Yay! a n00 fic series! let us all rejoice!
Disclaimer: I own nothing. Rachel is a combination of a girl in my science class and my Mum..
/Ryou…./
Shut up…
/Ryou, Tenshi, why are you crying/
I'm upset…
/Why/
Why? WHY! Because I hate my life…
/Oh, hush, its not so bad.../
((crying)) I hate you.
/Oh, Ryou, don't hate me. Who else is there/
My father….
/Stop fooling yourself, he hates you. Amane was his favorite/
((sobs)) You've been watching my memories again, haven't you?
/You won't tell me anything…/
It's only taken you a few short months to ruin my life, you know?
/Your life was already a mess. I made you, Hikari/
((crying)) Why won't you just leave me alone?
/your never alone… not anymore…/
You can't do this….
/sure/
((An ivory hand stroked a lock of silvery hair)) Don't TOUCH me- Ow! ((screams))
/Don't disobey me, Ryou…/
((sobs)) Please just leave me alone….
/Don't cry Ryou…/
((whispers)) You can't do this… I don't deserve this... I'm only nine… ((gasps)) Please don't do that….
/Your pathetic, Ryou, cant even handle a little bit of pain…/
Yami… I'm sorry, don't be mad, please... Come back! ((sobs)) Please come back…
Yami…
The nine-year-old slumped alone on the floor of his soul room, miserably playing with a small teddy bear he found, tears coursing down his ivory cheeks.
"Please…." He whispered, wrapping his arms around his trembling form. "I don't want to be alone…" he lay down in a miserably huddle, gazing at the wide-open door.
"Please.. Daddy says hes going to take me to a doctor…" The child whispered, his warm chocolate eyes looking down in defeat.
"I'm sorry…. Yami.. I don't want to do this alone.. I think Daddys scared, he doesn't understand you. You can help me, Yami?" He felt tears gather in the corner of his chestnut eyes but refused to let them fall. "I don't want to go to a special doctor…"
"Yami?"
"Ryou?" The small boy ignored his father, an unreadable expression on his face.
"Ryou, I'm sorry, But you have to go here... I'm getting worried about you…"
Silence.
"Ryou, answer me!" The small boy flinched, and swallowed.
"I-I'm sorry Daddy…" He closed his eyes. "But why don't you believe me?"
"Ryou… This 'Yami' Character.. He isn't real. Hes just made up."
"No…" Ryou closed his eyes, clutching his head in his hands. "I-I didn't make him up, He IS real! He IS!" Ryou began sobbing. "Y-you just d-don't understand…" He swallowed, tears of hopelessness coursing down his ivory cheeks. "You're scared…"
His father just looked ahead at the road, his hands gripping the steering wheel until they were almost white.
"Say you're not scared…" He whispered, hastily wiping his tears away with the back of his hand.
"We're here." His father said shortly, stopping the car and getting out. Ryou obediently followed, keeping his head low.
/I don't like this…/
/You brought it upon yourself, Yadonushi…/
Please don't…/
"Ryou." His fathers voice broke him out of his thoughts. "Sit down." Ryou nodded, sitting on a hard chair in an overly-cheerful waiting room.
/Yami/
/What the hell is it, you runt/
/I-I'm scared…/
/and what do you want me to do about it? You got yourself in this mess, you get out of it yourself./
Yami, please, help…/
But he got reply. The small angel bowed his head, feeling fresh tears fill his eyes again. He just wanted to run away... He didn't want to do this…
"Ryou Bakura?" A pretty woman with short red hair and green eyes framed by glasses came in, reading his name off a clipboard. Ryou swallowed, and got off the chair, walking into the office, his father following.
/Yami…/
/Stop your crying, Or I'll make you pay later/
The small boy sniffed, looking down at his knees. He didn't listen to what the woman was saying, but after a while. He realized his father had left.
"Ryou…" The woman said. "My name is Rachel, and.. I understand, you have some problems. You're fathers scared, and it sounds like a big worry…"
"I'm scared, too…" He whispered, feeling fresh tears sting the back of his eyes. "I just want him to go away, but... I don't want to be alone…" He let out a long breath. "What do I do?" He swallowed.
