Okay well since no one wants me to get rid of this story I'll keep it up. Thank you guys for making me write, more lol. Anyway I don't own anyone and I don't own the song either it is by one of my favoirt bands. Oh and thank you to Degrassidreamer for the good idea, and part of this I got from the episode 'Never gonna give you up'.
CHAPTER 3/ SAVE ME.
Had a bad day, don't talk to me,
Gonna ride this out.
My little black heart, breaks apart
With your big mouth.
"Save me"- Unwritten law.
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Emma sat stiffly on her bed waiting for Kenny to get to her house. She wanted so much to tell her mother not to let him in the house but that wouldn't work he would just come through her window. She sat in her thoughts till the door to her room shut and she looked up to see Kenny coming down the staires, that same evil smile on his face. Just looking at him made shivers run through her body, but they weren't good one's. Not like the ones she would get when ever Jay would smile at her or touch her, this one made her want to run and hide from him. She really wanted to get up and run but there was no way she would get away from him, she wouldn't make it out the window before he grabbed her. "your mom let me in she said she had to go out for an hour maybe and your dad is at Joey's with Jack, so it's just you and me." the tone of his voice made the room chill even more and she had to hold back her tears, no one was here to help her it was open game now. And then it started, with one quick smake to the face, splitting her lip.
Kenny put one knee on her bed and grabbed her upper arms tightly and pushed her back on the bed. Emma's breathing became heavier when he leaned down and kissed her neck, and bit and sucked it didn't cause her pleasure it was full of pain and she struggled not to yell out she knew that he would strike her again if she did. But when he bit down too hard and she felt blood being drawn she screamed out in pain. Kenny pulled back and smaked her again and held her throat again. "Shut up." he said through gritted teeth. She tried not to cry she really did but it was no use with every move of his hands on her body she sob quietly, She paniced whe he tried to pull her shirt over her head. She was 12 years old all over again. Her mind flashed to Jordan, and she became more scared than ever, this time it was going to happen, she going to be raped. Emma did the only thing she could think of to help herself: she fought back.
Kenny didn't care if she foughtor not this is what he wanted and was going to get. "NO please Kenny please don't do this." she said through her tears as she fought against his hands, but the only damage she did was she scratched him, she tried to kick but he had pinned her legs down and apart. He had gotten her shirt off, more like ripped it off, and held her arms above her head with one hand and with the other he mannaged to push her skirt off of her , along with her underware. "no Kenny don't do this stop it please stop." she cried to him trying to keep his hands off of her but it was no use he was too strong for her. Kenny took hold of her throat again and squeezed till she was prying at his hands so she could breath. He finally managed to get inside of her, and she screamed even louder because it was her first time and he pushed hard. She felt herself bleeding but it didn't matter she stoped fighting as he pushed inside of her hard and fast, gripping her hips painfully tight, and scrathching at her flesh. She cried out again when his nails ripped her flesh,and she tried to push him off again. "Damnit Emma stop or I'll have to chock you again and tie you down!!!" he yelled at her.
Emma silently cried as her body was being violated, and on some level she kept telling herself this is what she deserved. She caused pain in other people's lives so now it was coming back at her. She helped Jay break Alex's heart, even though Alex and her weren't friends she still felt bad for her being hurt. She hurt Libertiy when she treid to get back with Chris, and most of all she hurt Rick. She rejected him, played with his emotions it was partly her fault that he was tormented at school. When it was over and Kenny got off of her he reziped his jeans and gave her his same evil smile, before leaving her with her thoughts. Emma slowly and painfully moved to wrapped her bruised and bloody body in her balnket and laid on her bed crying to herself, she didn't even know she was till she felt her tears on her face.
The next day Emma walked up from her room to see her mother in the kitchen with Jack on her hip, her back was to Emma. "Em Snake had to leave eary but he said if you wanted a ride home he would take you home, it's suppose to rain." she told her daughter without turing around. "Um maybe I might have to stay after school for something." "okay well have a good day honey." "thanks mom." with that she grabbed her bag and left the house and made her way to school. She was a little nervouse that people would be able to tell what had happen last night, she couldn't tell though. She couldn't admit that her boyfriend hit her and raped her. No one would believe her. No one could save her.
