A/N: This is absolute trash. Sorry, but I miss the show so much, I just had to write. : ) Reviews are nice.
PHANTOM TRAVELER:
"I could do this one alone…"
You've got to be freaking kidding me Sam. If there is one thing I fear more than airplanes, it's losing you.
Bite the bullet, Deanio because little Sammy ain't backin' down from this one.
So instead of pitching a fit and dragging you back to the Impala I got on that plane. Not for those passengers. But for you, Sam.
I faced my fear for you, because you needed me. And when the day comes that you don't need me anymore, will I still face them?
I hope I never have to know the answer to that question.
I hope the day that you don't need me anymore never comes. Because that's all I know, Sammy. All I know is taking care of you, that's what I've always done best.
When you left, I didn't know how to handle it for a long time. I lost focus on hunts because I didn't have my worry for you keeping me sharp and on my toes.
I didn't have you breathing on my neck, warning me when one pair of eyes just wasn't good enough.
And when the time came that even my and Dad's eyes weren't good enough, and I fell… my last conscious thought was of you. I was glad you weren't there to see me. Even when I'm dying Sammy I worry about you.
So how could you even think that I'd let you go alone? How could even suggest it? I just got you back Sam, I'm not going to risk losing you again.
I know I annoy you, Sammy. But if the roles were reversed and Dad had given me to you that night, what would you do? It's pointless to ask, you can't know unless you've lived it for twenty two years.
For twenty two years you were mine to take care of.
And this isn't me not having faith in you, I know you could do this one without me. I know you could.
This is me being your big brother.
And get used to it, kiddo.
Because I'm not ever gunna stop.
"I'll take the window seat, so you don't have to be too scared." Sam said with a smile. I groaned. He was never going to let me live this one down.
"How about you shut your mouth before I make you."
"Relax Dean." He laughed.
I'll relax the day I know you're safe.