Okay guys I'm posting chapter two of this story but if I don't get more reviews this time then I'm gonna take it down because I'm trying really hard to make this one good. So please review once you read it even if you hate it but give a reason and if you have any ideas then please let me know. And I own no one in the story ewxcept the people you don't recognise. and I don't own the songs used.

CHAPTER 2/SCARED.

At night I hear it creeping

At night I feel it move

I'll never sleep here anymore.

"Scared"-Three Days Grace.

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Kenny had called Emma back and said he wanted to go out with her that weekend. They had done the normal datre,a moive and then jsut getting to know each other. As time went on they developed a realtionship and Emma felt more at ease with him, she hadn't felt that in a long time, the only other time she felt that was with Jay. And that was startign to annoy her, her mind kept going back to Jay. She would catch him looking at her and she would find her self doing the same thing. She would never admit it but she missed him, and she knew he missed her. But she had Kenny and she was happy with him, so why did her mind keep going back to Jay. She wanted clouser that's what she kept tellign herself and once she got it he would leave her mind, and she was going to get it. That night he wasn't at the ravine anymore so she was going to his house to wee him.

Later that night when her parents were out, she left her house to go talk to Jay. When Kenny had called and asked to see her that night she told him she had to study, she knew Kenny and Jay weren't the greatest friends so she didn't want to upset him. Emma stood on Jay's door step shaking she was scared to be there for some reason.'Maybe because we haven't spoken in awhile.' she thought as she knocked on the door. After a few minutes Jay answered the door in a pair of pajama pants riding low on his hips and no shirt on. Emma had to tear her eyes away form his bare chest, adn looke into his eyes. "Em what are you doing here?" he asked openign the door lettign her in.

"Um I need to talk to you." she said looking at him and then down at her hands. "okay so whats up?" he lead them into the den and sat on the couch and Emma sat next to him and turend to face him. "Why can't I get you out of my head?" she asked him,her eyes were pleading with him to give her an answer. But he didn't have one because then he would need one because she was in his head all the time. "I don't know Emma, but when you find out can you give me a call." he said smiling, he was trying to get rid of some of the tension in the room, and it worked because she smiled shyly at him through her lashes. "Emma I know you'll tell me to shut up but you have to listen to me for a minute." he took her hadn in his and continued to talk when she looked at him and didn't pull away from him.

"Look Emma I know your not going to want to hear any of this but what I said that night at the play..it was all true." he looked down and then abck at her. "I miss you and not just what we've done, you as a person I miss spending time with you. I want you back Emma." he had taken hold of her face and wiped the tears form her eyes, she had started to tear up when he first started to talk. "I miss you too Jay but we can't have anything back, we didn't really have anything to begin with." she wanted to pull away but couldn't, he was a drug to her and no matter what she couldn't resist him, but she had to fight it. "Emma we had something it could have been something really great, you just have to let me help you, I can see it in your eyes Emma your still lost but when you were with me you had happiness in your eyes. I can give it back to you."

"No Jay as much as I want you too you can't give it back you'll just end up hurting me and I can't put myself through tat again." with that she got up and left the house but before she left he said one more thing. "Fine then just don't talk to me anymore and when you get hurt again don't come crying to me." he said with anger When she got home she noticed her cell phone had a few messages she hd left it at home not wanting to talk to anyone. All of the messages were from Kenny and all of them were the same thing. He wanted to know wherre she was and it seemed like with each one the tone of his voice would change. The first one he was his normal self but thne in the second he sounded a little ticked off and in the thir he was pissed off, she was kinda scared of it so sh turned the phone off and just laid down in bed and fell asleep.

It's a good thing the next day was a saturday, because Emma didn't wake up till almost one O'clock in the afternoon the next day. She woke up to her cell phone buzzing next to her, she must have not turned it off the night before. She reached form under the covers to picke it up, too tired to see who was calling, but she knew once an angry voice came through on the line. "WHERE THE HELL WERE YOU!!??!?" it was Kenny and the yelling woke her up right away. "I was out last night, don't yell at me Kenny." she said sitting up in bed. "Damnit Emma I didn't know where you were and I want to know." he had calmed down some but still kept a firm voice. "I'm sorry I just neede time to myself last night." Kenny calmed down a bit, "okay fine how about tonight you come to a party with me?" Emma thought about it for a minute she wanted to be by herself again but didn't want to upset Kenny, a small part of her was a little scared of him but she would never admit it to anyone she played it off as just new relationship nerves. "Yea sure how about seven?" "sure see you then." he said and hung up.

Around seven that night Emma was ready and waiting for Kenny, she had showered and changed. She still wanted to be alone for the night but she wanted to make Kenny happy. When the door bell rang she called out to her mom and told her she would be back by curfew. When she opened the door Kenny was standing there but didn't look happy at all. "Hi." she said coming out of the house. "whatever lets just go." he took her arm and squeezed it pulling her towards his car. "oww Kenny your hurting me." she said once he let go and put her in the car, "whatever jsut be quiet." he said and pulled away form the house. Emma sat there in silence rubbing the spot on her arm. They were quiet in the car, when they got to the part Emma slowly opened her door and Kenny grabbed her again.

While Emma was out at the party Jay was at home on the phone with Sean. "So how is everyone back in Degrassi?" Jay leaned back and rubbed his eyes. "Fine I guess, you know Ellie is doing pretty good." "Well what about Emma last time I called her she seemed upset and hung up pretty fast." Jay closed his eyes he didn't want to tell Sean about what had happen between him and Emma but he had to, Sean was going to find out anyway. "okay look I know but your not going to be happy." "Just tell me man." "okay well I'll just cut to the chase, man I liked Em and we hooked up in the ravine." "WHAT?!?! WHY?!?!" Sean screamed into the phone. "because I liked her but it didn't go so well I got her sick man I didn't mean to but it happen and I can't take it back."

