Hey guys sorry it's taken so long, I've been busy with work and my other stories. Thank you to everyone who has reviewed and waited patiently for me to update, it is very much appreciated. I hope you like this chapter. Oh and the song used here is not owned by me it is owned by Linkin Park. So enjoy and please review.

CHAPTER 6; FROM THE INSIDE.

I don't know who to trust no surprise

(Everyone feels so far away from me)

Heavy thoughts sift through dust and lies

(Trying not to break but I'm so tired of this deceit)

(Every time I try to make myself get back up on my feet)

(All I ever think about is this)

(All the tiring time between)

(And how trying to put my trust in you just takes so much out of me)

After Emma's incident at school, her parents and friends became more attached her trying to protect her from the others around her, the kids at school tormented her even more than before when they found out what happen. Emma was considering asking her parents to transfer her to another school, that's how bad things got for her. She hadn't told anyone yet about her ideas knowing they would talk her out of it. But she needed to do this; changing schools would be easier for everyone. Her parents wouldn't have to worry about calls from the principle or here rumors anymore.

Manny could go out with out checking to see if Emma would be alright and wouldn't be shunned from Darcy and the other squad members, besides Paige anymore. She wouldn't have to try to keep Emma away from Alex, Ellie, and Ashley anymore; she would have her normal life back.

Jay wouldn't get in trouble anymore; from threatening anyone who even spoke to her the wrong way. He wouldn't be burdened with making sure she went to her therapist and making sure she was fine every moment of the day. He wouldn't have to think of her anymore.

Emma was thinking of her friends and family, she didn't want to leave them but she was thinking of what was best for everyone. She didn't want to hurt them anymore; she had caused enough pain in her own life she didn't want to cause anymore.

Emma sat on the couch of her home, with her homework set out in front of her. She had finally found the strength to move back home, but she still didn't like being home alone. So that day while Jack was napping in his room, Spike working late, and Snake at a meeting she had Jay with her. She liked having him around her; he made her feel safe again she could relax and stop looking over her shoulder, she could smile again.

"What are you smiling about Nelson?" Jay asked her looking up from his history book to see her smiling slightly. "Nothing, just thinking." She smiled at him. Jay smiled when he saw her eyes light up with her bright smile, the one he fell in love with. Yes he Jay hogart had fallen in love with his complete opposite, Emma Nelson. Thinking back he had come to realize he probably always loved her. And it hurt him to see her being torn apart day after day, knowing that he had something to do with her torment, which is why he never told her how he felt. He didn't think he was good enough to be with her, to be loved by her after what he had done. He was content and happy beyond belief that he at least had a friendship with her, and could protect her from the demons around her.

"I'm happy to see you smile again Emma, I've missed it." He told her truthfully while moving some of the stray hairs from her eyes. He wanted to kiss her again, but didn't want to push her he knew she was still trying to deal with the emotional troubles and fear the bastard who caused them.

Emma looked at Jay and saw something in his eyes. It was a mix between want, fear, sadness and surprisingly she thought she saw love. When his fingers brushed her face gently she felt her heart start to beat faster with anticipation, hoping that he would lean in and kiss her. It seemed a little weird to her that after everything she had been through she would want to kiss some one. But again she felt safe with Jay, she knew he would never push her or do anything to hurt her, and that's what she loved about him.

Jay had deiced to take a chance and started to lean into her; he was mere inches away from her mouth when the doorbell interrupted them. The startling noise made Emma jump while Jay leaned back into the couch and stared at his hands. "I'll be right back." She said quietly and got up to the door. She was still cautious of most things, so opening the front door was still something she shook at. But she visibly calmed though when she saw that it was a police officer standing there, and opened the door wider.

"Can I help you?" she asked in a slightly confused voice, holding her breath fearful thoughts running through her mind. "Are you Miss Emma Nelson?" he asked her looking down at the clipboard he held in his hands. All Emma could do was nod her head; a bad feeling settling in the pit of her stomach.

Jay looking over at her and seeing how tense she was quickly got up and came to stand next to her. "This is for you; sign here." The officer said in a professional tone, while handing her a folded document and the clipboard to sing. Emma quickly signed her name at the bottom and handed it back before closing the door.

"Emma what is it?" Jay asked her when she just stood there staring at the paper in her hand, to afraid to open it, she just shrugged her shoulders and turned back to the den, Jay following closely behind. She sat down on the couch the paper still in her hands. "Emma it might not be bad news, but you have to open it to see." Jay told her and sat with her taking her hand in his and squeezing tightly.

With a sinking feeling Emma opened the envelope and read through, what she saw was a legal document. Shaking hands dropped the paper to the ground below leaving Emma staring at it as it started up at her from the ground. Not hearing Jay calling her name, the only thing in her mind was the word she had read.

"Miss Emma Laurel Nelson is here by served to appear in court on the 28th of November 2004, to testify against the defendants Kenneth Joseph Landers, Tyler Scott Marks, David Jacob Anderson, and Jeffery Brendan Collins, in the Rape trial of Emma Laurel Nelson"

When Emma didn't answer him, Jay bent down and picked up the fallen paper. His eyes quickly scanned over the document and his breath caught in his throat when he saw the words on it. She was going to have to testify against the men who raped her, took away her dignity and the last bit of innocence she had left in her. She was going to have face them again, come face to face with the people she feared most in the world. And Jay knew he wouldn't be able to protect her when she was on the stand.

Tension is building steadily

(Everyone feels so far away from me)

Heavy thoughts forcing their way out of me

(Trying not to break but I'm so tired of this deceit)

(Every time I try to make myself get back up on my feet)

(All I ever think about is this)

(All the tiring time between)

(And how trying to put my trust in you just takes so much out of me.)

Okay guys here is the next chapter, I know it's short and nothing really good happened but I hope you still enjoy it anyway. Please let me know oh and the next chapter I promise more drama will be happening. Please review.

Allie