Ok guys here is the next chapter I am so sorry that it has taken me so long to get this up, but I've had really bad writers block I hate that I've been neglecting my stories school was just so crazy and I'm finally home so hopefully my updates will come sooner. Anyway thank you for being so patient with me and I really hope you guys are still interested in this story. So enjoy and please review.

Go ahead and waste your days with thinking

When you fall everyone stands

Another day and you've had your fill of sinking

With the life held in your

Hands are shaking cold

These hands are meant to hold-"Move Along" All American Rejects

After the trial things didn't go back to normal as Emma had hoped, people at school were still cruel to her and Manny and Jay still tried to protect her from it. It seemed like everyday some one had something to say about her and it always stung. Emma had hoped that once the verdict came back guilty and people knew that she was not lying about what had happened that they would be different to her some how, but that wasn't the case; most days it got so bad she would cry in her room at night.

It was one of those days and Emma had locked herself in her room and was just sitting on her bed staring off into space, playing with the cross necklace Jay had given her the day of the trial; she never took it off, it made her days a bit easier knowing something he gave her was so close to her heart as she wore it. Today might be like all the others but today was going to be the last one like this. She was sick of crying all the time she was sick of pretending. She knew that she could never be the old Emma again, that girl was broken in tiny pieces, but she knew she could rebuild herself and take some of those pieces with her as she did.

The next day Emma was sitting at the counter at the Dot waiting for Paige and Manny to show up. She had called them both the night before when she made the choice to stand up for herself, she wanted to prove everyone that they were wrong but she needed her friends help with this. Emma was brought out of her thought of how she would do this by the bell ringing over the door, looking up from her hands she expected to see her friends but instead she saw Alex and the others walk in.

Emma felt her heart start to beat rapidly in a state of panic out of everyone's comments theirs seemed to hurt the most, she couldn't place why but every time they glared and said a mean hurtful remark always made her feel like she was smallest person on the planet. She looked down and tried to avoid eye contact with them praying to herself that they would leave her in peace just this one day. For once they didn't seem interested in tormenting her today, when Emma noticed them walk to a table with out glancing her way and let out a sigh of relieve and jumped when she felt a hand on her shoulder. "Gee hun calm down it's just us." Paige said taking a seat next to the other blonde, while Manny sat down on the other side. "So Em what was so important?" Manny asked her

Emma turned to look at her oldest friend and spoke. "Well even after the trial people are still talking and snickering I know people are going to think what they want but I just want them to hear my side of the story, hear what I had to go through maybe then I don't know I'll get some closer and it might be easier to take since I've said the truth and I can take pride in that." She told her two best friends and waited for their comments. Both of the other girls seemed to think it over before Manny finally spoke up. "I think it's a great idea Emma whatever you need us to do we'll help." She said with Paige nodding in agreement

. "What do you need us to do?" Paige asked her "Well all I really need is support; I mean it's going to be hard to tell the whole school what happened to me I just really need you guys to keep me motivated with it." it was up to her but she knew at some point she was going to chicken out and not have the strength to go through with it. "We're here Emma all your friends are for whatever you need." Manny told her with a smile.

As the days passed Emma spent most of her time working on what she was going to say to everyone, she and Marco had convinced Mr. Raditch to let them hold an assembly so that the school really knows what it's like for a person to be violated and hurt that they needed to know the truth. It had taken awhile but he finally came around and the assembly was to take place during last period tomorrow.

Emma was sitting at her desk listening to music doing her work when she heard a knock at her window. Wondering who it could be she got up from her chair and cautiously made her way over to it; even though the guys were in jail Emma was still cautious of people and places she even considered sealing the window but decided against it, she wasn't going to be afraid forever. When she got to the window she smiled at the familiar face that was facing her and climbed up and opened it for him. Stepping away she waited for Jay to crawl through entirely. "What are you doing here?" she asked and sat down on her bed with him leaning against her head board.

