Title: Six Months
Author: The Tay-anator
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Let my heart go
Let your son grow
Mama, let my heart go
Let this heart beat still
Never I ask of you
But never I gave
But you gave me your emptiness
And a key to my grave
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It's been six months since I lost the love of my life. She was perfect in every way. Everything I could have ever wanted. Sometimes I felt I didn't deserve her because of all my lies, my pretending. She deserved someone who would, could tell her the truth. Someone who'd truely give her his all without hesitation. Her death simply proved me right.
I've been on the road for six months. I sitll have secrets, ones I wouldn't even tell my brother. Especially my brother. He thinks I'm the good one, the one that deserved the best. Even though I'm the lier and he's the honest one. Yes, he lies to others but not to me. I, I lie to everyone. Even him. The one person all my trust should be given to. He too deserves better than me.
For the past six months I've been dreaming of terrible things. Things that come true. He doesn't know it. I can't tell him. It would be like his little brother was becoming one of the things that we hunt. He would be ashamed and so would our father.
For the last six months I've been slowly dying inside. That's something not even my big brother can save me from.