No one noticed the bruises really, she had done a pretty good job of covering them up, even though it was warm out, she wore jeans that covered the ones on her legs. A sweat shirt to cover the ones on her arms, and she left her hair down and around her neck so no one could see the ones around her neck. The ones on her face she just used make up to cover them, the only thing she couldn't do anything about was her split lip, and the throbbing pain between her legs, she knew he had done some mager damage there. But again a voice screamed at her that she was getting what she deserved. Walking down the hall she was lookign down and slamed into some one sending her stummbinling back a few steps. "Watch it!!" Emma looked up to see Alex glaring at her, "sorry." she mummbled and walked down the hall but Alex followed her. "What no comment from the princess, wow shock." Emma didn't say anythign to her, she just walked on. "Come on Emma tell my off or at least try, we miss your 'I'm-better- than-you' attitude around here." Alex was smirking at her, till Emma turned around to face her and she noticed that she had unshed tears in her eyes. Emma hadn't cried since the night before but now she was almost crying because of the pain she was feeling, inside and between her legs she had taken pills but the pain wasn't going away.
Alex didn't say anything more to her just turned and walked away while Emma gripped her stomach in pain and stummbled into the bathroom. She stood infront of the mirror holding her stomach and took deep breaths trying to stop the pain, or will her mind not to focus on it. When the door opened and Hazel walked in and saw her. "Emma are you okay?" she asked walking up to her. Emma nodded and pushed hre hair back to throw some water on her face. "Emma what happen to your neck?!" she asked suprised and looked at her. "Nothing I'm fine, I have to go." she tried to leave but Hazel stopped her. "Em is some one hurting you, maybe your new boyfriend?" she asked with caution. Emma turned to her but hid her fear and wanting to tell some one, she couldn't though no one would believe her. "No Hazel really I'm fine no one is hurting me promise." she tried to leave again but Hazel stopped her again
"Emma if he please tell me, I don't want to see what happen to Terrie happen to you. Don't keep sopmethign like this from some one. We're worried about you." "Hazel I'm fine it's I just haven't been sleeping very well, you know since the shooting I know it happened awhile but I'm just taking longer to get over it.But I'm fine really I am." she turned and gave her a small smile. "okay I understand about the shooting if you need some one to talk to, you can come to me." "Thanks Hazel." she said and left the bathroom. She hated lieing to Hazel but she had to keep this to herself, besides unlike Terrie Emma thought she deserved this.
Hazel didn't believe Emma all that much, but she didn't know who she could talk to about Emma. Manny would probably tell her it was nothing, besides she had a better person to talk to about Emma: Jay. She had seen the way he looked at Emma and knew he would find out what was going on with her. Luckily it was almost lunch and she knew where to find him.
When lunch rolled around Hazel draged Paige with her to find Jay, and he was where she knew he would be outside with his friends. "Jay we need to talk to you." Hazel said walking up to him. "About what?" he asked looking bored already. "It's about Emma." Paige was just as desperet to get to the bottom of this as Hazel was, she had told her all about the marks she saw on Emma's neck. "So what do I care, she's just cause girl nothing more." he said with his normal smirk on his face. "God Jay why the hell do you have to be such a fucking jerk?!" Paige screamed at him, she didn't want anything to happen to Emma she had been through so much already they weren't the best of friends but friends none the less she didn't want anything bad to happen to her. When he just smirked at her she glared and grabbed Hazel and they left him there. "God you can tell he wants her or wanted her why won't he just help her?" Hazel asked as the sat down at lunch. "Help who?" Craig asked as he came up behind them. "No one don't worry about it." Paige said to him. She didn't want to worry him, Craige and Emma were friends and he was protective of her more so now because of the whole STD/Jay thing.
Jay was walking down the hall during class, he actually had shown up for it but when he caught site of Hazel in the hall he asked to leave for a minute. Outside he played it off like he didn't care about Emma and a part of him didn't care but another part of him was worried and scared for her when he saw the look Hazel and Paige had given him outside, but he would never admit it he was supposed to not care for her anymore. A part of him follwed that rule but only because she rejected him and his ego was bruised. "Hazel wait up." he called after and ran to catch up at her locker. "What do you want Jay?" "Look I want to know what's going on with Emma." "why you said she was nothing more than cause girl, so why should you care." Jay gave a frustrated sigh, "Come on Hazel, just tell me."
She turend to look at him and closed her locker, "Fine when I was in the bathroom this morning I saw Emma and she didn't look so good." she stoped and looked down at the floor. "What do you mean by didn't look so good?" "I mean she looked like she was in a lot of pain, she was holding her stomach and was hunched over at the sink." "So maybe she has her period." Hazel shook her head. "No Jay it's more than that, I saw marks on her neck, like some one had grabbed her around it." His eyes grew wide when she said that and he saw fire in front of him."Where is she?" "Jay don't attack her she won't talk." "then why did you tell me?" "I..I don't know maybe I thought she would talk to you, but then you were back to your normal jerk self." he looked down and Hazel saw some kind of regret on his face but still saw anger in his eyes. "She's in Kwan's class right now." he looked up and nodded a thanks and left to find her.