"I got bored at home so I came to see my favorite girl." And she was his favorite girl in more ways than one Emma thought that he meant it as a friend but in reality over the past months he had fallen so deeply in love with her he just didn't want to push her to far because of everything she had been through. But keeping his feelings buried inside of him was killing him slowly from the inside out and he had to at least tell her the truth, he owed her that much.

Emma felt her heart start to flutter when he spoke those words, for a long time she was not very comfortable around anyone especially guys except Jay she could have touch her and a warm calming feeling would wash over her and she knew she was safe with him. She secretly wished that one day he would see her in a different light. There were times when they almost would kiss but something always happened to stop them from making that connection, she wanted it to happen but maybe it just wasn't meant to right now.

The two sat there on the bed in a comfortable silence till Emma broke it with a yawn she tried to hide. She hadn't been sleeping well for the past few night worrying about her speech she would be giving. "You tired Greenpeace?" Jay asked her and for the first time really noticing how tired and warn out she really looked. "Mm yea a bit I haven't been sleeping well." She confessed to him another yawn escaping her mouth and making Jay look on in concern. "Well come on lie down for awhile." Jay said and got up from the bed and made her lay back on the bed against he pillows. Once she was comfortable Jay gently placed her light purple throw blanket across her body and ran his hand over her head before turning to leave her to rest.

Before he got away from her Emma reached out and grabbed his hand making him turn to look at her as she opened her sleepy hazel eyes. "Stay with me?" she uttered her voice thick with tiredness. Jay didn't hesitate he sat on the edge of the bed and removed his shoes before he lay back under the blanket Emma held open for him to climb under with her. When his body was rested comfortably Emma moved closer to him and rested her head against his shoulder; falling peacefully to sleep. Jay watched as she drifted off to sleep kissing her forehead gently he tightened his arms around, "I love you." He whispered as he drifted off to sleep with her in his arms.

The next day Emma woke up to the annoying sound of her alarm and rolled over to make it stop. Once her hand hit the button and the room was silent she inhaled deeply and smiled, she could still smell Jay on her pillows and blankets. His scent was warm and comforting to her and that was something she needed today; today she was going to be speaking the truth to her school.

Finally getting herself out of the safety of her bed Emma dragged herself into her bathroom and got into her shower to try to wash away her fears. After she was done she threw on a pair of dark blue jeans and long sleeve pink top and put on her flip flops and grabbed her bag. With one last deep breath Emma left her room ready for the day she had ahead of her.

"Emma good you're just in time for breakfast." Her mother said when she appeared at the top of the stairs. Before Emma could say anything her mother had put her into a seat and placed a plate of breakfast in front of her. Staring at the food Emma felt her stomach lurch forward she was too nervous to put anything near her mouth. "Mom thanks but I can't eat I'm just too nervous to eat today." She said getting up from her chair and giving her mother a kiss on the cheek. "Em you need to eat something." Spike said in a firm motherly tone. "I can't right now mom if I put it near my mouth I'll throw up. I promise I will eat later." and with that Emma left her home and headed to school for the longest day of her life.

So far the day had been the same as it has been for as long as Emma could remember, the whispers the stares they still stung she hoped that after today they wouldn't sting as much and that the stares wouldn't burn her skin. So caught up in her thoughts of hope Emma didn't see the person in front of her and slammed into them, and the force almost sent her flying till a pair of hands grabbed her. When she got her footing Emma looked up to see Sean smiling at her. "Gee Nelson I see that I still have the power to make you weak in the knees." He laughed she smiled at him and pulled him into a hug.

"What are you doing here?" she asked as she pulled away from him a bit. She was a little shocked she had talked to him but hadn't seen Sean since the night he took her to the hospital. "Well Jay told me what you were planning on doing today and I thought you might need a little extra support, so here I am." He said and hugged her again. "I'm so glad you're here Sean, I need you here." She whispered as he held her close.

