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Authors note: Well this came out of nowhere. Some new stories will be added and soon because I've been writing a lot but I hate to type so please forgive me. I hope you like this. HXK from Hiei's POV...well I don't know it's hard to write from Hiei's POV. The next chapter will be from Kurama's POV and will be more understandable because Kurama understands the situation more.
I'm coming out of my cage...
Hiei looked up from what he was reading. Yusuke's stare penetrated his head.
"Yes?" Not really a question more of a demand.
"Are you gay?"
"Yes...and?"
"Really?" Yusuke sounded really surprised.
"What?"
"Well, when the girls told me I was shocked."
"So was I"
...and I've been doing just fine...
"What?"
"When the girls told me I was gay...I didn't know humans had a word for it...I mean isn't it natural...Why have a word like that?"
"Well...umm it's really not that common, really it's more common to be straight."
...Gotta gotta be down...
"Straight, huh?"
"What...do you know what that is?"
"Yes."
"Well?"
"What does it matter? What's the difference?"
...Because I want it all...
"So how'd you find out?"
"Find out what?"
"That you're gay."
"The girls told me I told you that."
"No, I mean how do you know you like guys."
"It happened."
"What? you just knew that's it?"
"I wasn't sure what I wanted."
"Then what."
"I learned."
...It started out with a kiss...
Flashback:
"Hiei?" Kurama spoke to the dark. I stood up and walked to him, he had called.
"Kurama." My voice is cold.
"Is there something you wanted?" I looked about his room, and then looked at him sprawled over his bed. His soft red hair laying in tendrils across his back. He had sat up a look of concern filling his features.
I walked toward him. He looked at me curiosity and dread replacing his initial worry. I leaned in and kissed him. His soft lips pushed back into mine gently.
...How did it end up like this...
He pulled me into him and I felt our bodies begin to mingle. His legs entangled with mine. He murmured into my lips. He seemed to relish my rough embrace. He pulled back and gazed at me, his eyes full of longing. I pulled him forward once again and he plunged his tongue down into my mouth.
...It was only a kiss...
Our gentle first kiss, repeated every time we met. This should be nothing.
...It was only a kiss...
I sit in a tree waiting for him to return from school. He has to go through this park. I look over the edge. He wasn't late. He was right on time, yes I could see him perfectly down from the trees. I could see him walking hand in hand with a girl I'd never seen before. She reached out and kissed him. He even looked sad as she left. That's what I saw. She could have been anybody and I didn't get mad. I didn't even tell him I saw. I just arrived at his house later so he could be close to me again.
...now I'm falling asleep...
His arms snaked around me. My eyes began to flit closed. I wanted to leave. He was so soft. I couldn't move away.
...and she's calling a cab...
I woke up alone.
...and he's having a smoke...
Some cigarettes lay on his bedside table. I lit one up in the dark letting the smoke drift dreamily out of my hands.
...And she's taking a drag...
Where he went I don't know but I can guess. He loved that girl. He had gone to her. I took a long drag, and watched the smoke curl.
"Yeah you wont guess, Kurama...I found out what I want."
...Now their going to bed...
Did he touch her like he does to me, love me the way he loves her? Do their hands entwine? Not that it matters.
...and my stomach is sick...
I should stop thinking about useless things.
...And it's all in my head...
He could be anywhere it's not like I take up all his time. However, I can still see him the way he was with me, only alone. without me. Anything but alone.
...but she's touching his----chest...
Does she do the things he does to me. How many has he loved before? Why won't he tell me? Not even about her? It's not like I would be upset.
...Now he takes off her dress...
How far does he go? I mean she's a girl so less than with me, right? I'm lower risk even if I could get pregnant it's not like I'd stay around. He's probably just dating her for reputation...Why so late at night then? Even after me? I mean I know he has stamina, but...
End Flashback
...Now let me go...
"Yeah Yusuke it just sort of hit me you know."
"Wow I thought you would say you fell in love or at least experimented. you know something more fun."
"No I just sort of knew."
...And I just can't look, it's killing me...
More flashback:
What really shocked me was when he told me he didn't love her. He said he didn't love anyone that way.
...and taking control...
Then I saw him with someone else, and it seemed like he was always with someone and he always left right after me. I'm never awake. I don't ever know what he looks like.
...Jealousy...
He became even more withdrawn. There isn't any hold I have on him. I get the feeling I'm just something extra in his day.
...turning saints into the sea...
He told me he has clients and I can't work him too hard. I asked him what he meant and he said that he had to think of his job. He sells himself. I'm freebie because we're friends. No one else knows.
...Swimming through sick lullabies...
He wont leave until he thinks I'm asleep but I can't fall asleep at all anymore.
...choking on your alibis...
He wont even touch me much anymore. He leaves and told me I should leave him alone for awhile work was becoming hard.
...but it's just the price I pay...
I stop going. He doesn't want me around. I'll keep his secret till I die. I go to the Makkai. No one would even care if I told them there. I belong here. Everyone knows who I am and to stay away.
...Destiny is calling me...
I will steal all those things I've been putting off. I fight nonstop. This is perfect just how I like it. Meaningless bloodshed from morning till dusk.
...Open up my eager eyes...
I feel the blood running down my hands. Hot red blood twining between my fingers. A hot passion. A memory of entwinement.
...Cause I'm Mr. Brightside...
I smile at the adversary. Nameless foes slaughtered in the dark. I don't even wonder who the are who they could be. I don't wonder if they even know what love is. It wouldn't surprise me if they didn't. I certainly don't. Not that it matters. My smile widens this might even be hard this time. I look at the army rushing me.
"Hn." Keep yourself free enough to fight. Escape the cage that binds you. I'm held by nothing.