Emma sat in Ms. Kwan's room trying to pay attention to her and what she was talking about, but again it was hard to concentrae on it. But she managed to snapp her self out of it, when Ms. Kwan's voice became a little louder. "okay class I want you to write a poem, it can be about anything you want, so don't be shy about it, just let your minds go. And no rude comments." she said to Spinner who smiled at her. "Oh and no names on these, they will be read out loud, but you don't have to be emmbarsed, so start working and pass them in at the end of calss." she said and went to her desk. Emma took out her pen and stared at the paper. 'If I can't tell anyone about what's happenign then I can get it out by writting.' she thought as the words came to her mind and flowed on to the paper.
Untitled.(A/N. This is my poem I just wrote for this story so don't take it and if it sucks it's because I just wrote it so I didn't get a chance to think. And don't take it.)
Thought it would be good from now on.
Had some one to help me, heal.
I was wrong.
All I see is evil when you come around.
Why do you have to hurt me?
I know I deserve this for the things I have caused
My body is gone, you've taken it.
Everything about me that I had left you've killed.
I was hanging on by a thread.
Now I'm gone, the one person that could save me.
Isn't aroudn anymore.
I'm your's to finish off.
It won't take much longer.
I'm half way dead.
When she finished she got up to handed her's in when there was a knock on the door. Both ms. Kwan and Emma looked up to see Jay standing in the door way. "Um ms. Kwan mr. Raditch wants to see Emma for a minute." he said looking at Emma. "okay Em, you can go." She wanted to say something to ask miss Kwan not to let her go with Jay, she didn't want to be alone with him, she knew Mr. Raditch didn't want to see her. But no words came out of her mouth and she followed JAt out and down the hall away from class rooms. "What Jay?" she asked with anger and sadness in her voice. "What's going on with you Em?" She looked up at him after that "What are you talking about Jay I'm fine." He gave her a look that said he knew she was lying. "oh yea then what's this?" he reached out and pulle dher hair back to see the bruises around her neck, she had been chocked and it was easy to tell. "Tell me Emma?" he said firmly to her and it scared her she was still very afraid of guys at the moment. A part of her knew Jay wouldn't hurt her like Kenny did but she didn't know that for sure. "Nothing okay, it's nothing." she pulled away from him and started back down the hall but he grabbed her.
"Emma something is going on with you why can't you just tell me?" now she was angry first he hates her then he wants her then he ahtes her again and now all of a sudden he wants to help her. "Just leave me alone Jay I'm not your problem anymore, I never was I was just one of the girls in the ravine. And like you said the last time, I'm one cold girl." she said and finally got her arm away from him and left him standing in the hall. Jay did want to help her, he could see some one was hurting her and it probably was Kenny. He knew him to have a short temper just like Jay but he didn't think he would hurt a girl. 'It has to be something else and I'm going to find out.' he thought and then another hit him. 'But if he is hurting her he would kill him, no women deserved to be hit' he thought as he went back to class. He still would not admit to her or anyone esle that he still wanted her back.
Emma got home that day only to find just her dad home. And he wasn't looking at her. She needed him to talk to her, he made her feel better when she was scared, just like her mom but her mother wasn't home right now. "Dad?" she said quietly and walked to stand infront of him. Snake barley looked at her before turing back to his work. "Hi Emma." that was the only thing he had said to her in weeks. "Dad please talk to me." she didn't notice her voice was breaking,but he did. He looked over at his daughter and sighed in frustration. "Emma I don't know what to say to you. You have become a diffferent person." "Then tell me waht you want to know and I'll tell you please just talk to me." "I want to know why Em. Why did you do something so stupid, especially with Jay?" Emma wiped her tears away when she saw the angry look on his face.
"Because I don't really know. I liked him and I wasn't in a good place at the time. It was a mistake and I'm sorry I disappointed you dad." "Sorry isn't good enough Emma, I'm sorry." he turned his back to her, again. A part of her snapped she was tired of peopel turing away from her. She was so angry that she knocked all of the pictures that were on the talbe off making them break and spread glass all over the floor. "You're not sorry dad!!" she screamed at him, "Fine you want to know what happen. I went to the ravien with Jay, I clamed into the van. I kissed him till he was hard, then unzipped his pants. I sucked him off okay I messed up!!!!!! Is that what you wanted to know!!!!" she was screaming at him with tears running down her face. Snake looked angry. "NO Emma that's not what I want. What I want is my daughter back, but she turned into another slut for some guy to use whenever he wants to get off!!!!" he screamed back at her.
