't sure how to tell Lucas, the man of her dreams, what happened.

Lucas turned around to face her leaning his back against the ghostly white walls. He suddenly felt like he didn't know the girl before him, and that scared him. Maybe he never knew her at all.

"That night, I guess he'd gotten up to check on Jenny." Peyton said before she swallowed hard trying to get rid of the growing lump in her throat. "When I woke up the next morning, he was very distant and I didn't understand what was wrong. I just wanted to be happy, Luke. So badly. I'd lost you to my best friend, and my best friend to you. He informed me that I talked in my sleep." she said with a small laugh at the significance of that little comment.

Lucas's face carried a small smile also remembering the many nights he'd woken up to her mumbling one thing or another in her sleep last summer. He'd never said anything about it so she wouldn't be embarrased, besides he thought it was cute.

"Turns out.." she stated finally looking him in the eye again. "I said I love.."

After a few moments of silence, and Lucas's eyes not wavering from hers, she attempted again. " I said I love you, Luke."