"Who is this 'him.' You are talking about, Ryou?" She asked, a frown forming on her face.
"Yami…" The small boy whispered, finally lifting his head and looking straight into the child therapist, with eyes that reminded Rachel of a deer.
"Who?" She asked, more than a little confused.
"I-I don't know his real name… He never tells me, but hes always there, and he talks to me as well…" Ryou gulped. "A-and he yells at me when I do things wrong… he's always calling me weak and pitiful…." He let out a sob. "It's so scary.. I just want out… I hate what he does.."
Rachel was fascinated, as she leaned forward. "What does he do, Ryou?"
That night, Ryou was sitting up alone in bed. Well, not exactly alone, the ring was there, but that was it. He wore nothing but his pajama bottoms, the Millennium clasped in his ivory fingers, the moon shining through the window, lighting his fair skin and hair.
/Well, whats up with Ryou/
/…/
/ Oh, not talking? Whats wrong/
/Rachel said you're not real. She said that I made you up to cope with Mummy and Amane dying…/
/Oh, Ryou, that's not true. I AM real. I exist. You didn't create me, and you're not crazy…./
/…/
/Fine, Ryou, but I'll PROVE to you I exist./
Ryou froze, tears trickling down his face, as he lay down on his small bed, and placed the millennium ring back on around his neck, stroking it gently as he he rolled over onto his side, The Ring laying on the sheets. Ryous tears, with were still leaking out of his eyes, trickled down his cheek, hitting the Millennium Ring.
The next morning, Ryou woke up in pain. He gasped, blinking away tears. His shoulder…. It hurt… He touched it, and gasped in shock. A long cut was across his shoulder, still bleeding.
/still think I don't exist/
I HATE you…/
/I hate you too, Ryou. You're pathetic and weak, and I cant believe I have to share a body with you/
Ryou closed his eyes against the verbal assault, and began to sob. If his darkness kept this up, Ryou WOULD go crazy…
"Ryou?" Rachel looked, slightly concerned at the small boy, who wouldn't respond to her, instead, just kept rubbing his thin shoulder. It scared the therapist to no end.
"Ryou, did you hurt yourself?' She asked, slightly concerned. Ryous head instantly snapped up, and his eyes welled up with tears.
"No!' He shook his head. "It wasn't me, I-I" The small child broke down, giving into his heart wrenching sobs. The therapists eyes softened on pity for the small boy. He was clearly very unbalanced, to suffer such mood swings. She stood up, walking around the desk and over to his chair, crouching down so they were eye-level.
"Ryou… How did your shoulder get hurt?' She asked softly. Ryou swallowed, and let out a long, shuddering breath.
"Yami did it... When I was sleeping…" Ryou closed his eyes, fresh tracks of tears running down. "I hate him…"
Rachel frowned. "What do you mean… he did it when you were sleeping?"
Ryou swallowed. "Well, He-he takes control, sometimes… and…" He broke off, sobbing.
"I-I always wake up in the weirdest places…" He whispered, a hand instinctively clutching at the ring under his shirt. "and sometimes I have blood all over… but its not mine…" Ryou looked at his knees, his shoulders shaking with silent sobs. Rachel's eyes widened, as she gazed at the boy.
"Can I see him?" She asked softly. Ryou froze, and slowly, his silvery head drifted up.
"I-I-" The small child didn't know what to say.
/Yami/
/Tch, whatever. You do know she isn't going to believe you, right/
She will, Rachel is different…/
The spirit rolled his eyes, and took charge.
Ryou looked distastefully at the small bottle of pills on the bench. "Dad…" He whispered.
His father sighed, extracting two from the small glass container, and pressing them into his palm, along with a glass of water.
'I don't need to take these…" He whispered, his doe brown eyes filling with tears.
"Ryou…" His father said threateningly. Ryou shook his head.
"I'm not crazy…" He whispered. His father merely grunted. Ryou swallowed, and defeated, placed them in his mouth, and swallowed them along with water. He closed his eyes, two fresh tears tracks running down his face as he sobbed.
"I'm not crazy…"
/No, Ryou, You're just possessed. That's much, much worse/
Wo0ht!
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