Authors note: reminder this is now in kurama's POV. I'm really proud of this even though I had no idea where this story is going. I really didn't expect here I can tell you that. More at the end
Coming out of my cage...
"Oh Kurama!" She squealed.
"I can't do this."
"What?" Said Bran and the girl both.
"No, I wont do another fan girl I just can't let me go home Bran."
Bran smiled, "Is something waiting for you?"
"No. Nothing."
"It's not nice to call your mother nothing."
"Leave her out of it." Anger slid into his voice.
"I'd love to but you keep bringing home to the workplace, Kurama"
"I.."
"I also doubt very much that your mother is why you are disobeying me now."
"I'm fine."Kurama began "Come with me."
"Forget it." she spoke clearly "And I want a refund, I don't like being called a fangirl." She spit toward Kurama.
"Of course madam" Bran spoke up all polite. "Whatever you wish."
and I've been doing just fine...
"I'm fine Hiei, fine. So stop asking."
"I only asked once Fox." His voice came gruffly
I looked at him "I had to answer you yesterday and the day before." I slumped.
"Kurama, What is wrong with you?"
"I'm fine..."
"I'm fine I tell you."
"That's nice, Kurama but your getting less popular and more complaints are coming in and the people who are satisfied are well..."
I look up confused, "What?"
"Well they're being pleased differently than you usual style." Bran continued. "You need to get happier and less exotic."
Gotta gotta be down because I want it all...
Hiei's soft lips were all I needed his hands roaming over me, Relax he says to me just letting me sleep beside him never asking for anything.
His body gets heated can feel it. He doesn't know. How can I tell him. I let him. I start to cry and he asks me why when I tell him he just accepts it. Oh forbidden child please think of yourself.
It started out with a kiss...
The first time he kissed me it felt heaven.
How did it end up like this...
Every time he touches me I feel like I'm betraying or being betrayed. My mother doesn't know, my friends don't know, my boss doesn't know. I'm gay. and the only person I can't stand to sleep with is the only person I love. But every night I'm with him.
It was only a kiss...
I remember the first time he kissed me. It couldn't have happened at a better time. Just when I was thinking my life couldn't possibly get any worse he came in. It was almost as though he could feel I needed the change. Needed him beside me. So I could be strong, but I'm reading too much into it.
It was only a kiss...
I knew she was a nice person but I was so disgusted. Her lips were coved with strawberry lipgloss but when I pushed my own against them I really could only think of plums. Putrid, rotting, squishy and strawberry glazed plums. Her body was drenched in fragrance as if every inch was covered in it's own unique smell. Her hair was dried out from all the hard work she put into making it right. Every bit of her felt so fake. A forty year old woman trying to live out a dream she had when she was twelve.
Most of all I realized just how fake this kiss was. How I was supposed to make her feel good when all I could think about was how much I couldn't stand her. How much I would rather have someone who felt real. How much I would love to have someone I liked, respected...someone I love.
Now I'm falling asleep..
I can't lift my head from the pillow. I can't move from this place. I have never been 'tested' before. My boss wouldn't have liked his goods damaged. My whole body aches now and I realize he made more off this then he has made for months of me. Those men really were more my style...brutal. I can feel myself smile despite myself. They are nothing like him...he's worse.
And she's calling a cab...
He left me when I told him to go.
And he's havin a smoke...
I realize that the cigarettes I had found in my pocket, probably from boss had been moved someone had smoked them. Hiei? I couldn't believe it. There was no one else who had been in my room but there was just no possible way. Smoking was a stupid human thing. It was self-destructive, there was no way in hell he would intentionally harm himself. That was a human thing. He could lose some of his awesome fighting skills... Why would he do something that couldn't even manage to enjoy.
And she's taking a drag...
Overcome with new curiosity he had to reach out to the box...had to light one. Then he stopped and just stared at it. He couldn't lift it to his lips couldn't let himself have the good feeling he knew it would bring couldn't do more than watch the smoke curl into the air.
And their going to bed...
I feel her hand twinging in mine and I wish I could escape this but somehow, I know this isn't bad this is fine. I can make her scream. I can make her happy. She is smiling at me. I smile back sensually and crawl toward her. I do just fine, I don't have any flashes of him. I don't wish he was there I just let her hands trace over me soft and gentle.
And my stomach is sick...
Much later I feel it like all my worries rise in the bile as I let it all go. As I cleanse myself of her and leave only me left. I try so hard and all I want is this release. This is the greatest freedom. The greatest amount of control no one else could make me stop. They could make me eat, they could make me fulfill others desires with no thought to my own, but no one can keep me from this. Here in this bathroom I can flush my worries.
"What are you doing Shuichi?"My mother's voice.
"Nothing" I manage to choke out between dry heaves.
I hear her footsteps as she walks down the hallway away from me.
And it's all in my head...