As the day went on Emma felt more comfortable and confident because she had Sean, and her other friends around her. They helped her stay focused on what she needed to do even though at most times she felt like running from the school and not looking back. Now it was too late, Emma was backstage waiting for her assembly to start and was trying to keep her stomach from escaping. And it was getting harder too because she started to hear the sounds of students filing in along with their whispers and laughter.

She stood frozen not hearing the words Mr. Raditch was telling the students she did hear them all settle down and silence fell over them all, all she could hear was her heart beating inside her chest, so when some one came up behind her and placed their hand on her shoulder she jumped at the contact. "Hey Greenpeace it's just me calm down." It was Jay "Hey sorry just trying to calm down." He smiled at her and pulled her into his body. "You'll be fine I promise you I'm going to be right here watching you I won't let them hurt you any more." Emma looked up into his eyes and knew he wouldn't let any one hurt her. "I'm still scared Jay what if they still don't believe Me." she looked down after she said those words and watched her hands shake. Jay pulled her face up to look him back in the eyes. "Emma listens to me no matter what, they say or do after this means nothing. You know the truth you're not hiding anymore. You can move on from this now. And you can do this Emma, your strong and get through this and we're here to help you if you need it." he told her and it brought a small smile to her face. Before she could say anything else though Mr. Raditch came out and told her that they were ready for her.

With one last Deep breath and look at Jay Emma turned and walked out from behind the curtain, she walked to the podium with out glancing at the students the lay before her but once she was there she looked up at them all. She could feel their eyes burning into her she closed her eyes and replayed Jay's words in her head and blocked out the burning eyes and focused on feeling Jays. She opened her eyes and suddenly she wasn't afraid anymore.

"Most of you know me and most of you think you know me. I know what people are saying about me and I know what you think of me, but today I want to tell you my side, my truth and weather you want to believe me or not is up to all of you after this I am moving on. After the shooting I lost myself, I had no identity I felt that what had happened was my fault and deserved to be punished. And then I met Kenny at first he was sweet and cared about me, or at least I thought he did. Then things started to change, he was mean and hateful towards me, then the hitting started but again I thought I deserved it, I helped bully Rick I didn't try to stop it so why not get this it's karma right." Emma stopped for a minute and looked at everyone staring at her but for once they were listening to her not judging her. So she kept going.

"He treated me like I was nothing just a useless piece of garbage that he could do whatever he wanted with. And when he felt like it he "shared" me with his friends. He raped me and then he let his friend's rape and beat me down, not just physically but emotionally. They took the last shreds I had left of my soul and destroyed it. I will move on from this but I will never be who I used to be because of them." She wasn't scared anymore she was free now. "Look I know you guys will think what you like about me and about what is real or not and I know that I can't change your minds by being up here. But at least now you have the truth you have heard me and that's all that matters to me now. I am moving on from this, I am going to try to rebuild my life with the people that really matter to Me." she said and looked over at Jay who smirked at her. "thank you for listening to me and I hope that from now on you guys remember to listen to both sides of a story before you say anything about some one, and I hope that all of you remember your own pain in your lives the kind of pain that changes you inside and out. I hope you think of that and don't hurt anyone even more than they already are." And with that Emma walked off stage and to Jay who grabbed her and spun her around.

When he set her back down he smiled at her and without thinking he leaned down and kissed her. The kiss caught Emma off guard but it was something that she had wanted for a long time so she just gave into it. Once they pulled apart Jay leaned his head against hers. "So what now?" she asked once she had caught her breath. "I think me and you should be together now, if you want Me." he said to her in a low voice afraid that if he spoke louder that the moment would be ruined. Emma smiled at him and laughed a little "Yes Jay I want you, there's no I want to be with more in my life."

Jay wrapped his arm around her and they headed out the back way behind the stage. "So Greenpeace you ready to move on?" "With you I think I am." She smiled and they walked out of the school together.