Emma felt her breath leave her body when he said that, she had only done anything with Jay, and Kenny but she didn't want Kenny he had taken what he wanted. But she couldn't tell her dad that he would just say she wanted it and didn't want to get in anymore trouble. She chocked down her tears and tried to walk away but he grabbed her arm, right where the fresh sore bruises were. "Em, I..I didn't mean that." she shook her head and got out of his grasp. "yes you did." with that she walked down to her room. and locked the door. She didn't want to be near anyone.
Later that night Emma still hadn't come out of her room, even though her mother tried to convince her to get out and convince her that Snake didn't mean it. But Emma knew better she knew that he did. There was a tap at her window that brought her out of her thoughts. She got off her bed and walked over and opened it. Tyler was standing tjhere. "Come on Kenny want you at his house now." Emma nodded and climed out and went to his car and climed in. She took another look at her house, wanting some one to save her but she couldn't be saved this is what she deserved besides it had gone to far, she didn't fight hard enough she had only her self to blame.
Tyler drove her to Kenny's house . and let hre put telling her to just go in that he was waiting for her. Emma nodded numly and walked into the house, she closed the door wanting to just run out the door but knowing that she wouldn't get very far and again a voice rang in her head. The voice wasn't her own like the other times it was some one else's haunting voice. It was Rick's. 'Look what you've done Emma I'm dead and now your goign to get your's.' She shook her head when some one else's voice came through. "Emma get your ass up here!!" it was Kenny screaming from up staries. She lowered her head and climed the staires.
Kenny was at the top waitign for her, when she reached him he grabbed her arm painfully again and forced her into his room. He went and sat down on the bed and looked at her, she looked around the room and noticed that a couple of his friends were there too. All looking at her with the same evil smile that Kenny had. "I thought I would share you with the others." he said taking her face in his hand. "No." she said quietly and shook her head. "YES Emma." he said and gripped her face harder. "no strip." he said walking back. She just stood there, and shook her head. Kenny was going to get what he wanted form her again. He walked over to her and punched her in the eye. He pushed her down and Kenny got on top of her, sittign on her chest as he punched and slapped her in the face. "You'll..do...as..I..say!!" he yelled at her between pnuches and slaps. Emma tried to fight off the blows but it was no use he mannaged to get her hands down and away. Emma was on the floor crying when he was done beating her, but he didn't stop. Again he ripped her cloths off, and raped her agan along with his friends. This was it the thread was breaking. Her only hope was to leave and she was going too.
hours later they were done with her and she was a bloody mess. She got up and put her ripped cloths on the best she could and left the house. It was alte so one was on the street, and her paretns had gone to bed hours ago. She snuck back into her room and went o her closet and pulled out a bag. She started to throw clothes, and other things inside it.When she was all packed she quietly snuck upstaries and went into the bathroom to clean herself up. Looking in the mirror, she noticed a black eye forming, and cuts and bruises. There was blood on her face and blood coming from her nose, and ugly bite marks on her neck, and chest. And more bruises on her neck, they had chocked her till she almost passed out oir till she was gasping for air. It was all a game to them.
After cleaning up se went back down to her room, and took her things and climb out her window and walked to the car parked outside. She sat in the car for a minute calming her nerves, she was really doing this she was leaving and escaping the pain. But the voice came back,' Your punishment will come back Emma you can't run form it for long. Everythign is your fault and you deserve to die just like me.' Ricks voice screamed at her. Shaking her head she started the car and drove off to the only place she could: Wasaga Beach, to Sean. He would help her.
She drove the two hours to his house, it was late but she didn't care. She needed some one, she wanted to be saved now. Gettign out of the car she winced at the pain between her legs and all over her body. All four of them did a real number on her. She took a deep breath and knocked on the door. She knocked again and it took a few minute for some one to answer. When he opened the door she felt the tears she had been holding back spill over on her cheeks. "Emma.." he siad quietly and pulled her into a hug and she fell asgainst him crying openly.
Sean was woken up by the sound of knocking , he had falledn asleep on the couch and draged himself up to get it. He saw that it was after two in the morning, and grunted rubbing his eyes. When he opend the door he was shocked by two things, 1)It was Emma standing infront of him. And 2) she was bloody and beat up. When she looked up at him he saw the tears fall form her eyes, "Emma.." was all he said to her before he took her into her arms and let her cry. "I've got you Emma your safe now." he wisphered to her. Sean bent and picked her up, and carried her inside. Emma knew that she was safe from Kenny here but not from her pain, he couldn't protect her from that.
You can't save me
You can't change me
Well I'm waiting for my wake up call
And everything, everything's my fault.
"Save me"-Unwritten Law
Okay guys here is the next chapter I'm sorry if it sucks but I've beeen writting this for a few days, anyway please review this even if you hate it.
Allie