I feel a bit of pride when I realize I didn't need to push my finger down my throat. I can do it without even that now. I am in control of my own body.
But she's touching his chest...
I can't control it. I love how she sounds how soft she feels. I know she isn't what I love but I still want this, this release, this feeling of ecstacy. I love the desperate passion in her eyes all she wants is me. She is here so easy. I can tease her, make her squirm, and not worry about it. All I need is this for now. Why was this hard what makes this wrong.
Now he takes off her dress...
I let my hands slip all over her, She smiles in longing. I feel her body shudder and soon I am reacting in like.
"Keiko!" She screams as she arcs.
"Hiei!" I call after her. I fall forward and lay there totally limp in her arms.
I look up at her and wipe the tears from her face as tremors of sadness rush through her. She looks up at me and I don't even notice the tears falling from my own emerald eyes.
Now let me go...
My eyes met my boss's for only a second. His intense stare caused me to look down. My spirit hadn't been broken yet. I cursed him. I would make him sorry for holding my mother above my head.
He walked into my home eyes upward his very aura showing confidence, like he owned the place.
Cause I just can't look it's killing me...
My mother's lips pressed lightly over his.
"What's for dinner, Shori?" He asked sweetly wrapping his arms around her waist. I looked away. Unable to take it any more. I wanted to rush to the bathroom right now and purge myself of that man and my job and the lies.
And taking control...
I feel my grip tighten on the cold handle.
Jealousy...
That look Hiei had had in his eyes. Did he love me the way I loved him? Was this really love? My unwillingness to be with him alone, my love for my mother and the terrible hatred I felt for 'him'. 'He' had stolen everything from me I couldn't be who I wanted to be. I had no choice.
Turning saints into the sea...
A dark look crossed my features and I smiled. He was leaving. He thought he could come here and use my mom like a whore, then leave and go back to his business. Like hell he loved her. He makes her so happy. I waver for just a second the old indecision returning again. Am I being selfish? Before I had a chance to think another word he was out the door. I sat on the roof above him. My eyes shined darkly.
Swimming through sick lullabies...
"Go to sleep, my little one it's alright, no other monster will visit you tonight, this is how I'll show my love, dripping in your happiness, I never asked for something like this, but I'm so happy I've earned your kiss, Even though you tried so hard, I'll be there for you for now, Go to sleep, my little one it's alright, no other monster will visit you tonight, Daddy say's it will be alright." I quoted to him. My eyes narrowed, He looked up shocked to hear the words he had once sung to me, the first time I learned what my job was.
"Hi, Daddy." I said softly, the sarcasm pooling in my eyes.
Choking on your alibis...
He didn't know, until now, that I could be a threat. He didn't know who he was dealing with. He didn't even know I was a demon, and now he was below me pleading because he knows one truth that has never happened before. My mother wasn't here now...it was just us two.
But, it's just the price I pay...
I leap down toward him. My hands caressing the sheath. I look up at him with eyes he has never seen before. I'll only use this.
I walked up to him.
Destiny is calling me...
His blood trickled down the sheath. I held him in an embrace that would take his life. This careful man who had never let his guard down, who had though me to be a broken human now slumped as if satisfied. He felt like the bodies of women who's tears of sadness or joy I would wipe equally from their eyes. I did not wipe his tears I watched as his face relaxed I let his body slump. I lifted the black sheath from him. The sheath was currently sheathed inside him. Hmmm...
Open up my eager eyes...
I looked up at the sky and smiled letting myself laugh just a little, for the first time in months.
Cause I'm Mr. brightside...
Blood ran down my front. I stood up and walked back in the house to change clothes the next morning it was reported that he had disappeared mysteriously and the authorities searched for years.
Somewhere in the Makkai however some sweet thing is no longer hungry.
I never...
I left a rose on a grave. My mother's tears reminding me that I was selfish.
I never...
I quit my job.
I never...
Keiko was found making out with a girl at school, yusuke was shocked.
I never...
I stood in the Makkai after what has felt like forever. I pick my way over the corpses and look up to see my destination. I lifted the package I was carrying. I handed it out to the demon in front of me. He took a hold of the long sheath. My eyes sparkled at Hiei, when he smirked.
"Did you miss it?" Kurama asked confidently.
"Haven't felt tempted to sheath my sword, it's been tasting blood." Hiei smugly replied.
"So has your sheath." Kurama stated.
"All the more reason for the sheath to belong to the sword. Similar tastes."
"Did you miss it?" Kurama asked again.
Hiei just smiled and shifted his hand on the sheath still held between us. Each of us holding on to an end.
End
Hey reviewers-can you guess who Keiko gets with? I will be posting a sequal if you want to know more. Also just a note the 'father/boss' is really kurama's stepdad. In case you were curious. Preety heavy stuff I know but hey...If you liked it or even if you didn't please give me a review.,