"What do you mean got her sick? Sick with what?" "Gonorrhea." he said quietly saying out loud made him regret doing what he did to her and regret tellign her to leave him alone, when he knew that if she was dating Kenny she would need some one to turn to. "Gonorrhea are you, crazy man what the hell were you thinking?!" Sean was still hystrical. "I wasn't, but don't worry she's fine now and I'm leaving her alone. Lokk I got to go." with that he hung up with out giving Sean a chance to respond. He made a mistake, when he yelled at her but he wasn't going to admit it to her he was just to stubborn.

Emma had lost site of Kenny at the party she had been talking to some one when he had went off on his own and was now looking every where for him. It was gettign kind of late and she had to get home soon, but want to spen some time with him. "Have you seen Kenny?" she asked one of his friends when she was up staires. "Yea he's in there." he said pointing to a room where another guy had gone into. Walking in she saw Kenny, Tyler, David, and a few other guys sittign around drinking and some pills and powders on a table next to them. "Kenny I want to go homew now." she said walkign over to him. "Well I don't." he went back to drinking his beer and laughing with his friends. "Fine I'll find my own way home." she turned to leave but he grabbed her arm and jerked her backwards making her stummble and fall next to him. "Your not goign any where, now stay here with me." he said through gritted teeth and tighting his hold on her arm with each word. Emma was scared so she just sat there and did what he wanted. That night she lost more of herself than she did before.

Before in the ravine she was a lost girl, but a part of her did what she did because she wanted it she wanted Jay. But now that was gone and over he wanted nothing to do with her. So she wanted and out and she got one that night. That night she lost her self in drinking and drugs, she hated this the only reason she did it was to make Kenny happy because she was afarid of him.But it didn't do anything when she wouldn't go down on him he smaked her across her face so hard it sent her flying backwards on the floor. There was no out for her she was stuck in this life too afraid to get out. She had a new addiction, and it was going to hurt her more than Jay ever would.

Emma hadn't gotten home till way past her curfew and got caught and was grounded for two weeks. The hardest thing was lieing to her mom and dad about the bruise that was forming on her cheek where Kenny had hit her. She told them that she got puhed into a door frame. She was more worried about school she didn't want anyone to see the bruise, she was afraid more rumors would spread and that everyone would find out: Find out her boyfriend hit her, that he made her drink and do drugs. She would have covered it with make up but it was sore and was a really dark purple and blue, so she couldn't cover it.

Walking into school people had noticed the bruise that had grown to the size of a baseball, she didn't really remember being hit that hard but she was, and she tried to hide it by keeping her head down, but peopel still noticed. "Em what happen to you?" Manny asked with great consern in her voice when she sat next to her in class. "It's nothing I was watching Jack and I fell while playing with him." she explained to her avoiding eye contact. "What did you hit your face on?" "oh the coffie table it was actually kind of funny." Emma smiled and played it off like it was nothing, and it worked Manny smiled at her and took her seat as class started. The day seemed to go by in slow motion, Manny looking at her worried and Emma just saying she was tired and would be just fine. And another thing that brought back memories was Jay, he kept glaringa t her and making his normal mean comments to her but she didn't let it bother her.

When school was finished Emma headed over to the Dot with Manny, to grab something to eat, she was suppoosed to go straight home but her dad had a late meeting and her mom was working late, so she was only going to stay out for a little while. "So Kenny seems like a great guy." Manny said once they sat down, and Emma became a little nervouse when that subject came up. "yea he's okay, I'm still getting to know him." she said smiling a little. The bell above the door rang and made her look over and she felt her breath catch in her throat. Walking in was Kenny and his friends, and Jay and his friends came in. Kenny gave her a smile and walked over to her. "Hi Emma." he said giving her a small kiss, amking sure Jay saw it. When he pulled back he took Emma's hand and made her stand up. "we'll be right back." he said leading her away from Manny and the others.

Kenny pulled her into the back where no one could see them, and pushed her against the wall. "You didn't tell anyone what happen last night did you." he asked in a firm voice his face very close to her and his arms trapping her. "I told them I fell." Kenny gave her a smile that made her stomach clench. "that's my girl, now tonight I'll come to your room okay." "you can't.." he cut her off bny grabbing her throat. "I'm coming over got it." she made a noise as the frip around her throat got tighter. He took that as a yes and let her go and walked back to his friends. Emma stood there and rubbed her neck and got her breathing under control. She walked back to Manny, "Sorry Manny I have to go I don't want to get in more trouble. I'll see you tomorrow okay." she gave her friend a smile and grabbed her stuff. "sure bye Em." Manny said as Emma left as fast as she could not making contact with Kenny or any of them. That's what she gets, she made mistakes and this is all of those coming back and bitting her in the ass. 'I deserve this.' she thought walking back home. She was scared of what was happing and no one could save her.

I wish you never told me

I wish I never knew

I wake up screaming

It's all because of you.

"Scared"-Three Days Grace.

Okay guys here is the next chapter in this story. I'm not gettign a very big respone to this so please review or I'm goign to take it down. Anyway I know I'm making Emma act in a way we never thought she would, with lettign her boyfriend hit her and not get out but remember she's still not fully over what happened to Rick and Sean leaving so she';s pusnishing herself, adn think's she desevers this. Please let me know what you think.

Allie