Hey every one I'm sorry it's taken awhile. Thank you to every one who has reviewed and has waited patiently for me to update this story. And I don't own the characters of the show, or the song that is owned by The Used. So anyway read, review and enjoy.

CHAPTER 7; ALL THAT I'VE GOT.

So deep that it didn't even bleed and catch me

Off guard, red handed

Now I'm far from lonely

Asleep I still see you lying next to me

So deep that it didn't even bleed and catch me I... –"All that I've got"- The Used.

The day of the trial was fast approaching and making Emma more and more nervous with each passing day. She wasn't sure she was strong enough to face them again, she didn't think she could sit there and have the whole life ruining event retold all over again. Her friends, family, and psychiatrist kept telling her that this would be god for her actually she would have closure, that when she was in the court room she would have all the power over them; that she could have the upper hand again.

Emma was sitting in the park gently swaying back and fourth on a swing, staring intently at her feet, not really thinking about anything. She was brought out of her daze when the swing was suddenly pushed a little bit faster making her jump in the seat and her body instantly stiffened as if to protect herself. Turning though she saw the sullen face of Jay and her body relaxed as he pushed gently, as they enjoyed their silence together.

"What are you doing here Emma; it's cold out?" Jay asked her breaking the silence. "I just needed to get out of the house and think about some things that's all," Emma said not taking her eyes off the ground. They were quiet again only this time Jay had stopped pushing her and was rubbing her arms trying to keep her warm. "What are you thinking about?" he asked her softly. Emma finally looked up from the ground and turned to look at him slightly. "The trial." She answered simply

"What about it?" he asked her sort of scared he was going to upset her if he pushed. "Just thinking about what's going to happen. I have to face them again, retell what happened to me. Have their attorneys tear into me about everything that I did in the past." She said getting slightly angry which killed Jay's previous assumption of how she would react.

"Emma calm down, the judge won't let them bring anything like that up." He tried to reason with her, knowing there was a slight chance it could come up. "Jay you know that won't happen, you know they'll bring it up argue that I've done things like this before." She was still angry at the fact that the defense could possibly bring it up and the judge could allow it. She didn't want her parents to hear about what she had done to Jay, she didn't want to disappoint them any further. And she didn't want to relive that part of her life.

"The prosecution will fight against it Emma, and if they bring it up fight against it. You weren't in a good place at that time, and just because you and I did that doesn't mean that you wanted any of them to do anything to you." Jay told her and moved in front of her so he could see her eyes. He knew Emma was stronger then those guys she could beat them, she just had to stand strong. "You can do this Em, no matter what is brought up; you're stronger than any of them." He reassured her and pulled her up from the swing and into his arms for a hug. Emma knew he was right she was stronger than any of them, because she was going to fight them as hard as she could, no matter what they said about her.

Emma repeated when Jay had told her that day at the park over and over in her head to keep herself strong, and she needed as much strength as she could get because today was the day of the trial. The day she would be testifying against her rapists and she felt her nervous coming up in her stomach again as she dressed in her room.

Staring at her reflection in the mirror Emma still didn't like who she was seeing in front of her. Her skin was still pale and looked sunken from lack of sleep; she was still having nightmares and some times refused to let her eyes close. Emma pulled at the long sleeve dark purple top she wore with a black knee length skirt. A knock on the door brought Emma from her trance. "Come in." she called and went back to pulling her hair back into a pony tail.

Snake stood at the top of the stairs and looked down at her daughter's room. "Emma honey we have to leave soon." She called to her daughter. "I'm coming right now." Emma said and walked up the stairs coming face to face with her worried mother, she gave her a weak smile as to reassure her that she was fine with this. "Let's go." And with that she grabbed her coat and walked out of the house her parents trailing behind her; Joey was watching the baby for the day.

At the court house Emma and her parents waited in the hallway outside the court room waiting to be called. Her Parents were sitting quietly while Emma paced back and fourth, the heels of her knee high boots clicking against the tile floor; she couldn't sit still at all. While pacing some one caught her eye making her stop in her tracks; it was Jay along with Paige. She gave them a small smile as they approached her, "What are you two doing here?" she asked after they gave her a quick hug.

"Well I thought that maybe I could help you after this; since I've done it myself not to long ago." Paige said giving her a small smile, even though as she spoke just those small words you could still see the hurt she went through. "Thank you Paige." Emma said and gave her another hug. "No problem hun." When they pulled away Emma turned to see Jay with his same smirk in place. "That doesn't explain why you're here Jay." "Well I wanted to be here for you, I knew you could use as much support as you could get." He said looking between her and the others in the hall. "Well thank you I could use you both after this." "Um Emma can I talk to you for a minute…alone?" Jay asked her looking between her, her parents and Paige, Emma nodded her head and followed him down the hallway.

"What's up?" she asked him once they were out of earshot. "I wanted to give you something." He said pulling out a black velvet box. "My grandmother gave me this before she died. She said it was supposed to protect me and keep her with me. But I thought you could use it today to help keep you strong up there." He said and opened the box that held a thin gold chain with a gold cross hanging from it. "Jay it's beautiful, but I can't take that from you." She said gently touching it but pulling her hands away from the delicate gold. "No Emma I want you to have this, please." He said taking it out of the box and clasping it around her neck. She smiled slightly and reached up and kissed him gently on the cheek. "Thank you Jay, for everything you've done for me." She said softly against his skin and turned back to her family Jay following close behind her.

After a few more minutes of waiting anxiously Emma was finally called into the court room. Jay took hold of her hand as her parents, Paige, him and her family followed her in and took their seats as Emma was sworn in. she sat nervously facing her family and her rapists, she wasn't scared of them anymore; she was scared of what her family would think after hearing what was going to be said in the courtroom. She didn't want to lose their respect for her again, that was all she had right now.

"Emma can you tell us what happened on the night of a Tyler Marks party on November 3rd?" the prosecutor asked her making her focus on her instead of Kenny and his friends. "That was the night Kenny first hit me." She told her not breaking eye contact with her. "Can you tell us what happened?" "When we got to the party I lost him in the crowd of people, and after awhile I needed to go home to make my curfew. So I went looking for him and someone told me he was in a room, when I went inside he was sitting there with Tyler and David along with some other people." Emma stopped to take a breath before continuing.

"There were pills, powders, and drinks all around them. I asked Kenny to take me home and he told me no because he didn't want to leave. Um I made a move to leave the room and he pulled me back. I was drinking and did some of the drugs that were around, because I was scared if I didn't he would hurt me." She had to stop for a moment and had to look down she didn't want to see her mothers face at this time. "Kenny was pretty out of it and asked me to go down on him, but I refused so he smacked hard across the face and left a bruise." She finished looking back up.

Before the prosecutor could ask her another question, the defense attorney interrupted. "Your honor that story has nothing to do with this case, besides my client was intoxicated as Miss Nelson says and couldn't have known what he was doing." He finished looking at Emma with a disgusted look on his face, but she ignored him. The judge dismissed the defenses objection and aloud the prosecution to continue with questioning.

"Emma please tell us what happened just a few weeks ago between you and Kenny." Emma took a deep breath. "He told me to wait in my room and that he would be stopping by and my mother let him in. he came down to my bedroom and he beat me and he…" Emma stopped at images of that day flew into her mind. Vivid images of him on top of her, her crying and begging him to stop, and the pain she felt that day.

Closing her eyes for a minute she forced them out of her mind. Once the mages were gone she opened her eyes and focused on Kenny, giving him a cold stare. "He raped me for the first time." She said her eyes never leaving his. "Emma you said that he raped you for the first time. What did you mean by that?" Her eyes focused back on the prosecutor. "The next day after I got home from school Tyler came to my bedroom window and told me Kenny wanted me at his house. When we got there Kenny was in his room with the others and said he was going to share me with them. I refused and he slapped and punched me in the face. He ripped off my clothes and raped me again and let his friends do the same for most of the night." She said with a few tears slipping from her eyes but she barely noticed them. "Thank you Emma."

Emma barley had enough time to calm her self before the defense started in on her. "Why didn't you call the police or tell a teacher or parents about all this the first time he ever laid a hand on you?" the way he said it was in a cold tone that made her feel as cold as ice. "I didn't want them to know, I thought that maybe it was punishment for me screwing up so bad this year." She told him honestly

"How did you screw up?" "I just wasn't myself I let me grades slip I felt responsible for shooting that happened at school earlier this year." She hoped that he didn't bring up her and Jay and what they had done. "Aren't you forgetting one thing though?" "No." she knew what he was going to bring up next.

"Emma did you and Jason Hogart have a sexual relationship, starting right have the shooting?" his cold tone never leaving. Emma looked at Jay that looked at her sympathetically. "It wasn't a relationship but yes it was sexual." There was no point in denying what had happened. "So you had a sexual fling with Jason and what was the out come of this?" "I got Gonorrhea." She said quietly but they could still hear her.

"Did you regret getting involved with Jason and contracting a STD?" "Yes I did." The defense attorney smirked slightly at her. "So is it safe to say that you involved yourself in a sexual relationship with these young me and then regretted it the next morning and that's why you are accusing them of rape because you once again screw up."

Emma looked him right in the eye giving him a cold stare. "I did not consent to anything that Kenny or his friends did to me. I did not ask them to beat me or chock me till I thought I would black out. I did not ask them to hold me down on a bed and force themselves inside of me. No matter what I did with Jay doesn't mean I want this to happen!" She finally snapped and yelled. She wasn't going to be pushed around and she wasn't going to let them win this.

The people in the court room seemed a bit taken back by her out burst but her friends and family seemed proud that she wasn't going to be pushed around anymore. After Emma was done with her testimony the judge dismissed the jury so they could decide on a verdict. No one knew how long it would take the verdict to come in. But Emma just wanted to know what was going to happen; she wanted to move on from this the best she could.

A couple hours later (I know it sometimes take longer than this but hey it's fiction.) Emma and her family and friends were sitting back in the courtroom. Jay sat on one side of her his arm wrapped protectively around her, Paige on the other side holding on to her hand, and her parents behind them. Emma felt her heart start to beat faster and faster as the jury re-entered the courtroom and took their places. She didn't hear the judge ask for the verdict she was in a fog of nerves, and it seemed like the day was going in slow motion and she held onto Paige's hand tighter and leaned into Jay's body.

As Kenny, Tyler, David, and Jeff stood for the verdict there was a silent tension in the room. "We the jury find the defendants Kenneth Joseph Landers, Tyler Scott Mark, David Jacob Anderson, and Jeffery Brendan Collins. Guilty." The boys looked like the wind had been knocked out of their bodies. While Emma sat with her friends with a smile on her face. She had beaten them and could now start to pick her self up in time she would be herself again.

I'll be just fine

Pretending I'm not

I'm far from lonely

And it's all that I've got.- "All That I've got"- The Used.

Ok guys I hoped you enjoyed this chapter. And I know it sounds like the end but it's not I'm going to write one or 2 more chapters of this one. They might take a little while longer since I leave for school on Sunday but I will put aside as much time as I can to write in it I promise. Anyway please review.

Allie